Hallelujah!!!!!!

[Living4Him03]

Well, I've been praying and praying for my guy to get a job. He applied for so many and nothing turned up, so he started some grad classes. Today he said he has been offered a job, but not only that it is in Dallas!!!! So, now we will be able to see each other more if the job becomes official! I am so happy for him! He has searched for so long and we have prayed so much! Yay! Praise God! I just had to share this! Thanks!

 

[FarFromHome]

Awesome news!! Now if I could just find one in Dallas. I would love to move back to Plano.

 

[Living4Him03]

Ugh...I actually should be happier about his move, but I now find that I am not as happy about it as I first thought. I should be, but first of all he is going to still live an hour away from here, which means it still takes awhile to get to him. Second, he is going to be working full time and probably living at an apartment complex with eligible females. The complexes he is looking at are so nice. I am so happy for him, but at the same time I wonder if God is trying to tell me that my guy is not the one for me. Honestly, I am thinking that he is going to meet lots of eligible girls when he is in a big city and will find a church to go to out here. I mentioned us going to church together, which he says is cool, but is probably not really feasible for every weekend. Maybe I'm just worrying for nothing. Also, I am also getting an apt. except mine will be small and very minimal and is sort of cheapish. I have very little furnishings. I know I shouldn't feel this way, but I think my apt. will seem inadequate compared to what he has.

I feel like he's moving ahead in life and things are going well for him and God is going to give him some wonderful woman and I'm going to get left behind to struggle with paying the bills and getting by and finding someone as good as he is. I am definitely happy for him, but I think it's a mixed blessing! *sigh*...sorry for the rant, just feeling inadequate I guess. It's like I can't get anything right...I feel too young, inexperienced, and like I have so, so far to go. It's like I really only know nothing. yes, i know, no one cares to read my posts anymore for some reason I have yet to figure out. other people rant and complain and people say "oh you poor thing" for me it's like "get over it".

 

[vibrant]

Ugh...I actually should be happier about his move, but I now find that I am not as happy about it as I first thought. I should be, but first of all he is going to still live an hour away from here, which means it still takes awhile to get to him. Second, he is going to be working full time and probably living at an apartment complex with eligible females. The complexes he is looking at are so nice. I am so happy for him, but at the same time I wonder if God is trying to tell me that my guy is not the one for me. Honestly, I am thinking that he is going to meet lots of eligible girls when he is in a big city and will find a church to go to out here. I mentioned us going to church together, which he says is cool, but is probably not really feasible for every weekend. Maybe I'm just worrying for nothing. Also, I am also getting an apt. except mine will be small and very minimal and is sort of cheapish. I have very little furnishings. I know I shouldn't feel this way, but I think my apt. will seem inadequate compared to what he has.

I feel like he's moving ahead in life and things are going well for him and God is going to give him some wonderful woman and I'm going to get left behind to struggle with paying the bills and getting by and finding someone as good as he is. I am definitely happy for him, but I think it's a mixed blessing! *sigh*...sorry for the rant, just feeling inadequate I guess. It's like I can't get anything right...I feel too young, inexperienced, and like I have so, so far to go. It's like I really only know nothing. yes, i know, no one cares to read my posts anymore for some reason I have yet to figure out. other people rant and complain and people say "oh you poor thing" for me it's like "get over it".

laugh, and the whole world laughs with you
weep, and you weep alone.

or, it sure seems like it. true enough.

anyway,