Have you ever wish

[furtado]

You were Dead sometimes ? I feel sometimes my life will never improve . I sometimes I wonder why I get out of bed sometimes . I feel my shyness has lead me to depression . I hate it. I can not remember the last time I had a good laugh

 

[Matthew2007]

I've been lurking around this forum for a little while now. I saw your post Furtado and knew I had to respond. I can't say I have any words to help you, but man I feel the same way.

Sometimes I do wish I was dead. What has helped me though is thinking about Christ. Just look at the things He went through while he was on earth. He was tempted in the desert by satan himself, accused of being a liar and being the devil, hated, run out of towns, mocked, beaten, tortured and killed. What blows my mind is the fact that He allowed that to happen since he had all the power to stop it but He loves us so much that He went through that so we could be with Him forever.

I'm not trying to preach to you or anything, I'm actually preaching to myself since I can't seem to find much good things in this world.

I too am very shy and that shyness has made my life more complicated than it should be. Just know Furtado that you are not alone with feeling the way you do. I will pray for you and ask for your prayers too. God Bless.

 

[Tinkerbell33]

I have also had these thoughts, maybe daily, but now I have a fear of death because Im worried that when I will die I will go to Hell. I feel so stressed, scared and worried all the time and I can never relax and now its affecting my health because I never feel well anymore.

 

[GrannieAnnie]

You don't have to be a shy person to feel this way.... I'm anything but shy...and I've been this way for years....even tried to "out" myself a couple of times....but I'm still here and am in a depression at the moment and I think I'm about to go back into therapy. Depression is a disease, get help, see your doctor.....go to a support group in your area if you can. Your doctor or hospital should be able to tell you of such a group. Good luck....

 

[AWorkInProgress]

You were Dead sometimes ? I feel sometimes my life will never improve . I sometimes I wonder why I get out of bed sometimes . I feel my shyness has lead me to depression . I hate it. I can not remember the last time I had a good laugh

You are right,

We all have a heart, a reflection of our innerself. Core of our emotional side. Your heart needs to give and recieve love, it needs to create, it needs the Lord inside it.

You will notice that you can't trust your own mind, do to weird things you do. This is your heart effecting your judgement, because it is starved for love. It will seek out it's needs one way or another. Be aware of yourself.

Talk to a counsellor or paster, and pray for strength and understanding from our Lord. He will give it, as he has with me and many souls before me.

You have to learn how to be vulnerible again. If you can't take risks then your not free to be who you are.

Only a person who risks - is free.
http://www.coping.org/growth/risk.htm

Proverbs 4:23
Guard your heart above all else,
for it determines the course of your life.

Proverbs 19:8
To acquire wisdom is to love oneself;
people who cherish understanding will prosper.

Proverbs 29:25
Fearing people is a dangerous trap,
but trusting the Lord means safety.

Luke 6:46-49
Building on a Solid Foundation

46 “So why do you keep calling me ‘Lord, Lord!’ when you don’t do what I say? 47 I will show you what it’s like when someone comes to me, listens to my teaching, and then follows it. 48 It is like a person building a house who digs deep and lays the foundation on solid rock. When the floodwaters rise and break against that house, it stands firm because it is well built. 49 But anyone who hears and doesn’t obey is like a person who builds a house without a foundation. When the floods sweep down against that house, it will collapse into a heap of ruins.”

 

[Tinkerbell33]

You don't have to be a shy person to feel this way.... I'm anything but shy...and I've been this way for years....even tried to "out" myself a couple of times....but I'm still here and am in a depression at the moment and I think I'm about to go back into therapy. Depression is a disease, get help, see your doctor.....go to a support group in your area if you can. Your doctor or hospital should be able to tell you of such a group. Good luck....

thanks Grannie Annie

 

[Lisa0315]

You were Dead sometimes ? I feel sometimes my life will never improve . I sometimes I wonder why I get out of bed sometimes . I feel my shyness has lead me to depression . I hate it. I can not remember the last time I had a good laugh

Depression is a horrible illness. Have you seen a doctor yet?

Lisa

 

[ShannonJ]

Hi! I know exactly how you feel. However, those feelings will not last forever. I have to believe that I will feel better someday soon! What you say to yourself makes a difference so speak positive to yourself even if you don't believe it! I know that it is hard and frustrating, I have vented here several times, but we have to believe that we will be delivered from this, and until we are completely recovered we need to seek help! When I feel the lowest and think that death sounds more appealing I reach out to someone. I may be on the phone doing nothing but sobbing but the point is to reach out, don't hold how you feel inside, God gave us people, family, this web site, so that we could hold eachother up! Hang in there!

 

[heatherq17]

sending you some ((Hugs)) If you ever want to talk PM me!!! Your not alone!!

 

[HeavenlyBliss]

Everyday I get up. But I always think maybe there's something that can make me stay alive for a little bit longer.

 

[Aquamarine81]

I never wish I were dead, but I sometimes wish I were never born. Somes I think things would be better if I had never been born...

 

[heatherq17]

I never wish I were dead, but I sometimes wish I were never born. Somes I think things would be better if I had never been born...

 

[Gwendolyn]

Yes. And I'm not sure such feelings will ever truly leave people like you and I who struggle with depression. My doctors/therapists have tried to tell me that eventually, those thoughts will quiet down.... but I honestly don't think so. Once they've come to you, they are likely to visit again if you find yourself feeling particularly low or hopeless. But the key is not to indulge them, and not to be so afraid of them that you start to panic.

But I think these thoughts come to us because we're just in so much pain. Depression brings with it a great deal of anguish. Whenever these feelings visit me, I ask myself, "Do you really want to die, or do you just want the pain to stop?" And my answer is inevitably that I want the pain to stop... but my thoughts make the jump to death, just because that is the simplest way my mind can think of to make it stop.

I don't know if that's what you find, too, but that is what I have found. But no matter how much it hurts, it isn't the only way, and it isn't true. I'm convinced, on my better days, that fighting the good fight has some merit, either for my soul, or so that I may help other souls, too. And giving up wouldn't help that.

It's hard when you're down to think logically, because the strength of the emotions overshadows everything else. But when I'm calmer, and more logical, I like to think of Christ on the Cross. He could have taken Himself down, but He did not. He chose to suffer every moment of that pain and anguish, all for the love of us. And He gave us life as a gift, not a curse... so the least we can do is find something - anything - that makes this gift he has given us worthwhile.

Even when I can't think of anything good about me, I think... "But if God has me still alive here, there must be a reason why." God willed that you be here. Try and find out why. But don't ask the question in an angry, bitter, or resentful way; ask it in a curious, seeking way. The answers you find might surprise you.

I hope that helps a little.