cwdlmdd said:
You know I have sent the pastor a letter and e-mail and even tried to get an appointment to talk to him. To this day I have not heard a word from them. Just a rejection letter.
I can't help but to think that some one is blocking all of my attempts to speak to him.
It is a very large church and at one time they had made the news in my area because of a project that thay were tyring to do call the Steeple of light. They needed a premite from the FCC.
But anyway he really dosn't seem to me that he is that kind of person to egnor sone one.
Forgive the spelling!
Unfortunately, large churches, and many small churches though that is less often, are so scared that someone will take advantage of them that they never ever learn to love much less give according to God's commands and will. God doesn't say, give only when you are sure how they will use it, He says, give and let me do the rest. The church I grew up in is small and focused on trusting God no matter the situation. One day, someone broke into the church and stole a bunch of electronics. It was hard for the church to deal with that kind of lose (finacially) but in an attempt to follow the word of God, they prayed and left the rest up to God. If I remember right, it was a week later, (I could be wrong on the time frame), the equipment was returned and a letter appologizing was attached to the equipment. Point being, we never should be afraid of giving in the name of Christ because, if it is in the name of Christ, then it is His responsibility how it is used not our's, we as the church like to hold all control and never relinquish any of that control over to God. What is the worse that could happen if we give to someone and they misuse it? They learn from where good gifts come? So many times I have heard the "church" refrain from giving because of fear of misuse, or put restrictions on giving, such as "we'll go with you to the store and buy you milk and eggs or bring milk and eggs to you" when what the person needs is bread and butter. Following Christ is a walk in learning to trust God with all our hearts, leaning not on our own understanding, in all our ways acknowledging Him, and allowing Him to direct our paths.
In your situation, it is easy to see where the church lacks that trust, but we must each look into our own lives and see where we fit into that scale of trust. We can always trust more. We were facing a winter without heat, (true story), we were able to trade for a wood burning stove but lacked the resources to have a chimney. We struggled and worried some and tried to find ways to keep ourselves and our children through the long, cold, Ohio winter ahead. I was talking to an old and dear friend, she asked me to promise her that if we got too cold we would come to her house. I looked up at the beautiful clear, warm fall day, and I suddenly understood, I looked at her and said, "today is a beautiful day, we'll worry about tomorrow when it comes". Trust in God is so liberating that words cannot express the joy and peace that it leaves behind. That week, we recieved an anonymous gift for almost the entire amount of a chimney. We have spent the winter burning pallets, gleaning wood, and cutting up fallen limbs from the massive ice storm this year. Isn't God amazing!?! Learn to trust God, not only in the trial of life, but also in the giving of our gifts and sacrifices. God says, "for when you do it unto the least of these my brethren, you have done it unto me" Would we ask God, "what are you going to do with the gift?" Would we give Christ milk and eggs when He needed bread and butter? Giving is only half the battle, the other half is learning to trust and one of the best ways to learn this trust, is to have a need and let God meet it according to His will. You are blessed, you have a chance to learn to trust God.
May God grant you grace as you learn to trust Him with today.
