guess what? God hates me and wants to send me to hell!

[drag3049]

Hey Im about to pull the trigger!

 

[drag3049]

You j e r k s better believe I Will do it!

 

[Johnnz]

Then call an emergency helpline. Pronto

John
NZ

 

[drag3049]

Too scared to. Im a wuss.

 

[Johnnz]

Far better than pulling a trigger.

John
NZ

 

[toLiJC]

God's wrath is upon me! he refuses to talk to me! we will destroy me and has no mercy on me! i will destroy my virginity, cuz it is garbage and not worth keeping! This will enrage him even more! what is there that can make God love me? nothing! He's finished with me!

Hi,

God does not punish because of sexual activity, but He punishes because of causing harm to another, that is why Jesus did not leave the pharisees and scribes to punish the woman taken in adultery nailing them that the killing is a violation of God's law, not the sex of itself, so what if someone has sex without to cause whatever harm to any human?!, but if there is a harm, then there is certainly some offense, or, every human is sexually innocent until it abuses sexually any other, if any human remains sexually harmed by another, then the injurious certainly committed an offense

John 8:3-11 "And the scribes and Pharisees brought unto him a woman taken in adultery; and when they had set her in the midst, They say unto him, Master, this woman was taken in adultery, in the very act. Now Moses in the law commanded us, that such should be stoned: but what sayest thou? This they said, tempting him, that they might have to accuse him. But Jesus stooped down, and with his finger wrote on the ground, as though he heard them not(viz. in order to remind them about the Ten Commandments written with the Finger of God). So when they continued asking him, he lifted up himself, and said unto them, He that is without sin among you, let him first cast a stone at her(viz. thus you can violate the Ten Commandments). And again he stooped down, and wrote on the ground(viz. and He again continues to remind them about the Ten Commandments written with the Finger of God, one of which is: "Thou shalt not kill."). And they which heard it(ie and then they understood what exactly He alluded, and), being convicted by their own conscience, went out one by one, beginning at the eldest, even unto the last: and Jesus was left alone, and the woman standing in the midst. When Jesus had lifted up himself, and saw none but the woman, he said unto her, Woman, where are those thine accusers? hath no man condemned thee? She said, No man, Lord. And Jesus said unto her, Neither do I condemn thee: go, and sin no more."

the most hateful offense before God and Jesus is that which is done in spiritual/religious way

Blessings

 

[drag3049]

Can I die now?

 

[Johnnz]

I'm relieved you are still here. Please do get some help though. Quickly.

John
NZ

 

[toLiJC]

Can I die now?

hardly God the Father wants you dead, Jesus is the Prince of Life, not of death, They do not need this you to die, nor anyone of the humans, They Both want all to have abundant life

John 10:10-11 "I am come that they might have life, and that they might have it more abundantly. I am the good shepherd: the good shepherd giveth his life for the sheep."

Blessings

 

[drag3049]

Trust me, I've taken antidepressants, talked to the pastor, gone to celebrate recovery, church. What the heck am I missing? Nothing anyone can tell me will make me want to live anymore. (except you will go to h e l l if you kill yourself which is a dumb reason). So tell me people. What am I missing? Yes, I've tried reading my bible and praying and it doesn't change a thing.

 

[drag3049]

Im pretty sure I have nothing to contribute in this God forsaken land. Yes, the earth is pretty pathetic. I'm tired of hanging out in church bubbles and pretending everything is fine when its not. People need to wake up and realize that the earth is corrupt and there is nothing we can do about it. Ok, maybe God is powerful enough to use people, but not me. I'm too much of a piece of crap, and I'm tired of waiting in limbo. I'm ready to leave now. I'm not a good Christian cuz I suck at evangelism. I can't even smile at work.

 

[drag3049]

Do I have your permission to die now???

 

[joey_downunder]

No you do not. God still has a purpose for you no matter how low you feel or how negatively you think at the moment.
About evangelism - not everyone has the same role to play i.e. speaking in person to non-believers.
e.g. Support for brothers and sisters in Christ who do that is an important role. Christian love is more than speaking about Christianity. Show love to others and you will feel rewarded and fulfilled by God.

How about you stop looking at how bad the world is/ people are and start looking at God's love for you personally instead? He loved you before you loved Him.

In this is love, not that we have loved God but that he loved us and sent his Son to be the propitiation for our sins.(1 John 4:10)

http://www.danielakin.com/wp-content/uploads/old/Resource_30/How's Your Love Life-sermon.pdf
Sermons and Outlines
1 John 4 Sermons - SermonAudio.com

 

[justlikeThomas]

drag3049,

There is a great man who was in the same situation you are in. His name is David the Psalmist, author of the book of Psalms. In it, he questions God and frankly blames Him multiple times for his trouble in life. Let me give a few examples.

In Psalm 3, He says to God, "Lord, how they have increased who trouble me! Many are they who rise up against me. Many are they who say of me, 'There is no help for him in God.'" (Ps 3:1-2 NKJV)

in Psalm 10, he asks, "Why do You stand afar off, O Lord? Why do You hide in times of trouble?" (Ps 10:1-2 NKJV)

in Psalm 44, "Awake! Why do You sleep, O Lord? Arise! Do not cast us off forever. Why do You hide Your face, And forget our affliction and our oppression? For our soul is bowed down to the dust; Our body clings to the ground." (Ps 44:23-26)

in Psalm 74, "O God, why have You cast us off forever? Why does Your anger smoke against the sheep of Your pasture?" (Ps 74:1 NKJV)

in Psalm 79, "How long, Lord? Will You be angry forever?" (Ps 79:5 NKJV)

I could go on for pages and pages of verses from the book of Psalms, in which King David blames God and questions Him for his afflictions in life.

So the first message I would like you to receive, is that there is nothing wrong in expressing your feelings to God. It is called prayer.

The second thing I would like to tell you is that, despite what you may believe or see, God loves you. There are two books we will be visiting to see this. the Gospel of John, and the first epistle of John. Chapter 3 verse 16 in both books.

"For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him should not perish but have everlasting life." (John 3:16 NKJV)

"By this we know love, because He laid down His life for us." (1 John 3:16 NKJV)

Our God is a God of love. Again in his first epistle, John tells us plainly that "He who does not love does not know God, for GOD IS LOVE." (1 John 4:8 NKJV)

The third thing I would like to do, is to direct you, again to the book of Psalms, where we learn to trust in God.

"Be of good courage, And He shall strengthen your heart, All you who hope in the Lord." (Ps 31:24 NKJV)

"Our soul waits for the Lord; He is our help and our shield. For our heart shall rejoice in Him, Because we have trusted in His holy name. Let Your mercy, O Lord, be upon us, Just as we hope in You." (Ps 33:20-22 NKJV)

"Why are you cast down, O my soul? And why are you disquieted within me? Hope in God; For I shall yet praise Him, The help of my countenance and my God" (Ps 43:5 NKJV)

My friend drag3049, I pray that you find your way to the Lord. The book of psalms is a beautiful book. David, the great Psalmist and King, takes us throughout his life, both questioning and trusting in God. We find how David himself found his way to God. I encourage you to take the book of Psalms and read it and take it to heart. Use verses from it as a prayer, just as David himself used it as a prayer. This great book is used to tell a story, to provide us with wonderful prayers and used as a compilation of wonderful uplifting verses. I think you will find that you and David the Psalmist have more in common that you think. feel free to PM me anytime

to summarize,
1. It is not wrong to express your inner feelings to God. pray to Him and ask Him for help.
2. God loves you
3. Trust in God

prayers and peace

 

[kopite]

he'll never ever let you go, call him what you will, jesus made provision for that, hope your heart changes my love in christ.

 

[funtimes]

Do I have your permission to die now???

Sounds like you have died inside. You won't go to Hell, you have already put yourself there.

I find when I get down, if I go to the Salvation Army soup kitchen as a volunteer, it lifts my spirit.

It is a sin not to be in the joy of the Lord.

 

[Heather M]

I am so sorry that you are going through this tough time in your life. You said that you don't want to talk to someone at a suicide helpline. Would you feel more comfortable texting? There is a teen/young adult ministry called "Remedy Live," and they do a lot of work helping people who are suicidal and/or struggle with things like masturbation, self harm, eating disorders, depression in general, etc. You just text them, and someone texts you back and helps you through your problems. I have heard amazing things about them. They work with so many people dealing with similar issues as you are faced with that they will be able to understand where you're coming from and encourage you. I hope you will contact them. All you have to do is text REMEDY to 313131. This is available to you 24/7. I hope this helps you!!!

 

[toLiJC]

Trust me, I've taken antidepressants, talked to the pastor, gone to celebrate recovery, church. What the heck am I missing? Nothing anyone can tell me will make me want to live anymore. (except you will go to h e l l if you kill yourself which is a dumb reason). So tell me people. What am I missing? Yes, I've tried reading my bible and praying and it doesn't change a thing.

Im pretty sure I have nothing to contribute in this God forsaken land. Yes, the earth is pretty pathetic. I'm tired of hanging out in church bubbles and pretending everything is fine when its not. People need to wake up and realize that the earth is corrupt and there is nothing we can do about it. Ok, maybe God is powerful enough to use people, but not me. I'm too much of a piece of crap, and I'm tired of waiting in limbo. I'm ready to leave now. I'm not a good Christian cuz I suck at evangelism. I can't even smile at work.

Do I have your permission to die now???

start praying to Those Ones Who really are the true God Father and the true Lord Jesus Christ for help until They solve your problem(-s), shrug off all religion which you has hitherto followed and start invoking the true Lord God, e.g. so:

Father, You Who are the only true God of all boundless universe, i do not want to have any god/lord except only Those Ones Who really are the true Father God and the true Lord Jesus Christ, it is sure that as opposed to You, i do not know and cannot, and that You are the only One Who know(-s) and can the best for each person, for that reason i prefer not to touch spiritually the others than to defile anyone of them, please Father, remove permanently the evil spirits/impacts from me and heal me completely - i believe that You know what i need before anybody told You, i ask You in the Name of Your firstborn and only begotten Son - the only true Lord Jesus Christ

if you want you can say "Amen"

 

[HCrossth2012]

Peace to you in the name of The Lord Jesus Christ

I feel for you, but you know what just because you are so troubled means also the fake ness you see in church's. satan knows that you are not happy and knows you can see it. And he is pressuring you. You want to be well and my friend you are right we must get well? you are just not happy with being filled probably with something that is not true spirit of God. I went to charismatic church ones oh boy I was troubled in spirit I walked out. I tell you God helps and loves you, I was a big big big mess..the thought of wanting to die but cannot cause of hell. Was horrible, my life was pretty bad inside, till I left everything and went into my room and screamed to God till I got what I wanted freedom and to know he was with me, from then on as I gave all my life to his use. I asked thing and he gave instant answers. It was the best day ever. Believe friend, it was hard for me too first to believe. But go tell him everything. Yell your heart out be totally truthful of your self, surrender. Repent. He will hear broken heart. Jesus is your help line. I also tried lots of things therapy, docs, husband, no one could. But praise God he did. He wanted me to know that for the rest of my life in the baddest situation only he can and give true help, and now only his help is the only thing that will do for me. God bless you soo much. I will remember you when I go in front of my God.

Peace to you.

 

[reptilegirl]

You fall to your knees. you beg you plead. Can I be somebody else? For all the times I hate myself. Your failures devour your heart every hour. Your drowning in your imperfection.

love that song.