God broke his promise

[stanneberg]

I take that back.......last year I drowned myself in hate and sadness against God but I only found myself damaging myself more!

This year I am fixing God's broken heart in which my hate damaged, I messed up a few times this year and I am going to Him to guide me. All I ask of him is to be my best friend

It sounds as if someone really hurt you. A Christian maybe? Family member? Are you sure you were ever really mad at God?

Either post or PM me. I want to talk.

Stephen Tanneberg

 

[Alexander1982]

It sounds as if someone really hurt you. A Christian maybe? Family member? Are you sure you were ever really mad at God?

Either post or PM me. I want to talk.

Stephen Tanneberg

What makes you say that?

 

[Alexander1982]

Yes you are right someone did unintentionally hurt me long time ago and I had a very tough time letting it go.

I posted about that story in my post "oh dear....unrequited love" last year, getting over a certain girl has been bit of a uphill challenege. ThePianist knows what I am talking about

Yes I was so sure that I did really hate God, i foolishly blame my unfortunate events on God saying to him "yeah thanks for breaking my heart God, I hate your guts" But it wasn't God but the girl's free will that made this happen. But I was blinded by my hurt soo much that my anger grew very powerful that I almost murdered my mom... yes I almost did. I found myself becoming not so different from Satan.........both of us once loved God so much but now it turns to great hate. I don't want to descend to the level of the dark one...

Everytime I pray I always say sorry, sorry I broke His heart and help me cure this agonizing heartbreak and help me be defensive with my feelings

 

[rbs70]

Thank you All

My last post was to get your opinon on weather I was too old for her or not and it went a totally diffrent direction. You keep telling me to clean up my life before inviteing someone else into, I still dont see all of your points, because all I do is self analyze to try and find out what is wrong with my love life(and is lack of existance) and walk with God. I do know this though your posts are helping me in more ways than one. I never hated God but sometimes do question his role in my life, If he is this all powerfull God then why wont he help me get out of some of the many problems in my life. Its like the saying "If God wont help then that only leaves you." Ya I may make a mess of it but atleast I'm trying. I have always struggled with relieing on others for help, I would rather do it myself then have others help, I'm a loner, Then I wonder why I'm lonely.

I wonder if I'm too messed up for anyone to help or love.

Brian

 

[stanneberg]

Thank you All

My last post was to get your opinon on weather I was too old for her or not and it went a totally diffrent direction. You keep telling me to clean up my life before inviteing someone else into, I still dont see all of your points, because all I do is self analyze to try and find out what is wrong with my love life(and is lack of existance) and walk with God. I do know this though your posts are helping me in more ways than one. I never hated God but sometimes do question his role in my life, If he is this all powerfull God then why wont he help me get out of some of the many problems in my life. Its like the saying "If God wont help then that only leaves you." Ya I may make a mess of it but atleast I'm trying. I have always struggled with relieing on others for help, I would rather do it myself then have others help, I'm a loner, Then I wonder why I'm lonely.

I wonder if I'm too messed up for anyone to help or love.

Brian,

I'm guilty of superimposing my thoughts and values on people without really listening to them in the first place. Forgive me. So many times I'm bent on the thought that I have the answer, but don't take time to really listen to the question.

I will tell you that you are NOT too messed up to be helped OR loved. In my mind, I am more messed up than anyone! I too self analyze and all too many times come up short. I don't need anyone to tell me what is wrong with me, because I already beat myself up on a regular basis.

People tend to compare themselves with other people. "I'm not as bad as that guy . . ." "I wish I could pray more, like that person . . ." "If only I could be more disciplined like that man . . ." The truth of the matter is the difference between myself and Hitler is negligable, compared to the difference between myself and God. I look at other people's problems, habits or situations with the knowledge that "it could have been me."

In answer to your question "are you too old for her", I couldn't possibly give you an answer! I do know this -- when God gives you a burden for someone, PRAY for that person. Trust God that He will do what is best for you -- and her. Watch what God does in your life and it will blow you away.

We really can't clean up our own lives, any more than we can save ourselves. This is why God wants to be God in our lives. Jesus said: "Apart from me you can do nothing." Think about this.

PM me if you want to talk more.

 

[Everlastinglife]

Gods will prevails, He hears what we ask of Him. We do not question His timing.

Proverbs 3:5-6, "Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make your paths straight."