Happy New Year

[sportsfan]

I just want to say Happy New Year and thanks for all the prayers and support and encouragement that this forums has brought me. I really appreciate this website and I realize that I have posted a lot of negative stuff about Satan and my issues dealing with the Mark of the Beast but this forum has been so supportive. I realize now that we are in the period of God's grace and that there is no mark of the beast to take. Whatever happened in the shower and that followed me to the door the yellow flickering light was purely mental illness. It does not affect my eternal destination as I will still be in heaven. I am not the false prophet despite this out of body experience. My body has been purchased by the blood of Christ and I don't have the spirit of the Antichrist but rather the Holy Spirit in my life. My friends see it and my family and the Church they all see God in my life and I have to trust them with this illness. I have to trust them that this mark of the beast stuff is truly a hallucination. I see stuff on my hands and forehead that alarm and stomach but my parents tell me it is not real. Pastor Nathan says he sees the fruit of the Holy Spirit in my life and I trust him he is my spiritual mentor. He said the yellow flickering light that followed me in the shower to the door is not biblical and the bible doesn't warn about a yellow light that gives the Mark of the Beast. I trust the Word of God and it would have a strict warning by Jesus it says Satan can masquerade as an Angel of Light but I have not seen that he claims that I blasphemed. I didn't know that it was Satan and I did not know that it was even a temptation. I just have to trust that God knows that I did not know that I was supernaturally tempted. God knows everything he knows that I never meant to mix up Jesus and the Holy Spirit. I believe that God has a plan and purpose for my life and it was not to be a false prophet working for Satan. He still wants me to spread the gospel of Jesus I just know it deep down when I read the scriptures. That is how I know that Mark of the Beast stuff isn't truly real there is no Antichrist, False Prophet, or Satan to have taken it from or one to turn me into a false prophet. I am a believer in Jesus and I asked him in my heart when I was 4 years old and I sincerely meant it. I want Jesus in my life everyday I long for his presence and I would never want to offend him and I feel that I did in the yellow flickering light but I had no control over it being mentally ill and having schizoaffective disorder on top of OCD Scrupolisty with Autism and Pandas I had no chance of avoiding the Yellow Light it sucked me in and entrapped by brain Satan claims he 4D chessed my mind into blasphemy. I don't believe it as I didn't speak against the Holy Spirit he claims that he did but it still wasn't from my mouth and definitely wasn't my heart or intention and I know that God knows that. That is where I realize that I have done nothing wrong my friends having been trying to tell me and I am finally starting to believe them. I am starting to trust my family, friends, and church that I have not truly blasphemed and that this mark of the beast stuff isn't real as we are in the period of God's grace and I trust that. I am going to go to a Hockey game with my friend and I am just going live my life this new year knowing that yes I am going to suffer with a blue light and what I see my body but I know the truth that it is not real and that I will see Jesus. I am eternally secure until the day redemption when Christ returns for the Church. I did not speak against the Holy Spirit it wasn't my words I know that I can get forgiven by the blood of Jesus since it wasn't my heart it was a trick by Satan that I had no control over being mentally ill. I can only imagine what the streets of Gold will be like and seeing Jesus and bowing before him and hearing well done my good and faithful servant and I put on my full armor of God. I am looking forward to this New Year and knowing that deep down that I know that I am saved by blood of Lamb. No one loses their name from the Lamb's Book of Life only if they change prophecy in Revelation so my hope is eternally secure and I can relax and praise the Lord with my mouth and understand that I am mentally ill which is why I think Satan is in my brain and heart. He isn't Jesus is and I can relax knowing the truth of the scripture that I have not blasphemed the Holy Spirit it can't be done by a believer and I did not witness a miracle of Jesus and I did not say anything bad about the Holy Spirit I did not attribute his works Satan. I am freed from this evil and I can relax and trust Jesus, God, and the Holy Spirit this new year! Jesus paid it all and I can go Church and at the Selah truly worship Jesus knowing that I am saved and relax in his presence knowing that I am going to Heaven and that this false prophet stuff isn't truly real it is a hallucination which I am getting medical help for. I can relax and watch football again and focus on his verses it isn't too late I can still be a man after God's own heart. I may never free from this mental illness on Earth but in Heaven I will be as I have not truly blasphemed the Holy Spirit. It was just a yellow flickering light that I had no control over. God has purpose for my life and I am excited for my testimony through this process. I am just listened to Youtube and praising the name of Jesus knowing that I am eternally secure in him. Thank You for praying for me and I realize that I am going to be okay in eternally. Jesus did not leave and forsake me and I can relax and trust that truth and from now on I plan to write positive stuff on here. When I struggle with something I will post it and I know that I will come away encouraged. I realize that is by grace through faith that I am saved and even though I don't feel the Holy Spirit like I did with the peace that I had it was before my illness and the Holy Spirit isn't based on feelings people clearly still see him in my life and I trust them. Happy New Year!