HELP! - I messed it up again...

[youthwalk]

Last night I ended it with my bf of 31/2 years. About nothing. Literally. Except that I was edgy due to a mood swing and got too angry. There wasn't even a reason to be angry. Now I don't know what to do.

I hate the fact that this happens at times because of how much control I lose when I'm in a bad mood.

I don't really want to break up. But I said it. What do I do now?

 

[goldenviolet]

learn, grow, grieve in anger, grieve without anger, one at a time, until all your feelings are out. relationships ending have this effect on all of us. bipolar or not. bipolar however need to monitor self/ or get help/ support. like everyone. but we need to know everything's going to be ok. you won't be swallowed up by these things. it just feels really big because it's a big prosess for us all. everything will be ok.

 

[Im-revived]

Does your bf know about and understand your illness??

I would suggest love, firstly, get in touch with him, talk about your illness as much as you know about. Both go and see your doc or specialist, ask them to explain the illness so you both understand, apologise, and see what happens. There are groups/leaflets/ sites to go on to help him understand why you have sudden changes in mood, but it sounds like you both need advice on this.

Im-revived

Last night I ended it with my bf of 31/2 years. About nothing. Literally. Except that I was edgy due to a mood swing and got too angry. There wasn't even a reason to be angry. Now I don't know what to do.

I hate the fact that this happens at times because of how much control I lose when I'm in a bad mood.

I don't really want to break up. But I said it. What do I do now?

 

[youthwalk]

I was really happy. We both were. We planned to get married in 3-4 yrs.

I know it sound fickle to keep breaking up like that and still talk abou marriage but we were going really well. We've gone to counselling together both at church and with my Pdoc. It was going really well. He has been VERY supportive. He was the person who researched Lithium when I knew nothing about it. Then we both researched meds together. Went to that appointment together and discussed with the pdoc.

The reason I'm so worked up now about something that if thought about logically is pretty minor (since we broke up over nothing) is because I was trying so hard to stay in control and I keep failing.

 

[spdnet75]

Last night I ended it with my bf of 31/2 years. About nothing. Literally. Except that I was edgy due to a mood swing and got too angry. There wasn't even a reason to be angry. Now I don't know what to do.

I hate the fact that this happens at times because of how much control I lose when I'm in a bad mood.

I don't really want to break up. But I said it. What do I do now?

Hi. spdnet here! I'm Bi-Polar, as well as many other things.
Saying that you are sorry gets old with the folks around you.
Try what I am working on... Take any medication, on time and create an anger log.
Everything and everyone have the potential to annoy me. It's the way I am. ( Only we can affect whether or not a person walks upon our serenity. )
Hope it helps.
-SPD

 

[AngelRider]

I would try to phone him soon before the sun goes down on the anger and clear the matter with an apology.

love you
angelrider

 

[spdnet75]

Last night I ended it with my bf of 31/2 years. About nothing. Literally. Except that I was edgy due to a mood swing and got too angry. There wasn't even a reason to be angry. Now I don't know what to do.

I hate the fact that this happens at times because of how much control I lose when I'm in a bad mood.

I don't really want to break up. But I said it. What do I do now?

Keep your heart in mind.
The heart is sweet, and Universal!

I'm not afraid.