Having bipolar is the only reason I'm saved

[Genster]

I have been diagnosed with bipolar since the age of 17. I've been hospitalized a handful of time, usually each manic episode last 2 weeks.

A patient in the hospital was telling me about God. I told him that I was atheist. Another patient told me that God would enrich my life. I asked to see his bible.

I opened his bible; it felt like it was talking directly to me. I started to close and open it. I would ask questions, close it, then open, and the answers would appear. I felt super close to God. I started getting very real dreams, things that I believe may happen in the future.

I really believe when you put more faith in God, He will reveal more of Himself to you. When I was going manic, I believed and trusted in Him every possible way. God has shown Himself to me so much, it would, honestly, take a whole book to explain.

Anyways, I'm currently on a journey to becoming the person God has called me to be. And understanding my calling, which God has spoke to me personally about.

I have had direct conversations with God before. But it was not with words. I did not hear humans voices. The communication felt like a beam of energy in my head and knowledge coming in, which God spoke into me.

I go through moments where I don't feel God. I also go through lots of moments of testing and temptations. Still to this day.

When God first came and revealed Himself to me, I hated it. I was very overwhelmed. He did a lot of super natural things. One of the things I have learned through my experiences with God, He is completely out of time. This does not just speak on His eternal nature.


Thanks,
Gentry

 

[SamuelTP1977]

It sounds like you had a very moving personal experience. I'll pray for your continued recovery.

Sam

 

[Far Side Of the Moon]

Amazing

 

[NOTWHATIWAS]

I have been diagnosed with bipolar since the age of 17. I've been hospitalized a handful of time, usually each manic episode last 2 weeks.

A patient in the hospital was telling me about God. I told him that I was atheist. Another patient told me that God would enrich my life. I asked to see his bible.

I opened his bible; it felt like it was talking directly to me. I started to close and open it. I would ask questions, close it, then open, and the answers would appear. I felt super close to God. I started getting very real dreams, things that I believe may happen in the future.

I really believe when you put more faith in God, He will reveal more of Himself to you. When I was going manic, I believed and trusted in Him every possible way. God has shown Himself to me so much, it would, honestly, take a whole book to explain.

Anyways, I'm currently on a journey to becoming the person God has called me to be. And understanding my calling, which God has spoke to me personally about.

I have had direct conversations with God before. But it was not with words. I did not hear humans voices. The communication felt like a beam of energy in my head and knowledge coming in, which God spoke into me.

I go through moments where I don't feel God. I also go through lots of moments of testing and temptations. Still to this day.

When God first came and revealed Himself to me, I hated it. I was very overwhelmed. He did a lot of super natural things. One of the things I have learned through my experiences with God, He is completely out of time. This does not just speak on His eternal nature.


Thanks,
Gentry

I received my diagnosis 30 years ago. It sounds like we have had a lot of similar experiences. Like you, I have days when I can't "feel" his presence. Other days, I am so energized that I can open my Bible, lose all track of time and when I look up at the clock it is three hours later, but seems like only moments have passed. Like you said, "He is completely out of time." It helps me to lean on His abundant grace and mercy, on those days when I can't "feel" His presence. Someone once told me that God is like the sunshine-even when the clouds eclipse Him, He is still there. I try to stay in prayer and conversation w/ Him through the day. I ask Him to protect my mind and my dreams from the enemy while I am asleep. I will pray for you today.