Hi guys
Thanks for the add
I have been in religion most all my life started as JW when I was a kid becos of my mum and taught to really fear God. Then she left after they couldnt answer some questions she had and joined the Anglican church and is now 30 years later is a retired ordained Anglican Minister, I love my mum. But I didnt follow I lived my own life and was reckless as hell, still am.
I met a guy at work when I was in my early 30s who lead me to Jesus and I was baptised in a Baptist church the next year. My wife and I moved to Aus and I started at the Salvation army and a small baptist church and I loved Jesus and I even began a diploma at Harvest online. I studied and really enjoyed Bible History and as I learnt I realised that the Orthodox Church was the original Church and so I joined and was baptised at a Orthodox church as I studied. I was on fire for Jesus and I fear God, I could even talk and write ancient greek so I could read the original greek bible, I was alive with good christian doctrine and Christian scripture was all encompassing as was my love for Jesus.
Today I am 42 years old and I am loosing my faith,
there are many reasons why, in fact its the accumulated knowledge along with what I see happening and what I have seen has happened in the past. Its religion and politics, it doctrines that condemn each other for their doctrines and those lost if not saved will suffer punishment their own doctrines are trying to convince them that they are completely free of.
Its watching these guys with million doller TV churches spin and spin as their wallets get fatter and fatter, Its watching people who claim to know Jesus dance around like fools blabbing gibberish while others think that a convicted con man dug up golden tablets and wants you to wear magic undies. Its f***ed the whole thing is completely screw balls.
It seems the rhetoric I hear now are just people who are hanging on for dear life, because they have to they have no other choice, they have lost loved ones and want to see them again as do I. If I just trust in Jesus and no matter what remember his ways are higher then my ways so I cant understand what hes doing know matter how horrifying it is Revelation said it was coming and the end is still to come, I just have to trust and win the race as Paul puts it.
In the meantime I am a sinner who still feels like hes going to hell thanks to religion, thanks to people who told me that I am saved.....so long as I do this or that and dont stay from the path.
I love the idea of Jesus and I love the idea that I will see my brother in heaven one day (even though he died as a believing JW and according to some hes in hell)
Im sorry sorry guys I can no longer believe in a god that is going to destroy people born in a sinful world shown a flawed dogma diluted religion and told to suck eggs if you dont choose the right one
I need to believe in a God who loves us who wont let this crap go on much longer and will free all of us, not just the ones who think they got it right. This whole world is completely buggered and we have to live in the shadow of an ancient curse. I will cower before your Religions god as a flawed sinful man who didnt get it right and await my fate.
I guess Im here on this forum, trying to grasp at threads, sorry for the neg of the post
If you have read this far Im impressed!
Thank you again
Thanks for the add
I have been in religion most all my life started as JW when I was a kid becos of my mum and taught to really fear God. Then she left after they couldnt answer some questions she had and joined the Anglican church and is now 30 years later is a retired ordained Anglican Minister, I love my mum. But I didnt follow I lived my own life and was reckless as hell, still am.
I met a guy at work when I was in my early 30s who lead me to Jesus and I was baptised in a Baptist church the next year. My wife and I moved to Aus and I started at the Salvation army and a small baptist church and I loved Jesus and I even began a diploma at Harvest online. I studied and really enjoyed Bible History and as I learnt I realised that the Orthodox Church was the original Church and so I joined and was baptised at a Orthodox church as I studied. I was on fire for Jesus and I fear God, I could even talk and write ancient greek so I could read the original greek bible, I was alive with good christian doctrine and Christian scripture was all encompassing as was my love for Jesus.
Today I am 42 years old and I am loosing my faith,
there are many reasons why, in fact its the accumulated knowledge along with what I see happening and what I have seen has happened in the past. Its religion and politics, it doctrines that condemn each other for their doctrines and those lost if not saved will suffer punishment their own doctrines are trying to convince them that they are completely free of.
Its watching these guys with million doller TV churches spin and spin as their wallets get fatter and fatter, Its watching people who claim to know Jesus dance around like fools blabbing gibberish while others think that a convicted con man dug up golden tablets and wants you to wear magic undies. Its f***ed the whole thing is completely screw balls.
It seems the rhetoric I hear now are just people who are hanging on for dear life, because they have to they have no other choice, they have lost loved ones and want to see them again as do I. If I just trust in Jesus and no matter what remember his ways are higher then my ways so I cant understand what hes doing know matter how horrifying it is Revelation said it was coming and the end is still to come, I just have to trust and win the race as Paul puts it.
In the meantime I am a sinner who still feels like hes going to hell thanks to religion, thanks to people who told me that I am saved.....so long as I do this or that and dont stay from the path.
I love the idea of Jesus and I love the idea that I will see my brother in heaven one day (even though he died as a believing JW and according to some hes in hell)
Im sorry sorry guys I can no longer believe in a god that is going to destroy people born in a sinful world shown a flawed dogma diluted religion and told to suck eggs if you dont choose the right one
I need to believe in a God who loves us who wont let this crap go on much longer and will free all of us, not just the ones who think they got it right. This whole world is completely buggered and we have to live in the shadow of an ancient curse. I will cower before your Religions god as a flawed sinful man who didnt get it right and await my fate.
I guess Im here on this forum, trying to grasp at threads, sorry for the neg of the post
If you have read this far Im impressed!
Thank you again
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