Gave up on hate

[Shuuyaru]

Ive been reading this forums for a few days, trying to get the courage to voice myself.

what happend to me was classified as Sexual assault with intent to kill.
High school flame didnt appreciate that I could live without him...5-6 years after the break-up.

I hated him after what he did.
I still have anger when I think about it.
But I found out I could be happy again when I gave up on hate.

I did have help.
Loving and understanding boyfriend, now husband.

It still hurts when I think about it.
I still tremble sometimes.
I still cry sometimes.
I still have nightmares sometimes.

But Im also happy now.
Because I dont hate.



just thought Id share that.

 

[quietheart]

I'm soooo proud of you. Hate was a crutch for me for about 20 years, I've only given it up in he past year. I'm not saying I don't get extremly angry sometimes still, but the all consuming, I want to put them through hell, hate is finally gone. Many blessins and prayers for you as you continue on your healing journey.
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[Shuuyaru]

thank you.

I only started healing when I stopped hating.
Hate only hurts oneself.
It consumes the soul until all thats left is a rotten, sour core. Once you let go, its like a weight is lifted. Only you can let go tho.

Hugs to those who need it.
its free!

Keep your faith and be strong and proud of who you are.

 

[Ceili]

I haven't been past the hate yet,I just don't know how but my situation involved strangers. I don't know if that makes any difference,probably some but hate is hate and it disfiguires you. I wish I could get there! There's too much regret on my part,wrong place,wrong time.

 

[Shuuyaru]

it takes alot of time. keep praying and one day, youll find the answer in your heart and youll be able to move on.

I do understand how the fact that it was strangers would make it more confussing.

I will keep you in my heart and hope you find guidance and healing.

 

[UnitynLove]

For it is written "Let not the root of anger or bitterness spring up in you for by it MANY become defiled."

 

[whitedove7]

That's great you gave up on hate!