Got pull down again: job and family

[cflittlestar]

I thought there was a job, but he changed his mind (feeling a bit wordless)

And family, hate them, hate the mood....just hate it....
I want to run away, but have no power ($$$) to do it.
It's so called a family, but i don't feel it.
Something just happened, not about me this time. But I had enough of all these atmosphere, the mood that spread around this so called home.

Feeling low, feeling being pull down again, and no energy (mentally and physically), I wish I know how to be stronger and not let other people (and matters) affect me. Please tell me how, how to deal with it?.....
coz i know things will constantly happen, it's like flu, you can't really avoid, that's life.

Also, I never seems to learn how to deal with life, with people.....I feel so bad about this.....

I feel so alone in this world, it's like I am crying out loud in the silent dark. All I can hear is only my echo. So depress, so scary....

Please pray for me. Thanx.

EDIT:

I have this one friend, but she is not in this town. At least sometimes when I get a reply. I feel like there is some light.

But it's not enough....I want to have energy (physical and mental), even when feeling low....when matters happen.

I want to get a job, and build up my mental again at a state that I can go learn a skill. And get a job with the skill. And get a life, my own life. And get my own family. I really want someone to love me, and to love someone that worth my love. I want someone to hug me to sleep, not just my blanket and myself hug me to sleep. I want a 'real' home, not this roof. I need some love, I need someone to love me. I know God love me, but I feel he is so far away.

 

[Criada]

I'm sorry you were let down again, sweetie - it is hard to deal with that kind of thing, especially when you don't have support.
You are very much loved here - I know online friends aren't the same, but it is something at least
Praying for you, sweetie

 

[Sadron]

 

[aflower4God]

(((((((((((((BIG HUGS LITTLE STAR)))))))))))
You are NOT alone, I feel the same way. A very wise online friend told me that I MUST just focus on God and his timing for me. AS BADLY as I want out and as badly as you want out it is NOT his time. HE KNOWS the right time. Another wise friend told me to not fix my eyes on this world but fix my eyes on the UNseen world, God's glory, HEAVEN. This means that focus on FINDING his will and certainly be in constant prayer. NO PLEASE KNOW I am not trying to sound "preachy" to you cause this is something that I have a MAJOR struggle with A LOT of the time and I need to do this. To focus on that God has wonderful things in store for me and I KNOW with all my heart he does to you too. JUST PLEASE BE STILL and KNOW that He is God aka he has everything under controll. Sweet sister, PLEASE keep on praying to him, he already knows your heart. I know it is hard and PLEASE KNOW I will pray for your situtation to get better. You are a blessing KNOW that and there is a WONDERFUL Job out there where as you can use your God given gifts to serve our loving father. God bless you and LOTS OF LOVE TO YOU ((((((((BIG HUGS)))))))))))

 

[NoelAsa]

I'm sorry things did not work out for you. It is so hard to be patient. God has a plan for you and you will need to be patient. Praying for you!

 

[plumsink]

Hang in there littlestar and keep trying. I know it is hard. You DO have a loving family, God's family.

You have to keep picking yourself up when you fall and keep trying your best to make a good life for yourself. Everyone thinks that failing is the hard part, it isn't. Everyone fails, sometimes the most successful people fail the most. The hard part is to pick yourself up off the ground each and every time and keep after it. Have faith, you can do it.

(((((((((((((((((HUGS)))))))))))))))))))

P.S. Thomas Edison failed thousands of times before finding the right material to make the filament for the first electric light bulb. Up until that last try, all he had to show for his work was failure, but he never gave up.

 

[Jeshu]

I thought there was a job, but he changed his mind (feeling a bit wordless)

And family, hate them, hate the mood....just hate it....
I want to run away, but have no power ($$$) to do it.
It's so called a family, but i don't feel it.
Something just happened, not about me this time. But I had enough of all these atmosphere, the mood that spread around this so called home.

Feeling low, feeling being pull down again, and no energy (mentally and physically), I wish I know how to be stronger and not let other people (and matters) affect me. Please tell me how, how to deal with it?.....
coz i know things will constantly happen, it's like flu, you can't really avoid, that's life.

Also, I never seems to learn how to deal with life, with people.....I feel so bad about this.....

I feel so alone in this world, it's like I am crying out loud in the silent dark. All I can hear is only my echo. So depress, so scary....

Please pray for me. Thanx.

EDIT:

I have this one friend, but she is not in this town. At least sometimes when I get a reply. I feel like there is some light.

But it's not enough....I want to have energy (physical and mental), even when feeling low....when matters happen.

I want to get a job, and build up my mental again at a state that I can go learn a skill. And get a job with the skill. And get a life, my own life. And get my own family. I really want someone to love me, and to love someone that worth my love. I want someone to hug me to sleep, not just my blanket and myself hug me to sleep. I want a 'real' home, not this roof. I need some love, I need someone to love me. I know God love me, but I feel he is so far away.

My dear fellow struggler I found out the truth about our depression - robbing God away from us - it is because we can't feel love any more we believe the lie who says that love isn't around - though He always is - and so we fall deeper and deeper into The Bottomless Pit.

This is the fate Satan is going to suffer - so please let go of the lie and hold onto The Truth that God's love is supreme even though you let go and even though you can't feel or see Him.

And then AWAIT Him beloved of The Lord - Await Him - though it takes three days and three nights - indeed rejoice if it does!

Please understand that to have love we have to work with it and cultivate it in our hearts. Each Day God loves us pure and it is therefore for us to dress ourselves with.

And then even at the bottom of depression - when depression is literally crippling - His love will be you - though you cannot feel Him through your emotions you will be with Him and in Him S(s)pritually and such is better than life no matter the pain.

This is what our hope is dear friend! That Jesus would give us from His ability to suffer and still be loving and strong.

Be much encouraged


Our Soul's Worth In Jesus.

Our soul is worth more than all the wealth of the universe, as His Truth shapes our life. Our existence is worth a lot of love, and goodwill too. That's why God The Father sent Christ to lead us on The Way to true and lasting being. Caring so deeply for us especially when we slip and slide down that agonising decline sinful life so often brings.

Our soul is stronger than pain can bring to bear, for nothing can rob us of our life's reality. Good or bad, the Hand of Truth will always carry our existence. Even pain is subdued in the end by our inability to cease, even in the face of dying and death, it will serve just a memory, as a 'child' is born anew within us, time and again.

Our soul will endure for all eternity, harvesting that which we sow around, feeding from the abundance that wells from Being. We are individuals with a personal identity in Being, small images of truth in action, radiating around The Kernel, we exist, a quantum within The Universe, sprouting existentially.

Our souls discovering immortality have many perspectives in sight, eyes rimmed all around the truth that is life's wheel, we cycle on. For why hasn't love got more to say than - 'I love you' - if that wasn't because nothing more or better could ever be said which hasn't already been spoken? And so the truth is our best Friend, even if our truth has not always been the most angelic, this fact remains, in His Loving Truth we genuinely exist. Let's trust in that! Hallelujah!