I just like to tell my testimony, so I thought I might as well share it here.
Even though my parents raised me "Catholic" I never believed in God, or Christ or "being religious." It was difficult to put stock into what my parents were saying when I was forced to see what they were DOING. I am the youngest of five kids and all of us suffered our fair share of abuse growing up. We were all hit and verbally abused and some of us were "touched" late at night by a family member I won't name. Basically, as I grew up in this house, surrounded by the hidden feelings of hate and an inner sense of self loathing I convinced myself that there couldn't be a God. Because a kind and just God would never let these things happen to a defenseless young girl. So high school came and I immediately fell in with a bad crowd. It was very cliche: sex, drugs and rock and roll. I began to cut and burn myself as much as a cry for help as for my own need to punish myself. Things got really bad and I was even rushed to the hospital a few times for attempted suicides. I continued to cut myself until i was 19 years old. Now I am in college and one night, at a party I met this young man. He seemed to radiate this... light... I couldn't explain it but I was compelled to be near him. It seemed to be as though soothing rays emanted from him. I fell in love right away. He started taking me to church and I grudgingly went. I only wanted him to like me, so I pretended to be interested. Well, one Sunday during worship, the congregation started singing this song: "And I'm desperate for you, I'm lost without you..." And BAM!! It hit me... all the pain I had experienced, all the drama had led me to this moment. I cried harder than I had in my entire life and knew at that very instant that I was saved.
Shortly after that I was baptized and now that young man and I are married.
So that's my testimony.
Even though my parents raised me "Catholic" I never believed in God, or Christ or "being religious." It was difficult to put stock into what my parents were saying when I was forced to see what they were DOING. I am the youngest of five kids and all of us suffered our fair share of abuse growing up. We were all hit and verbally abused and some of us were "touched" late at night by a family member I won't name. Basically, as I grew up in this house, surrounded by the hidden feelings of hate and an inner sense of self loathing I convinced myself that there couldn't be a God. Because a kind and just God would never let these things happen to a defenseless young girl. So high school came and I immediately fell in with a bad crowd. It was very cliche: sex, drugs and rock and roll. I began to cut and burn myself as much as a cry for help as for my own need to punish myself. Things got really bad and I was even rushed to the hospital a few times for attempted suicides. I continued to cut myself until i was 19 years old. Now I am in college and one night, at a party I met this young man. He seemed to radiate this... light... I couldn't explain it but I was compelled to be near him. It seemed to be as though soothing rays emanted from him. I fell in love right away. He started taking me to church and I grudgingly went. I only wanted him to like me, so I pretended to be interested. Well, one Sunday during worship, the congregation started singing this song: "And I'm desperate for you, I'm lost without you..." And BAM!! It hit me... all the pain I had experienced, all the drama had led me to this moment. I cried harder than I had in my entire life and knew at that very instant that I was saved.
Shortly after that I was baptized and now that young man and I are married.
So that's my testimony.
