I am currently my Master in Divinity(going to seminary) but have been having trouble hearing God these last few years.
First, there was the time a few years ago when i was friends with this girl and then over a few months we became best friends. I prayed all summer before i went back to college about it and finally told her i liked her as more than a friend, believing that this was something that would glorify God. I really thought it was his will because i DO NOT pursue girls bit have believed God would bring me someone. She, eventually, told me she did not feel the same and just wanted to be friends - within a year we were no longer friends, she became too "busy" and i just stopped trying to be her friend
Second, after i graduated from undergraduate school i really thought God wanted me to go to this school and applied, too a summer class and the GRE to get in - at the last minute the council rejected me into the Master in Christina Counseling program. Afterwards, i began looking at seminaries. Now, of course i am at seminary and feel that i am where God wants me but im not 100% sure.
So, that brings me to where i am - currently i am taking 10 hours and have sent my applications to some churches, however, none have called me back. I am involved in the college group at my church, helping out in bible study and worship but for some reason something just feels wrong. I feel like God is calling me to be in a part-time position at a church but i cant if no church calls me. So, i have been thinking about getting a job around town - something part-time.
I guess it just sucks because on one hand i feel like God may be telling me to WAIT and not get a regular job-- on the other hand it may just be my lazy self... while at the same time i also feel pressure to have a job because everyone else does - and i really feel like i am being lazy not having one even though i am taking 10 hrs of classes.
I honestly dont know what God wants me to do. I pray but feel no answer... even if i think i do.. how do i know if it is God or me talking to myself. These past things have made me question what i think is God's calling or will versus my own thinking or will.
Has anyone had a similar situation? any advice? i would appreciate it.
thanks for reading (and commenting)
- Daniel (Doubledb)
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First, there was the time a few years ago when i was friends with this girl and then over a few months we became best friends. I prayed all summer before i went back to college about it and finally told her i liked her as more than a friend, believing that this was something that would glorify God. I really thought it was his will because i DO NOT pursue girls bit have believed God would bring me someone. She, eventually, told me she did not feel the same and just wanted to be friends - within a year we were no longer friends, she became too "busy" and i just stopped trying to be her friend
Second, after i graduated from undergraduate school i really thought God wanted me to go to this school and applied, too a summer class and the GRE to get in - at the last minute the council rejected me into the Master in Christina Counseling program. Afterwards, i began looking at seminaries. Now, of course i am at seminary and feel that i am where God wants me but im not 100% sure.
So, that brings me to where i am - currently i am taking 10 hours and have sent my applications to some churches, however, none have called me back. I am involved in the college group at my church, helping out in bible study and worship but for some reason something just feels wrong. I feel like God is calling me to be in a part-time position at a church but i cant if no church calls me. So, i have been thinking about getting a job around town - something part-time.
I guess it just sucks because on one hand i feel like God may be telling me to WAIT and not get a regular job-- on the other hand it may just be my lazy self... while at the same time i also feel pressure to have a job because everyone else does - and i really feel like i am being lazy not having one even though i am taking 10 hrs of classes.
I honestly dont know what God wants me to do. I pray but feel no answer... even if i think i do.. how do i know if it is God or me talking to myself. These past things have made me question what i think is God's calling or will versus my own thinking or will.
Has anyone had a similar situation? any advice? i would appreciate it.
thanks for reading (and commenting)
- Daniel (Doubledb)
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