- Sep 13, 2020
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First some background info. I used to be an atheist till some stuff happen that changed my prospective. Long story short I started going to church. I now believe in God and Satan/Lucifer. I believe in Jesus. I used to go to church every Sunday and helped with events. For about 4 years till I moved out of town and really can't do that much anymore.
That is not what caused this divide between myself and God though. I had many of these questions before that, but felt like I never got any satisfactory answers to them and that is mostly my fault. I always tried to word them in the best ways I could to not overly offend anyone. Because of that I don't think they really understood what I was asking. So I will try to be more direct here.
As of now. I am not a Christian. I believe in Christ, but I do not love him, or the father. I don't see either of them as being particularly bad or good. Just flawed. I also don't think the devil is evil. He just has a different way of doing things and is in disagreement with God on many of those things and honestly if I had to side with someone at this moment. I'd probably side with Lucifer.
I don't think God is perfect. I do think he makes mistakes, a lot of them actually, and those are the things I have questions about. I want to side with God. I want to believe he is a good person and has a great plan for all of us, but I can't. Not with so many questions unanswered. So that is why I am really here. No to convince you that your faith is wrong and that you should side with Satan, but to be convinced that I am wrong, and that I should side with God. I want that. I do. But I am starting to think that is impossible.
This is getting to long. So I'll just end it by saying hello.
That is not what caused this divide between myself and God though. I had many of these questions before that, but felt like I never got any satisfactory answers to them and that is mostly my fault. I always tried to word them in the best ways I could to not overly offend anyone. Because of that I don't think they really understood what I was asking. So I will try to be more direct here.
As of now. I am not a Christian. I believe in Christ, but I do not love him, or the father. I don't see either of them as being particularly bad or good. Just flawed. I also don't think the devil is evil. He just has a different way of doing things and is in disagreement with God on many of those things and honestly if I had to side with someone at this moment. I'd probably side with Lucifer.
I don't think God is perfect. I do think he makes mistakes, a lot of them actually, and those are the things I have questions about. I want to side with God. I want to believe he is a good person and has a great plan for all of us, but I can't. Not with so many questions unanswered. So that is why I am really here. No to convince you that your faith is wrong and that you should side with Satan, but to be convinced that I am wrong, and that I should side with God. I want that. I do. But I am starting to think that is impossible.
This is getting to long. So I'll just end it by saying hello.