Going Through the Motions

[BeccaLynn]

Does anyone else struggle regularly with feeling as if they're just disconnected from God? Like during prayer, church, etc., do you just feel like you're going through the motions?

Thanks for any response.

 

[Tonyy2]

yes i do very often. I dont have an answer now but just i try to not focus on the doubt and just focus on God and that He understands what i deal with and try to trust Him. Not simple but we can try.
ASk God for discernment and determination

 

[raven1]

Why do you feel like that exactly. You doubt he is there or don't feel connected etc.

 

[BeccaLynn]

Well, I've honestly always believed that it's because I don't have a genuine relationship with Him that I don't feel connected. I do believe He is there and that He listens, I just feel as if there's this sort of invisible wall between me and Him, and I have a difficult time even thinking I've genuinely repented due to this lack of feeling, etc. I know I've done things wrong and sometimes I've cried over it, but there's a difference between being sorrowful and being repentant.

I can imagine Jesus sitting there with me and listening, and I often try to do this to get through that lack of connection I feel. I will admit that I struggle with my closest relationships and feeling disconnected there also. It's a real battle with me and I'm usually trying to figure things out in my head. I can tell myself that even though I may be feeling distanced from my husband that I'm still married, so even though I'm feeling distanced from God it doesn't mean I'm not a Christian, but it's so hard just to feel like a robot in a sense and just continue to go through the motions as if nothing's wrong. Also, it's like my mind is constantly trying to go in other directions, so I have difficulty not just checking my time with God "off my list" of things to do. I want to know what it's like to have a relationship with Him that helps me through life, not to think that talking with Him is another thing I have to do as a good person who was raised in church. That makes Him a burden instead of my burden-bearer.

 

[tripletiger1200]

I feel the same way. I often feel like I don't have a real, positive relationship with Him. All I can say is that God will do things on his timing. I pray that one day I can have the kind of relationship with him that isn't a burdern or a chore, but a joy. Things have gotten better since I started praying this. One thing I've found is that focusing on God's grace and the mercy and forgiveness of sins found in Jesus Christ rather than the things that I do every day helps. I no longer feel as guilty or scared, and I am slowly understanding that God loves us and cares for us as we are his children in Christ.
You can spend your whole life working yourself to death trying to make yourself feel God's love, but if you jsut realize that He loves you the same no matter what if you are in Christ then I think that you will be much happier and begin to see the fruit of His spirit working in you.