I am new. My name is Sharene, and i am 18 years old. I go to a Christian school, but i'm not really sure if i am a Christian. I was saved several times, but i'm still not convinced that i am going to heaven. I have cut since i was 12 years old, and i still do it. Last June (04) I told my mom that i cut, and she took me to a Christian counselor. Well, he didnt really help me that much. In October i threatened to kill myself, and my mom almost put me in the hospital. it was at that time i was diagnosed with having depression. In March i was put on an anti-depressant. It was working, but it made me gain a lot of weight. i was recently put on a new one. At the end of May, i was sick of not really getting better so i moved out of my mother's house so i could get proper help. I moved in with my spanish teacher, and i think i have been doing better since. I still cut, and i dont think i will ever be able to stop.