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The last eight months have been very difficult. For 1-2 years up until last August I had spent a lot of time researching, exploring, experiencing, talking and generally familiarizing myself with a few different apostolic churches. First Orthodoxy, then Roman Catholicism and then Anglicanism.
In August my wife and I split up and last March the divorce was finalized. Throughout the last eight months I've found that I've been unable to make a commitment to anything. I thought being on my own would remove some of the former obstacles I was encountering in joining an apostolic church, but once those "obstacles" were no longer there, my drive disappeared.
I've been struggling to affirm things that I've always believed, and even wrestled off and on with agnosticism - never fully willing to reject the existence of God.
I'm just not sure where I align best? I struggle with my position on sin and morality and I'm unsure whether that's because I'm trying to vindicate myself somehow or if I truly believe a more liberal view. I kind of occupy a centrist view on most social issues, I tend to like more traditional worship but I'm not sure how I feel about being "bound" to tradition itself. I like scholasticism, and evaluating all the titans of the faith from Irenaeus to Thomas Aquinas to Martin Luther, but I also appreciate the social focus some contemporary churches and teachers like Mars Hill Bible Church and Rob Bell, respectively, have - especially when it comes to helping others.
I come from an evangelical background that got really weird near the end of my 22+ year tenure at my old church. Before it went all whackadoodle charismatic they had a strong emphasis on global missions, which is what I grew up with and is very important.
I don't know if any of that pieces together well, but I'm seeing the toll on my faith that I'm taking for not having a "home". I resolved to refrain from seeking a church until after I'm laid off from my job - which is looking like mid May. Until then it's just too difficult to go to church Sunday morning when I work until 1am.
Does anyone have any advice or suggestions?
I posted this thread here because I felt it would be the most objective, nobody criticizing apostolic Christianity or trying to deliver a sales pitch on their church.
Thanks all!
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In August my wife and I split up and last March the divorce was finalized. Throughout the last eight months I've found that I've been unable to make a commitment to anything. I thought being on my own would remove some of the former obstacles I was encountering in joining an apostolic church, but once those "obstacles" were no longer there, my drive disappeared.
I've been struggling to affirm things that I've always believed, and even wrestled off and on with agnosticism - never fully willing to reject the existence of God.
I'm just not sure where I align best? I struggle with my position on sin and morality and I'm unsure whether that's because I'm trying to vindicate myself somehow or if I truly believe a more liberal view. I kind of occupy a centrist view on most social issues, I tend to like more traditional worship but I'm not sure how I feel about being "bound" to tradition itself. I like scholasticism, and evaluating all the titans of the faith from Irenaeus to Thomas Aquinas to Martin Luther, but I also appreciate the social focus some contemporary churches and teachers like Mars Hill Bible Church and Rob Bell, respectively, have - especially when it comes to helping others.
I come from an evangelical background that got really weird near the end of my 22+ year tenure at my old church. Before it went all whackadoodle charismatic they had a strong emphasis on global missions, which is what I grew up with and is very important.
I don't know if any of that pieces together well, but I'm seeing the toll on my faith that I'm taking for not having a "home". I resolved to refrain from seeking a church until after I'm laid off from my job - which is looking like mid May. Until then it's just too difficult to go to church Sunday morning when I work until 1am.
Does anyone have any advice or suggestions?
I posted this thread here because I felt it would be the most objective, nobody criticizing apostolic Christianity or trying to deliver a sales pitch on their church.
Thanks all!
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