Hello everybody :(

[WrightM]

I have some questions before I post my prayer request.

I've read about how true christians have contact with the holy spirit. Is there anyone here who has contact with the holy spirit? ( Like have you asked the spirit to give you answers or give revelations? ) If so, please ask the holy spirit for me if Satan/demons/evil forces were involved in how my year turned out.

Please answer if you can. I promise to post my request later on. It may take me awhile, but I will. This is very important.

 

[Im-revived]

Are you a fairly new Christian? as you may get peoples different opinions on this, but dont let that worry you. The Holy Spirit will show you himself, when you say does anyone have contact with the holy spirit, that means its through prayer, by praying and waiting the holy spirit directs you in many differen ways, it could be by simple things that constantly prompt your mind, one thing i do particularly if ive lost something important or need direction for something important, or even if i am really struggling to buy food etc, i will pray, and ask the lord to help, theres so many times without saying a word to anyone the holy spirit has spoke through another christian by there desernmenment, and next minute help has arrived. God gives direction through other true christians.

I just feel i want to pray for you on here if you dont mind, as its obviously something thaat your struggling with. God or the holy spirit will not tell you wether demons and evil sorces were involved in how your year turned out. The way you know is by asking the holy spirit, praying to jesus and your consciounce will tell you through the holy spirit if there is problems in the areas mentioned.

Lord jesus,

I ask that your revealing spirit will come over WrightM, that the Holy spirit will open there eyes to the truth, and guidance will be given, God does not give us a spirit off confusion, so i ask that WrightM will feel free to ask there question without fear.

In jesus name

Amen

I have some questions before I post my prayer request.

I've read about how true christians have contact with the holy spirit. Is there anyone here who has contact with the holy spirit? ( Like have you asked the spirit to give you answers or give revelations? ) If so, please ask the holy spirit for me if Satan/demons/evil forces were involved in how my year turned out.

Please answer if you can. I promise to post my request later on. It may take me awhile, but I will. This is very important.

 

[jesuslovesme54]

I agree and am praying in agreement. God Bless

 

[Criada]

Lord, be with this son of Yours, please guide and protect him, in Jesus name
Amen

 

[hypostatic]

Praying that the Holy Spirit will reveal what you are looking for.

 

[Tom & Kimberly]

Remember, God is in Control. My prayers are with you as you seek His will for your life. Don't keep looking at the past but keep your eyes on Him the author and finisher of our faith. In His plan, Tom

 

[WrightM]

HI guys. Thanks for praying. I know I said I would post what my problem is, but right now it is too long to explain. I feel so tired.

Meanwhile I have some more questions.

Besides sin, can demons ( possibly even Satan himself ) enter into a person's by life just by simply speaking to them out loud from the mouth?

Can demons make a person say things which may hurt another person's feelings or remind a person of a painful past? I'm not talking about demon possesion, but like a demon could quickly make a person say something to another person for one second and then leave or something.

Can demons arrange & cause events where the person is so distracted that they'll still remain in the same negative state?

If I'm right, I believe Satan & his demons have entered into my life & they've stolen from me. Something happened this year that I believe that Satan & his demons were involved and now it has cost me a good year. They've stolen from me a relaxing summer vacation, 4-5 years of peace, & now I'm still stuck in this depressed state like I was for the past 4-5 years. I hate Satan & his demons & I wish they would be gone for good.

Hopefully I'll be back & when I'm ready, I'll post my problem. I'm just so tired right now. Thank you.

 

[WrightM]

Hi guys. I'm ready to post what happened. How I'm going to do this is that I'm going to post this in a questions & answers style. This is the easiest way to explain this. I'm going to post the in a first part about my problem, then later on, I'm going to post on how Satan & his demons have used my pain to steal from me in the second part. Here it goes.

What has the enemy stolen from you?

Satan & his demons have stolen from me time, years, my peace, a nice summer vacation, & a good year.

How do you think Satan & his demons came into your life?

Through unforgiveness.

Who did you have unforgiveness towards?

I had it towards two teachers, a computer teacher, and an assistant teacher. Possibly some other students who were in the class with me during that time.

Can you explain about them?

I'll just explain about the computer teacher for now.

I had this teacher from September of 2001 to June of 2004 who taught about computers and he is a very strict teacher. He would constantly use profanity towards us. He also likes to embarass students. He has picked on me, he has talked to me in rude ways. He likes to "turn on the heat" where he would put pressure on a student so badly that the student would break down & cry or get mad. It became so bad that I ended up feeling suicidal and ended up in a mental hospital. It's too long to explain, but basically

Why do you still hold a grudge against him?

Because in the summer school of 2004, which was two weeks after the mains chool year ended, I was in a different class int he summer. I ran into him and instead of asking me how my break was, he said to me "Hey Michael, do you have a job?". He said it to me knowing that I had no job. He said it in such a sarcastic way that those words affected me to tis day. Those words have cursed me for the past 4 years. And plus when I was in his class, in 2003, he was being bossy to me and telling me to get a job, while at the same time mentally abusing me.

I have let those words affected me so much that I have never worked for the past 4 years. I had anger because he still there at the school working, probably still mentally abusing students and using scare tactics.

Recently I had a dream where I was back in my old high school and there was an event going on or something like that. The computer teacher was hosting the event & he was calling out random names to come up to a table.

I tried to hide behind students and teachers so that he wouldn't see me. He called out my name and I went up, even though I didn't want to. I believe that there were teams at certain tables. So I had went to a table and the computer teacher says to me "Hey Michael, I didn't know that was your table". He said it in such a sarcastic tone of voice.

You see, instead of saying to me. "Michael, you're at the wrong table". He said that to me.

I remember going off and I just started to yell at him in rage. I didn't use any profanity, but I did yell out him, telling him he's the reason why I'm depressed, why I've been messed, that he's sarcastic, etc.

I don't remember what happened, but that's all that I remember. I have a feeeling that I have had this dream for a reason. But that's the kind of attitude that I've been dealing with for awhile.

If I can, I'm going to psot on how Satan & his demons have stolen from me later on in a second part. This isn't the whole story yet. Talk to you later.

 

[Criada]

Sounds as though you have had a bad time, brother, I am sorry.

But, remember, Jesus has already won the victory, and whatever has happened in the past, it is gone, and He will give you a new start.
Instead of dwelling on what satan has done, try to concentrate on Jesus... when you remember the past, read your Bible, listen to praise music, and just ask Him to heal the hurt of the past.

Praying for you, brother

 

[A.Dingo]

Prayers for you, Michael.

I know quite well about the way words can stick in your head that way and ruin months worth. It hope writing some of it in here helps you get rid of it.

 

[WrightM]

Hey, I'm back. Now I'm going to explain how the enemy has stolen from me. I've been so deep in unforgiveness that the enemy has come in without me noticing them & taken from me.

How has the enemy stolen from me?

2005-2006

I graduated from my school in June 2006. From 2001-2004, there was a female assistant teacher that I had for acedmics in the afternoon after having computer class in the morning that I had unforgiveness towards. When I was in that class, I felt like she did not treat me right and there were some things she's done which upset me and made me mad.

I felt like she was nosy, & obnoxious to me as well as other students. Even a few of the classmates I had during that time were bothered by her.

In summer school of 2005, she had did something unfair to me which angered me so much, that had I cried and I've been angry by what she did ever since.

During my last school year, the enemy had placed her in the cafeteria so that everyday when I saw her, my anger would still be there. In fact, not only her, but a girl who also picked on me when I was in the class with that computer teacher, was also there in the cafeteria.

The enemy also had both of them come into an 8th period reading class I had. In September 2005, the girl came in & was talking to the reading teacher, and then she saw me and tried to talk to me, but I didn't respond. She said something to me which angered me, and when I got home, I started screaming and crying.

And May of 2006, I think, the female assistant teacher came in and also talked to the reading teacher, and she saw me and was trying to talk to me, but I asked the reading teacher if I could leave and I did, until the female assistant teacher was gone.

Although I had gratuated from school, I had one more year at my Vo-Tech school. If I had stayed and not graduated, I would've gotten free transportation. I decided to not stay another year because I did not want to be in this school anymore and to get away from my offenders. And plus I was old enough anyway. So I had a tough time trying to get back to Vo-Tech and school. Thanks to prayer requests I've gotten transportation to the Vo-Tech school.

Meanwhile, in the summer of 2006, & it was horrible. I was still in unforgiveness and I still had bitterness.

More to come.

 

[WrightM]

What have I said & done in anger?

Please don't be alarmed when you're reading this. I used to feel this way, but this is just some of things I've done when I was blinded in unforgiveness.

And yes, this is how demons came in. And sad to say, but I even had some unforgiveness earlier on in this year. Something happened this year which I will talk about later on and how it has opened my eyes. But don't worry, I know that Satan & his demons are my true enemies.

2004-2007

I stabbed the computer teacher's picture with a pen in the yearbook.

I've punched his picture in the yearbook.

I've whited out all of his signatures in my yearbook. The same goes for the female assistant teacher.

I had wished that the female assistant teacher would drop dead.

I even told Satan and/or the demons pretending to be Satan that I would stop taunting them about going to the lake of fire until the computer teacher & female assistant teacher died. In a way, I was blackmailing the demons without me knowing that I was seeking help from the enemy instead of God.

I scanned both the computer teachers and female assistant teacher's pictures and I spit on their faces on the computer screen. I also went into a paint program and scribbled all over their pictures.

Even though I was out of high school, I had planned on writing an angry letter to the computer teacher.

I went to a lot of forums ( not christian ones ) and I've wasted time ranting about my problem & have spoken evil against the girl, female assistant teacher, and the computer teacher.

I had fantasies about the female assistant & male computer teacher dying in brutal ways.

I thought about suing the male computer teacher out of anger.

Any other sins that may have let the demons into my life?

I realize I shouldn't have done this, but I was so hurt that I even used masturbation constantly to hide the pain and stress the demons were putting me through.

I've also held conversations with Satan & his demons. Some examples would be is that I would be calling Satan & his demons all kinds of names & taunting them and etc. I even took the devil's name in vain more than once & various times, inadverantly telling Satan & the demons to put a curse on me & my life.

What tactics has the enemy used against me?

The enemy has tried to plant little seeds of anger inside of me.

The enemy has used people, magazines, the internet and TV to keep me in unforgiveness:

2007:

Time & money was wasted going to see therapists. The last therpaist I went to I thought was not good and it felt like he was judging me instead of being understanding.

During a problem I had, my mom asked me did I want to go back to the mental hospital I stayed in back in 2004.

In my Vo-Tech class, a classmate came up to me and told me that he was the nephew in-law of the computer teacher. The enemy wanted use this person to remind me that everyime I looked at him, I would be reminded of the computer teacher I had unforgiveness against. And I have never told anyone about the computer teacher before.

On weekend, I was on medication. It was Prozac & I was on it for awhile. But see, the thing is that I had decided not to take it because I believe that I can manage without it. It's possible that I was doing fine without it and plus the computer teacher's actions in a way have caused me to be depressed. So anyway, I decided not to take it and I threw it in the garbage.

The demons must have told my mother that I threw it in the garbage because she came up to me and she knew I threw it in the garbage. Anyway, somehow I took it anyway and in that same morning, she wanted me to be awake when a some PSEG came over. But what happened is that the medication made me sleepy, and I fell asleep. This is one of the reasons why I don't take medication anymore. Anyway, I woke up and my mom was mad and it hurt me for the rest of that day. Like I said, the enemy told and/or led her to find that pill that I threw out and tell me that she knew I threw it out. And if I recall, I had blamed the computer teacher for me being on medication. I started taking it when I had went to the mental hospital back in 2004.

A couple or so days after graduating from Vo-Tech in June 2007, my dad calls me and asks me what mental hospital did I stay in. And this was back from 2004.

In the summer of 2007, I had finally "forgave" or so I thought. One night, I had said a prayer to forgive. So I went to sleep feeling peaceful. The next morning, my mom wakes me up & she is mad. So I went downstairs and there is paper towels in the toilet.

I did not put paper towels in the toilet. Anyway, my mom left for work and she slammed the door. But I realize that it was really Satan/the demons who were made because I had "forgave" and I have never said the names of people I had forgiven before.

Satan & his demons have kept reminding me of what the computer teacher said about the job part.

For examples, I heard it on TV, I've seen it in pop-ud ads, in videos, and I've seen it in a magazine. The more I've seen it, the more angry I had gotten.

Sad to say, but I slipped back into unforgiveness.

Yes, I've realize this is long, but I really need help. There will be more to come.

 

[WrightM]

I'm back. In the next post after this one, I'm going to explain what happened to me this year and how it has opened my eyes to realize that it was the enemy who has caused me problems all these years. I was so blinded by anger that I couldn't really see the real problem in front of me.

2007:

I had ran into an old freind at college. He was somebody that I grew up with in my old high school. I was so glad to see him. He is somebody that was in class with me before I had the computer teacher. Well the first year I had the computer teacher he was, but then the next two times I was in the computer teacher's class,he wasn't. Anyway, we ran into each other on occasion and one day I found out he had a myspace and he had shown it to me. So I decided to add him as friend.

In November he had a birthday. I was going to try and wish him a happy birthday, and plus I had found some old freinds on myspace and I was going to have a big reunion. But what happened was I logged onto myspace and he had sent me a message, asking me what's up.

But then I saw that he was no longer on my friends list. So I had gotten to his page by the myspace email and he has like 200 so freinds on his page.

I have no problem not being on a person's top friends list, but for him to completely delete me like that, but yet keep a lot of freinds really bothered me. I was so hurt that I just responded to his message, "Nothing much". Then I deleted his email and that was the last time I had heard from him.

I was so upset and hurt. I have never displayed any negative attitude with him and whenever we had ran into each other, we would talk about old times and old friends a few times. I have not done anything to him at all.

But looking back, I realize that it must have been Satan & his demons to do bring him back into my life & to do that to me.

Also I was in this art class where we would draw objects onto a big piece of paper. Everytime when I would be done, I would just get constant criticism while everyone mostly got great compliments. It really hurt me.

Back then ( before I had the computer teacher ) people at my school used to compliment me a lot on my drawings, to even writing in my yearbook about and putting great compliments. It doesn't feel that way anymore.

And just other difficulties just kept popping up during college and in my life and etc.

All right, in the next post I'm finally going to explain what Satan & his demons have done to me to ruin the year of 2008. I'm still reeling after what happened. It was something I did not expect and I know that the enemy was involved. I wish I could do great harm to Satan & his demons for what they to me did this year. It has made me realize that Satan & his demons are my true enemies. And then after I tell what happened, I need your prayers so badly.

Thank you.

 

[WrightM]

All right. Now I'm going to explain what happened this year.

This month 5 years ago ( 2003 ), was the very first time I had been suicidal because of the computer teacher & the other students actions towards me.

After having gone through many stressful events for the past 5 years, I was going to use 2008 to try and make it a better year.

Anyway, so this year, I was off from school and I decided to do a game marathon for story that I was going to do. And then after I was going to be done, I was going to look back and I was going to try and overcome my problems ( forgive, etc... )

Now I confess that I still had unforgiveness and I still did speak hatred about the female assistant teacher & the male computer teacher. There were some things that happened for the first 3 months of this year that I can't get into details about, but I will say the first 3 months were horrible.

Well, I wasted so much time in unforgiveness that the enemy had snuck in all this time while I wasn't looking. Some quiet neighboors who lived beside us for 11 years since I've lived here moved away. Some new neighboors had moved in April of 2008. Believe me. This was just about the time when I was just starting to try and fix my problems after doing my game marathon during the break.

Anyway, the new neighboors were horrible. Fortunately they moevd out in September of 2008, but I will tell you the trouble I endured. They had smoked weed in the backyard and the front yard. The main problem was a dog they had next door. This dog would bark constantly, both day & night. I couldn't even do my what I needed to do because of the noise, even my ear plugs didn't work and one of them broke. My mind was set to do play a bunch of games in sequence for my story during my time off, now my mind was stuck and this dog barking had clouded my mind. My mind, even now, is heavy like a box fillled with a lot of things

I wish I could've done something, but I never had dealt with barking noise problems before.

Anyway, I've tried to change my sleeping schedule from day to night because I thought maybe the dog wouldn't bark at night, but it did anyway. I was so stressed out by the noise that I couldn't concentrate. For 6 months, I've never had any proper sleep, and ended up tired. I've never gotten to enjoy watching TV in the summer, etc.. The enemy had used this situation to remind me what the computer teacher said to me back in 2004.

In June of this year, I went to all around the internet & going to prayer request sites. Eventually, in July 2008 they got an eviction notice and it seemed like they were going to move by the end of July. I was foolish and had I taunted the devil & his demons, but the people had still remained and I had to endure the barking for another two months.

I will post more.

 

[Onlythingavailable]

I'm sorry to hear you've had to endure so much.

Praying for you.

 

[RosemaryChildAtHeart]

I have been listening to your story as you post, and I have feel so sorry for what happened to you
I have prayed for you for the Lord to intervene and give a force field around you to keep the enemy away and keep Jesus inside
Do not listen to the enemy, and strive for God, He is more powerful than the enemy and can overcome the enemy if you allow Him to - He will give you a protective barrier.
The enemy hates the Lord and doesn't want to lose its hold on you, but don't listen to the enemy, and say Jesus's name with faith and see how it will run
I pray for the enemy to finally get OUT of your life and for you to live life in serenity as Lord, Jesus intended.

 

[KIGS_Naïm]

Enduring much just makes you stronger, I've been tro a lot too and when the fallen one tryed to ruïn my life he did it unnoticable for me because I wasn't in Christ.

Now every day I live, everything I do, every step I take, everything I read, learn or listen I am with Christ Jesus and I with Him.
Just let me tell you this if you didn't notice yet, the effort you poot into faith into getting closer to Him who salvates who saved and who loves, the more effort you poot into it the more you will accomplish the more it will pay off. It might be hard and trust me, there will be times where you'd think "oo God why me" but do not fall into oblivion do not get enrooted, do not hold back, do not hate, do not fear, do not mistake. Listen to what He says, do as He askes you. Do not work according to your time but to His.

If you have email please pm me I'd like to send you something.

 

[KIGS_Naïm]

God bless and bless God most of all

 

[chosenpath]

WrightM and everyone,

Please read Psalm 91 with me outloud. I pray this gives WrightM comfort and drowns out the voice of the evil one and announces where our protection comes from. Glory to God in the Highest and peace to his people on earth.

All God's Blessings,
Chosenpath

 

[WrightM]

Hi guys, it's been awhile since I posted, but the enemy has struck again! I was going to come back anyway, but something happened just now and I came back here right away!

I'm being attacked attacked by the enemy today!!! I hate Satan & his demons!!! Just when I thought I had peace in this house again!!!!!!!!!

Let me summarize what happened. From April to September, there were some neightbors that moved in. Some of them smoked weeed, and there was a dog that barked constantly. They have affected this house as well. For example, wheen they smoked weed, it would come into the house and we could smell it, and one time the dog was left outside and it came into our yard and pooped.

I was off from college around this time and I was going to do a project where I was going to play a bunch of games for a story that I was going to do. That way when college began in September, I would have done my project by then. This was going to be a fun thing that I was going to do.

Anyway, I couldn't do it because the dog was distracting from doing it. And because I was delayed six months, my mind became heavy and I never felt like this before.

Let me make it easy to understand. It's like having a box and it is filled with heavy things, and I can't carry it at all because the box is heavy. But when I empty the box, the box is easy to carry. That's how mind is right now, and it still is. Once I do this project, then my mind becomes free.

I was so bothered by the barking that I had spent days and night sending prayer requests all around the web. I even had to change my sleeping pattern to night do my prjoects, and even then, the dog barked I became distracted, and I ended up tired.

It turned out that the area where the dog was kept at was full of fleas, the dog was not licensed to be kept, and the dog never had any shots. During the time those people stayed there, the dog hardly was never let out. They only took it out a few times, but it was either left in the backyard just barking ( not to mention, the backyard over there, no one had never cut the grass.

So that means that my months of peace were stolen from me and I believe the enemy was behind it and took advantage.

Had it not been for this barking problem, I would've had a great year and tried to overcome this unforgiveness and overcome the hurtful words the computer teacher said to me all those years ago.

So after those neighbors moved out, I was happy and thought I had peace again. It turnes out I probably won't be in college until January, so I thought it was going to be the perfect time to do my project and finally clear my mind and by January I would be done.

Now all of a sudden I hear a dog barking again!! I'm shaking right now and tears can't come out my eyes. I'm so traumatized by this. I had to deal with a barking dog from April to September and now it's October and now I hear it again!!

Now I realize that the previous people who moved out ( from April to September ) were just pawns being used by the enemy.

I'm not going to go into details of how this part happened and I hate to bring up bad memories, but the Sunday before the people moved out ( they moved out on Thursday on the 4th week of September ) and the Sunday afterwards. My mom had said some things which I took offense to and I ended up being angry and we had a argument. In fact, this was why I came and started posting this problem.

I believe the enemy caused it to happen because they were mad that their plans had failed and that they couldn't use that dog to bother me.

And I know this was the enemy because I believe that I've been attacked by the enemy this past week.

When I was done posting one of my messages here a couple weeks ago, I saw another prayer request below this message and it had the exact same words that the computer teacher said to me four years ago.

I was watching something on TV this past Sunday and I was reminded of what the computer teacher said to me, so I had turned the channel and I happened to see Joel Osteen on.

Now last year when I was struggling with unforgiveness, Joel's messages kept me to try not to have bitter thoughts and I still have a CD that I downloaded from youtube in flv. files full of his messages on forgiveness saved onto the CD.

After that, on that same night, I was watching a video on the internet and then someone on that video had said what the computer teacher had said to me four years ago. The enemy attacked me again.

The next day on Monday, I was at a forum and I had just happened to click upon a topic and in the topic, I saw the words that the computer teacher used against me. Not only once, but twice.

On Thursday morning, I was laying downstairs on the floor in the dining room. My mom turned on the TV in the living room and she went ouside for a momemt. When I was lying down, I heard sometihng on the TV and again someone had said something on TV which reminded me of what the computer teacher said to me. I said to myself "You demosn just don't quit, do you?" Then my mom came back in and turned the TV off.

On that same morning, usually I don't watch TV in the morning. But I just happened to turn it on and I saw Joel Osteen again, but this time, his wife was on.

I hope that was a sign from God.

I hate to confess this, but yeasterday I felt the bitter thoughts creeping in, but I did my best to resist it.

The devil and his demons are a bunch of liars & they're trying to keep me down. The demons are trying to mirror the other neighboors that moved out in September.

When I posted this message, the computer froze, so I had to type this story again. I was thinking the demons were trying to stop me from posting this message, but thankfully I got through this time.

Just please pray! I'm going to look up forgiveness today. Satan & his demons are the true enemy here and he and his demons have stolen a lot from me.

I'm going to stop this post for now & I may edit every couple of minutes because the computer freezes at times. I'm so tired right now.

More qill be posted later.