I've said the same thing in a lot of posts that I've done. You can't ever lose your faith. You can walk away from it for a while, but God won't ever let you out of his mighty grip. I was a scared and frightened freshman in a brand new school away from everything I knew and I resented my mother for taking me away from my friends.. my life. My mother worked night shifts at the hospitle and left me alone at night. I don't blame her for leavng me, we had to have some kind of income comming in to be able to feed our selves. She did her best to bring me up right and I love her for it. But I hated her so much during those years in high school. So to get some kind of feeling of welcome and comfort, I turned to the wrong crowd. Weed was my form of escaping from the pain of feeling isolated and alone in this world. I thought it was so great at the time but I can't believe I betrayed my body in sexual sins and things of this world. A friend of mine got me to try youth group out a few times and after the 3rd or 4th time I constantly wanted to be at church. I became so intrested in who this Jesus was and why he loved me so much. Every night for about a week I would cry myself to sleep searching my mind and heart for the answers that I needed to know about this loving God. Easter Sunday rolled around and I found myself standing at the front doors of the little chruch. That day was different. I was ready to accept the love I had so despratly had been searching for. Our pastor begged us to accept this free gift of eternal love and life! I couldn't deny the fact that I needed God to save me from myself any longer. I prayer the sinners prayer and fell on my knees crying and worshiping my savior! I no longer need to feel alone and let down. My Jesus was there to save me from the overwhelming burdens of this life! I finally figured out that this was the love I had looked for and had not found anywhere else except in his embrace! I've messed up so many times since that beautiful day occured... but my God loves me the same and I am so lucky to have him as my Father and Savior! I love you JESUS!
your humble servant Lord~
Tashena
your humble servant Lord~
Tashena
