Frustration...

[ChildishFears]

I don't have an eating disorder, but I do think about food constantly. I either have no appetite at all so I just don't eat or I just crave food intensely and eat everything I can.
I feel fat, I hate the way my body looks, I can't stand looking in the mirror and seeing my body, but I always do then I hate myself for it. I hate myself for eating, for not having the willpower not too, I keep saying over and over in my head that 'food is temporary "pleasures" and that you don't need it and you'll end up feeling worthless and regretful after you eat it so it's not worth it." Some days I can exercise that will power, but I always give in. I think all I need to lose is about ----- measly pounds to be at my desired weight I think. But I can never seem to reach that point. Ugh, it's incredibly frustrating. It's just this ongoing cycle and I can never lose enough weight to be satisfied.

 

[lostaquarium]

Hey, I understand... OK, a couple of thoughts:

a) You don't look like you need to lose weight, from your profile pic. You look slim and gorgeous!

b) The frustration that accompanies weight loss is extremely counter-productive. i.e. the more desperate you are, the harder it is to get there. That's always been my experience; don't know if it counts for anything Don't crash-diet, because you WILL overeat in compensation.

c) A better thing to focus on is the gaining of healthy habits! Instead of thinking, "I must lose 10 lb", think, "I will eat 3 small meals and exercise regularly, etc". In other words, success doesn't depend on while way the scale moves, but on how much good you're doing to your body.

Hope that helps!

 

[ChildishFears]

Hey, I understand... OK, a couple of thoughts:

a) You don't look like you need to lose weight, from your profile pic. You look slim and gorgeous!

Nope. I still need to lose it at least --

b) The frustration that accompanies weight loss is extremely counter-productive. i.e. the more desperate you are, the harder it is to get there. That's always been my experience; don't know if it counts for anything Don't crash-diet, because you WILL overeat in compensation.

I know crash diets are only bullshyt because I don't have enough will-power to make it work.

c) A better thing to focus on is the gaining of healthy habits! Instead of thinking, "I must lose 10 lb", think, "I will eat 3 small meals and exercise regularly, etc". In other words, success doesn't depend on while way the scale moves, but on how much good you're doing to your body.

Three meals a day is to much i need to lose the weight by January seventh


Hope that helps!

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[Soulwings]

Sounds like you've got some problems with food, disordered eating if not an ED.

Have you talked with anyone about this, other than people online? If you're struggling so, I would highly recommend seeing a therapist. S/he can help you work through the issues that surround your obsession with food and weight loss, because there usually is some underlying issue other than the simple desire to lose weight. From your responses to lostaquarium, sounds to me like seeing a T would be a good idea.

I agree with what lostaquarium said. From your pic, you don't need to lose any weight. That's red flag number one, seeing that you believe you need to lose weight when you look fine already. You do not need to lose weight, and seventh January is WAY too soon to lose that much weight.

Oh, and we probably shouldn't be talking in pounds here, since it can trigger... so maybe edit posts?

Three meals a day is not too much. Crash diets are stupid, and if you lose the weight with a crash diet, you will regain it plus more... and I am sure that you don't want that.

Anyway, yeah. Hope that helps too.

 

[ChildishFears]

Sounds like you've got some problems with food, disordered eating if not an ED.

Have you talked with anyone about this, other than people online? If you're struggling so, I would highly recommend seeing a therapist. S/he can help you work through the issues that surround your obsession with food and weight loss, because there usually is some underlying issue other than the simple desire to lose weight. From your responses to lostaquarium, sounds to me like seeing a T would be a good idea.

I agree with what lostaquarium said. From your pic, you don't need to lose any weight. That's red flag number one, seeing that you believe you need to lose weight when you look fine already. You do not need to lose weight, and seventh January is WAY too soon to lose that much weight.

Oh, and we probably shouldn't be talking in pounds here, since it can trigger... so maybe edit posts?

Three meals a day is not too much. Crash diets are stupid, and if you lose the weight with a crash diet, you will regain it plus more... and I am sure that you don't want that.

Anyway, yeah. Hope that helps too.

When I get into I guess a more rational state of mind, and I reflect back on what I did/said/wrote I realize that a lot of things I think about are really wacked out. Crash diets are stupid and worthless, but I know once I get back into my world of irrationality I'm going to force myself not to eat for an indeterminate amount of time since unfortunately I've got my appetite back in full force.. then seep right back into eating. I know that I need to lose some weight, sorry..but I feel extremely frustrated with my figure right now, I can't stand it actually. I know January seventh doesn't give me a lot of time, but I'm going to try my best. I can't see a therapist or anyone for that matter atm. Thank you and lost for your advice.