Help I can't get free(Bpd)

[lizzy20]

Okay I'm brand new but I feel God led me to this site to get help from fellow Christians.

Well it all started when I was 15. I started into drugs, cutting, and an eating disorder. By sixteen I was in the hospital with my first suicide attempt. Since then I've been in and out of hospitals, in residentials, and now in a nursing home for mental health patients. I recently thought I was getting better, I had been pressing onward in my faith. THen the devil came to attack. I just moved to my nursing home not even two weeks ago and now I'm cutting, starving, purging, not taking meds, and trying to ultimitaly kill myself. I really don't know what to do. Will God really accept me I mean I've been doing this stuff for 5 years now? Is psychotherapy a good thing with a non-christian councelor. I have a regular Christian councelor but she can't do the psychotherapy "required." I'm tempted to just throw everything on Christ, but what about my medication? SHould I keep taking it? I believe God can heal anything but does that mean through medication also? Well I'll stop for now and ask further questions later.

Lizzy

 

[madison1101]

Dear Sweet Lizzie,
I am someone who has been healing from BPD for a long time, and I can attest to the fact that there is hope, and that psychotherapy with a secular therapist does work. I have experienced many blessings from my therapist. Also, if you have a psychiatrist prescribing you psych meds, do not, I repeat, do not go off your meds. BPD is a combination of symptoms, and some need meds, per your doctor's instructions.

Secular therapist should be licensed. Any therapist should be licensed, Christian or secular.

I also would encourage you to get into a discipleship relationship with a mature, loving Christian woman, who can guide you in your walk with the Lord. I would share my prayer requests with my discipler, and also she would pray for my therapist. I would then process my sessions with her, and she would give me scriptures to meditate and study.

I have been able to eliminate most of my symptoms. It has taken me a long time to do this, and a lot of hard work in therapy, but it is so worth it.

Beth Moore has a Bible study on "Breaking Free" that I would recommend you do. It is hard work, but worth it.

Hugs,
Trish

 

[lizzy20]

Thank you so much

 

[Kristen.NewCreation]

Welcome.

I agree with Trish's feedback to you - please don't go off your medications. The difference with a Christian counselor vs a secular counselor, is that the secular counselor won't address the spiritual issues of healing, where a Christian counselor will (or should).

Have you done any Dialetcal Behavioral Therapy in any of your treatment programs? The response is highly successful for BPD and several other issues.

I've done Beth Moore's study, Breaking Free. It's definitely tough, but awesome. I'd love to do it again at this point in my life.