Hello - from the new guy

[Bennuboy]

Hello all. I'm new here, was looking for a Godly answer to my problem and the Lord led me here. I have suffered from mild Schizophrenia for years but never knew, i thought i was under demonic oppression, did alot of fasting and praying and wondering what I was doing wrong but anytime someone would bring up a mental health issue i just shrugged it off. I am only now taking it seriously seeking help and support.

One thing i have noticed after studying the disorder for awhile is that alot of Christians that have it, either use to or still smoke marijuana...just wondering if maybe there is a link there that hasnt been explored before. I use to smoke ALOT of weed before and after i was redeemed at 17, and didnt quit until i had a full mental break that scared me to sobriety. I also never had symptoms until the break. That happened when i was 19 or so (few memories of that time) and im almost 26 now.

So far the voices have tried to convince me that im damned, that the voices are me or my heart, bad things about God, etc. By the Grace of God i stood strong against all of it and wouldn't accept it so the voices just started tormenting me, trying to overwhelm my normal thoughts, disrupt my sleep, etc. Thats why i always thought it was oppression, because the symptoms are almost the same and it still may be oppression but I believe Jesus finally answered my prayers and is leading me to normality by swallowing pride and seeking help.

Well just wanted to drop a line and say hi, i'll be here daily now, God knows support is truly needed for recovery from such thing.

Peace

 

[Jeshu]

Hi Ben

Look I'm Schizo affective and was already severely sick by the age of 18 -21 with voices hammering my heart and mind. Yet I never smoked my first joint till I was 29 - indeed with it I controlled the schizophrenic side of my illness for 7 years, before life got to much for me and I started to abuse the drug to keep in charge. Indeed moderation should be the potters motto.

What you are saying about the voices is so true. Doom and damnation are the grunt of it.
I thought that my (main) voice was from the devil - as all he ever sprouted was wickedness - I still struggle with getting Satan of this voice - as it is realer than real to me.

Welcome on board.

Gerry

 

[DoubtingThomas29]

Marijuana smells so bad, I hope it stays illeagal for that reason alone. It can take people with a genetic disposition to schizophrenia and bring out the paranoia a lot. It will make you more paranoid to smoke it, so please don't smoke that stuff it affects your brain, and will mess with the chemistry in your brain, you only want your psychiatrist doing that, He or She knows how those psychotropic drugs work.

Sincerely,

Thomas

 

[rubixcube]

hi, if you research on the internet, marijuana often leads to schizophrenia. especially since you said you had a break-down, and THEN it all started to happen, I'm pretty sure it is because of the pot. Definitely see a doctor and tell them everything. He/She will probably subscribe medication to help the voices go away and clear your thoughts. I am very glad that you never lost trust in God. If you need further personal help, please feel free to private message me.

 

[Jeshu]

I am also a long term sufferer of schizophrenia and share many similarities with yourself, a major part of my day to day well being is to do with my knowledge of myself and where the intrusive thoughts stem from, it is as if they are amplified reflections of my own fears projected back into my concious, I feel that reassuring myself that a better understanding of my own mind and imagination helps control a large proportion of symptoms, in turn this frees me from the belief that I need to turn to others for support and guidance.

How do you feel about my views?

Donny

I found that the very best way to deal with intrusive thoughts and voices is to go to God and cling to His loving truth until the lies lessens and you can walk by yourself once more.

Be blessed.