Help...if you can...

[shy6teen]

I am on the brink of suicide...I don't know what to do anymore.

All my life I have been hurt and abused by people, including myself. I used to live in a small town in the middle of Kansas. Recently my mom and I moved to here to Colorado. We lived with my brother until my mom found a job, then we bought our own place. Now...she is losing her job, we are thousands of dollars in debt, my past is coming back to haunt me, and the car got stolen...My mom and I used to have a good relationship, but not we are always yelling at each other.


Everyday is torture, I am in so much pain. If I could leave this world today and forever be with the Lord, then why should I keep suffering like this? I'm losing trust in almost everyone...I feel all alone.
Everyday I hope for these feelings to end, but they just get stronger. Hope is for those with something left...

The only thing that has kept me alive this long is church. But I don't know how much longer it can sustain me.

I don't really know why I am posting this...I guess this is just my last cry for help...

 

[missionary1]

I am on the brink of suicide...I don't know what to do anymore.

All my life I have been hurt and abused by people, including myself. I used to live in a small town in the middle of Kansas. Recently my mom and I moved to here to Colorado. We lived with my brother until my mom found a job, then we bought our own place. Now...she is losing her job, we are thousands of dollars in debt, my past is coming back to haunt me, and the car got stolen...My mom and I used to have a good relationship, but not we are always yelling at each other.


Everyday is torture, I am in so much pain. If I could leave this world today and forever be with the Lord, then why should I keep suffering like this? I'm losing trust in almost everyone...I feel all alone.
Everyday I hope for these feelings to end, but they just get stronger. Hope is for those with something left...

The only thing that has kept me alive this long is church. But I don't know how much longer it can sustain me.

I don't really know why I am posting this...I guess this is just my last cry for help...

You are not alone shy6teen... We care about you here and we want to help you!

Let's talk...

 

[Rosa Mystica]

Please do not kill yourself!!!!

Sweetheart, I am sooooo glad I came upon this message. It definitely is a cry for help. I think you may be suffering from depression- at least that is what it sounds like to me. You say that you abuse yourself: are you self-injuring? If the answer is yes, then you need to get help for this. It's not a problem that will go away on its own.

I've been where you are. I've gone through suicidal phases myself. Last year, I recall an episode where I looked around my apartment for places from which to hang myself. Not a good thing. Currently, I am on medication and in counselling. The meds so far have not worked, but the counselling has helped somewhat. Perhaps these things will work for you as well.

If you need to talk, I'm only a pm away. Please don't commit suicide- it is a permanent solution to a temporary problem.

Take care, sweetie.

Rosa

 

[spunkiegirl]

I've been there too, came close to making a suicide attempt once, and was suicidal for a while after that, but God saved me from myself. Feeli free to email or PM me if you want to talk.

 

[christus]

I am on the brink of suicide...I don't know what to do anymore.

All my life I have been hurt and abused by people, including myself. I used to live in a small town in the middle of Kansas. Recently my mom and I moved to here to Colorado. We lived with my brother until my mom found a job, then we bought our own place. Now...she is losing her job, we are thousands of dollars in debt, my past is coming back to haunt me, and the car got stolen...My mom and I used to have a good relationship, but not we are always yelling at each other.


Everyday is torture, I am in so much pain. If I could leave this world today and forever be with the Lord, then why should I keep suffering like this? I'm losing trust in almost everyone...I feel all alone.
Everyday I hope for these feelings to end, but they just get stronger. Hope is for those with something left...

The only thing that has kept me alive this long is church. But I don't know how much longer it can sustain me.

I don't really know why I am posting this...I guess this is just my last cry for help...

You must know and I'm sure you do that christ is always with us even we think he isn't. I had bad times (of depression) too. But I just continued believing in God.
I'm sure everything is for good and don't forget that it's God's will (I always say it when I pass hard times and it makes me feel better).
I hope God will help you but remember, there is no place in heaven for persons who commited suicide!

 

[BOJAX]

try reading the book of Job
that's what I'm doing
maybe it will help

 

[christus]

try reading the book of Job
that's what I'm doing
maybe it will help

Book of Job is a great one. I liked it very much and it shows that everything is God's decision.
Good luck in your reading

 

[ascribe2thelord]

Book of Job is a great one. I liked it very much and it shows that everything is God's decision.
Good luck in your reading

Ultimately I don't think the book of Job is the best place to go.

Psalm 147:6 - "The LORD lifteth up the meek: he casteth the wicked down to the ground."

Also know that quite a few of God's prophets were at times suicidal. God made them ultimately to realize that suicide would be a self-righteous act, and not God-honoring. If you truly want God to be pleased with you, you would not kill yourself!

 

[christus]

Ultimately I don't think the book of Job is the best place to go.

Why?