I deal with bad anxiety, which comes in episodes. When I am in it, I feel depressed and it is hard to feel hope and believe Jesus can heal me. It feels hard to believe that I am any better than 10 years ago when I started counseling for it. During it, I start to disassociate in spots and start to feel apathy about things that are typically really important to me. The feelings of apathy scare me because then I feel distant from the things and people that usually help me to persevere. Starting "Volarian root" today. Hope it helps with anxiety and the resulting apathy, disassociation, negative thinking, depression. I try to "feel" the terror, so maybe it lessens it over time. Can anyone tell me what helped your anxiety to lessen over time? I just want it to get better for me.
Valerian root is supposed to be good. It is a nervine in the same classification as Valium. Don't let that scare you. It isn't addictive.
Chamomile, in a therapeutic dose is also good if you find you can't tolerate Valerian.
Well, I can't honestly say that I got a whole lot better over time. I got better because I did the work to deal with the issues. I was like a pit bull with lock jaws. They labeled the problem, I studied it half to death and I attacked it with prayer, stepping out in faith and facing whatever God gave me to deal with.
On a scale of 1 to 10, I was a 9.5 and I was told that I should have been institutionalized being that bad but they never could figure out how come I'd never been arrested or put into a mental institution. Don't get me wrong, I have been to crisis units, but not committed.
I just tell them God was in charge and He still is.
1. Own It -feel it. Dissociation is to refuse to take responsibility or ownership of a feeling, a memory, whatever.
2. Express It -talk it out on paper or to a person
3. Identify It -label it
4. Confess It to God and another person
5. Surrender It
6. Forgive It -that's a choice/decision not a feeling Luke 11
7. Accept It- doesn't mean not to remember, but to remember with peace.
Part of my recovery was to wake up each morning and pray and ask God to help me to do the best I could with the day He had given me and leave the outcome in His hands. To give me strength, courage, the ability to persevere and to
give me a gift of great faith.
He did.
And the other part was to thank Him at night. And when I was at my worst, to start praising and thanking Him for anything and everything. Why? "Offer up the sacrifice of thanksgiving and pay thy vows to the most High, and in the time of trouble, He will deliver you and you will honor and glorify Him."
Now, I'll always have PTSD. I
had 49 personalities and fragments documented. My responses to things and people around me will always be different than most. I can accept that. What I wanted most was not to live in the nightmare any more and to be able to be accountable to God.
I was losing time something horrible. I couldn't remember most of my life on some days and could remember back to the age of 3 yrs. old on other days.
God answered that prayer. I dealt with a lot of the fragments/personalities. I regained my memories. I owned the pain. Forgave my abusers. Was healed of a lot of wounds, anger, rage, fear, guilt, false guilt, brainwashing, etc.
But it is only one day at a time.