Getting over it.

[Moose6149]

I have struggled on and off with eating disorders for two years and I have been eating right lately, but I still wake up everyday and hate myself for being to fat. Sometimes I'm tempted to stop eating again. I don't know what to do.

 

[blessedmomof5]

I'm sorry that you are going through this. It's not easy. Are you in therapy?
I believe at least for me the days get better, then their is a trigger and the ""feeling"" of fat overtakes me! So I guess maybe it does get better?
That probably did not help! Sorry

 

[Moose6149]

I'm not in therapy anymore. I have been to 7 different counselors and none of them really helped. My family has no idea about my situation. The are oblivious. They Kind of just ignore me so I feel like I'm not good enough. I guess that doesn't help anything.

 

[GoodSpeed]

I had the opposite problem - thought I was too skinny so ate like a horse lifted weights and did steroids ...
We called the syndrom 'bigorexia' ...

I never went to counselling ... just tried to stop caring what anyone else thought of my appearance ... if they think I'm skinny/weak now I try not to let it bother me and stay confident in myself

 

[Moose6149]

That is what I try to do, but I feel like such an outcast. My family is all healthy and skinny and then there's me. It just gets to me sometimes.

 

[GoodSpeed]

That is what I try to do, but I feel like such an outcast. My family is all healthy and skinny and then there's me. It just gets to me sometimes.

I honestly believe the main thing you need is confidence and just believing in yourself not necessarily actual phsycial results.
But I can get into great detail if you are interested in this -- I used to bodybuild ... but you can EAT in such a way to shed body fat and still be quite healthy.
It is cutting down on useless carbohydrates. Focus on 2 things and 2 things only in each meal -- many small meals per day like maybe 6 meals every 3 hours.
1-protein (meat/fish/eggs) 2-vegetables.
Cut back on or eliminate 1-white bread 2-white potatoe 3-white rice 4-any simple carb (pop, potatoes chips, junk food ...)
I have written a 5 page document on eating a 'ketogenic' diet after years of reading and researching (and what I and most other bodybuilders) do to 'get cut'.
If you want to learn more about eating 'lean' let me know ...

 

[Moose6149]

Thank you for the advice. I will do my best to work on my confidence and what I eat.

 

[GoodSpeed]

why did it replace all the numbers I typed with the # symbol !?!??

 

[blessedmomof5]

Because this is an eating disorder forum, their are rules to replying, and numbers are one of them. So they automatically get replaced!

If you go to the top of the page you will see the guidelines for posting hope that helps

why did it replace all the numbers I typed with the # symbol !?!??

 

[blessedmomof5]

Must be a lonely feeling to be ignored by the ones you love and that love you. Maybe they are afraid if they say something then it makes it real for "them"
I know my husband never said anything which made me feel like he didn't care. But the few times he did I was a monster!


Maybe then your trying to become invisible so you can be noticed?
Just a thought!

I'm not in therapy anymore. I have been to 7 different counselors and none of them really helped. My family has no idea about my situation. The are oblivious. They Kind of just ignore me so I feel like I'm not good enough. I guess that doesn't help anything.