- Aug 8, 2016
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Greetings with Christian love to all of you wonderful children of God who also all live in different parts of His footstool! My temporary name is Brandon, though God has a new name waiting for me which I do not yet know what it is or how to pronounce it. The reasons for which I'm choosing to join this sector on the interwebs is to further discover what spiritual gifts God has given to me and to practice using them for the benefit of others and to bring Him glory, to have fellowship with one another, to grow, to take in and give advice, etc. To share a bit of my testimony, the following has been my experience over the years.
I'd been a lost sheep and eventually realized that I was miserable and that there was a deep emptiness inside that desired for something more than the world has to offer. Through plenty of research I'd come to believe in Jesus Christ and eventually started attending church service, reading scripture and praying, and getting involved with the community which has proven to be both beneficial and difficult at times. There was this retreat that I had gone to 2 years ago and it was the best weekend of my life. During an hour of worship there, the Lord had revealed His great love for me in an incredible way that others have explained as being "in the Spirit". That feeling and knowing of oneness with God was seriously to die for! While that was the only time that His presence could be entirely felt throughout my soul and I miss that experience with Him so dearly, it was something that aided me in keeping my focus on Jesus and sticking to the faith. I've failed Him so many times and have stumbled here and there but I'm trying to take His word much more seriously and desire to make Him truly #1 in my life which seems like the very hardest thing that one can do. I decided to get baptized last year which was wonderful but the primary intention of doing so was selfish, I wanted to be healed.
There is a serious fear problem in me accompanied with anxiety and health problems that haunt me every single day. Rarely will I leave the house and I don't even like being inside, it's no way to live and I don't want this to go on anymore. During my very first year of school in Kindergarten at a church, I was assaulted by one of the other kids who injured me there and I grew up accustomed to living in fear and I have severe social phobia. I was put on destructive pharmaceutical drugs like Prozac at just the age of 11 and it permanently changed me, it overstimulated my brain and likely burnt out receptors. So I'm basically stuck with some form of brain damage and feel rather limited in how much I can do in life but my greatest fear about it is that it won't be excused by God for me to do mostly nothing with the rest of my life and the burden of guilt weighs heavily upon me. In the midst of all this, I choose to believe that God has a plan for a better future for this life that He has so graciously given me and it'll probably require more dedication on my part. It's all about Jesus and love and finding/taking the next steps/leaps of faith, which can be a lot harder than it sounds!
And that's all I have to say about that.
<3
I'd been a lost sheep and eventually realized that I was miserable and that there was a deep emptiness inside that desired for something more than the world has to offer. Through plenty of research I'd come to believe in Jesus Christ and eventually started attending church service, reading scripture and praying, and getting involved with the community which has proven to be both beneficial and difficult at times. There was this retreat that I had gone to 2 years ago and it was the best weekend of my life. During an hour of worship there, the Lord had revealed His great love for me in an incredible way that others have explained as being "in the Spirit". That feeling and knowing of oneness with God was seriously to die for! While that was the only time that His presence could be entirely felt throughout my soul and I miss that experience with Him so dearly, it was something that aided me in keeping my focus on Jesus and sticking to the faith. I've failed Him so many times and have stumbled here and there but I'm trying to take His word much more seriously and desire to make Him truly #1 in my life which seems like the very hardest thing that one can do. I decided to get baptized last year which was wonderful but the primary intention of doing so was selfish, I wanted to be healed.
There is a serious fear problem in me accompanied with anxiety and health problems that haunt me every single day. Rarely will I leave the house and I don't even like being inside, it's no way to live and I don't want this to go on anymore. During my very first year of school in Kindergarten at a church, I was assaulted by one of the other kids who injured me there and I grew up accustomed to living in fear and I have severe social phobia. I was put on destructive pharmaceutical drugs like Prozac at just the age of 11 and it permanently changed me, it overstimulated my brain and likely burnt out receptors. So I'm basically stuck with some form of brain damage and feel rather limited in how much I can do in life but my greatest fear about it is that it won't be excused by God for me to do mostly nothing with the rest of my life and the burden of guilt weighs heavily upon me. In the midst of all this, I choose to believe that God has a plan for a better future for this life that He has so graciously given me and it'll probably require more dedication on my part. It's all about Jesus and love and finding/taking the next steps/leaps of faith, which can be a lot harder than it sounds!
And that's all I have to say about that.
<3
