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[ksdedee74]

Hello I am so glad I found this site today. Dh & I have been trying since Aug. We became pregnant in Oct. but lost that baby on Dec 1st. This is the first time dh and I have had any problems and it has been a new and frustrating and sad situation for us. My dh was been diagnosied with a low sperm count and low mobility years ago, but it hasn't affected our baby-making. I am not sure if that has anything to do with our problems of late or if it just helps to make things more difficult. In the past I was one of those women who if the wind was blowing the right direction I got pregnant.

I was doing pretty well until the last few days. I am currently at CD 32 and 10dpo. I have been sick the last few days but a prego test said no yesterday and this evening. For some reason the last few days I have started becoming very needy for an answer. Does this make sense?

Dh would like us to take the next 2 cycle off if I do not concieve this cycle, because we already have 3 birthdays around thanksgiving and Christmas. This is very frustrating because I have very long cycles and because the our kids really didn't understand about the miscarriage and constantly ask when we can get another baby. I was really hoping to be able to give them some good news.

Well I could go on and on but I should keep alittle mystery. I sure hope that I can meet some friends and grow in my knowledge of Jesus and his Love for me.

 

[chillybean]

welcome ksdedee! I will send a prayer for you. This is a nice forum. Definitely check out the ttcers unite thread. Its very supportive.
I want to grow in the knowledge of Jesus and His love for me too. Are you a new christian?
chillybean

 

[gracepaints]

I'm sorry for your loss. I had a miscarriage in November and it was very difficult emotionally.

10DPO is still early to get a BFP. I would give it a few more days.

 

[psychoceramic]

Hi there and welcome to cf.....

i am sorry for your loss and for your husbands loss as well, please let him know i am praying for him and for his family.


Dear Father i lift up this man to you and ask that you would present your self to him in a mighty and wonderful way. He has seen the amazing birth of life and has felt the hurt and bitterness of death, please Lord come to him seek him out as he seeks answers and growth and as he explores His life in You bring peace and comfort to his family.

Lord i lift up Ksdedee to you as well, peace like a mighty river flow into her life and her family, lead her and her family by the still waters so she may find rest. She has no wants in you only rest in the meadows and by the streams for you are her Shepard.

IN JESUS name.
AMEN

 

[ksdedee74]

chillybean - Thank you. No I am not a new Christian, but during my 1st marriage and the divorce, I was very angry and upset and wasted alot of my time on those feeling and frustrations. I at that point in my life was not leadain a very good life. I was still not really in a very good place when I married my current husband, who is the most amazing man I know. I changed then he changed.

gracepaints - I know it was silly of me to test. I am just really positive I am. I just truelly believe it this month. Just like I knew last month I wasn't. And I knew about 2 weeks before the miscarriage something was wrong. Course I could be wrong and that is what greeps in and drives me crazy. I just want the confirmation I am not crazy. Does that make sense? I guess i just like to have things settle I am a very yes or no person I hate the middle ground.

psychoceramic - Thank you for the prayer, it means alot. Dh's family causes him alot of grief. They have some major problems with achoholism. And they just don't understand what has happened to him at all and the dislike it. They put him in situations where he has to choose between his old life and his NEW life. They have become increasing nasty because of his choice for his New Life. It is to the point they (dh or his family) are not speaking. This causes alot of problems because his parent, his aunt and uncle and his grandma and us all live within walking distance of each other. It is a very small town. LOL I grew up in the next town over same county and such just diferent group of houses lol.

Thanks everyone for the support.

 

[Jillymac]

Welcome ksdedee!! Just to comment on your initial post that being needy for answers makes total sense and you're not alone!
So sorry you had to endure the miscarriage, i pray that God will bless you with a healthy pregnancy and baby when the time comes, until then I pray He fills you up with strength and patience, never give up and hold onto your desire for a baby because it WILL happen.

Jxx

 

[ksdedee74]

Jillymac - Thanks sometimes I feel so wierd about just the wanting to know. I am ok with either answer although I do really want another baby. But the not knowing makes me just wierd, I get all anxious and such. What makes me mad at myself is I know that since I am good wil eiether answer i should be ok with the wait. But... I guess my real issue is probably trying not to be a control freak huh?

It was even like that during the miscarriage, I made myself crazy with worry when I started spotting and such. But when it finally happened I was much calmer and was able to help my family, myself and friends.

 

[Alegría]

Welcome ksdee! I am new to these forums, myself. I pray that God blesses you with a little one! Don't give up hope! I've read that even though women test negative, they still feel pregnant. Call it, women's intuition. Have you thought about maybe going to your doctor to get a blood test? That is more accurate.

Can I ask: what is 10 DPO and BFP?

 

[ksdedee74]

Welcome ksdee! I am new to these forums, myself. I pray that God blesses you with a little one! Don't give up hope! I've read that even though women test negative, they still feel pregnant. Call it, women's intuition. Have you thought about maybe going to your doctor to get a blood test? That is more accurate.

Can I ask: what is 10 DPO and BFP?

10 Days Past Ovulation
Big Fat Positive

I hope that others use them. I am on another BB (buliten board) and we use them sometimes I forget that other don't I use apperviations when writing to my family sometimes and they are like What are you talking about.

Oh I don't need a blood test if I am I am if not then I am not. We don't have health insurance, my dh's work offers it but it would be half of his salary, so we just pay for everything at the time. I can't really think of any reason to get a blood test. I expect AF (Aunt Flo) Sat. or Sun. So I guess I just need to learn patience. I also Temp becuase we use NFP (Natural Family Planning) So I will have a good guess by what tommorrows temp is. It usually drops significantly on CD35 (Cycle Day) which is tomorrow. I have very long cycles. That use to be very frustrating to me, because I felt cheated out of a month of trying a year, but I have learned there are some good things about it also.