frustrated..

[sleepingbeautytn]

I was diagnosed bipolar four years ago..
I was told by a "christian counselor" a year ago to get off my medicine.. I am having so much trouble, am irritabe daily and now am starting to feel paranoid....
I live with my parents and two brothers and none of them are bipolar.
I was dropped by my state health insurance last year and am in need of medicine.
I do not know what to do. I feel helpless and afraid to reach out because noone seems to understand.
Will someone please pray for me?

 

[sleepingbeautytn]

update: I decided it was important to wake my mother and tell her that my thoughts are reoccuring..
She knows now and we will seek medical attention this week.

 

[Dos4GW]

I was diagnosed bipolar four years ago..
I was told by a "christian counselor" a year ago to get off my medicine.. I am having so much trouble, am irritabe daily and now am starting to feel paranoid....
I live with my parents and two brothers and none of them are bipolar.
I was dropped by my state health insurance last year and am in need of medicine.
I do not know what to do. I feel helpless and afraid to reach out because noone seems to understand.
Will someone please pray for me?

I'll be praying for you!

I don't know why anyone, expecially a counciler, would tell you to discontinue the use of something that has the potential to help you. How very irritating....
It sounds like your family, and this counciler, might be having trouble grasping just how much of a real deal Bipolar is. It's a debilitating disorder, a real problem that is not going to go away by ignoring it or passing it off.
Your number one priority should be to be well, to be 'level'. That means seeing a Pdoc, getting on the right medication, and going to therapy sessions.
You say that you don't have insurance, which does make your situation tough, but a few doctor bills are a small cost when you consider the alternative. Maybe your parents could help pay for these visits, and if not, you could try family services or some other orginizations.
In any case, you should definately check in to getting on disability. That way, you wouldn't have to worry about keeping a job or staying within the restrains of some insurance company. The process is a bit long winded, but it's really worth it. You can't beat $3 perscriptions.

Remember, if you ever need support, there's plenty of folks here that are more than willing to give it. Stay in touch, eh?

 

[Dos4GW]

Just saw your update. Good good. I hope you're feeling better soon.

 

[youthwalk]

I have noted that, in my own current experience, that Christian counsellors try to get you off meds or try to make you stop them abruptly. The one I've started seeing has all these ideas about psychiatrists keeping you in bondage and not wanting you to live without meds etc. That's never been my experience though; my pdoc wants me to reach a stage where I can function without meds and I never feel like I'm bound. I think that it's sad that some of these counsellors do more harm than good because they ignore that bipolar is an illness, they treat it as a state of mind instead. Going off meds with any illness is unwise unless you sincerely have no need for them any more.

I see this christian counsellor because she has a diet plan designed specifically for bipolars so I intend to combine that with my pharmacotheraphy and psychotherapy. I think balance is what I need.

Good that you're going to a doctor and that the lines of communication are open between yourself and your family.

It is my heartfelt prayer that you recieve the treatment you need and that all costs will be met by God's provision.

Father be with Sleepingbeautytn at this time. Lord, provide for her every need; emotionally, physically and other wise. Holy Spirit lead her to the right doctor and let excellent treatment be afforded to her. Lord provide for this family financially and meet them at the point of each of their needs. In Jesus' name, Amen.

Update us further.

 

[sleepingbeautytn]

another update : I went into the hospital but not before psychosis set in...
Thank God though I was taken care of and did not go through with thoughts in my head.
I spent 3 days there and now am back on Lithium. It seems to be helping a little but my thoughts are still very combobled, appetite is low and my sleep is sporatic.. please keep me in your prayers I go back to pysch doc. on 9.8.. until then I am trying to stay doped up on benadryl so that I can maintain my sleep...
does anyone else have "end of time" thoughts??
Lately they have been pretty strong..
This forum is such a refuge!!
Thanks! < sb><

 

[PrairieGurl]

Thank God though I was taken care of and did not go through with thoughts in my head.
my thoughts are still very combobled, appetite is low and my sleep is sporatic.. please keep me in your prayers I go back to pysch doc. on 9.8.. until then I am trying to stay doped up on benadryl so that I can maintain my sleep...
does anyone else have "end of time" thoughts??
Lately they have been pretty strong..
This forum is such a refuge!!
Thanks! < sb><

Dearest SB, ,

Thankful you didn't go thru with the thoughts in your head.

I'm a little concerened with you using benadryl to help maintain your sleep.

Those 'end of time' thoughts...do you mean, 'end of your time'? If you mean when Jesus will come back to take us out of this world, then yes many times! Actually, thru out my life Revelations was (and is) one of my favorite Books in the Bible. I have read all the "Left Behind Series" books. (am now on the last one)

What are your thoughts of 'end of time'?

s & s,
Wendy

 

[berry2000]

Praying. Glad you reached out for help when you needed it and didn't go through with those thoughts in your head. When you say end of time thoughts I know exactly what you mean! It is part of the the illness and it is something you have to fight. It is all lies, do not believe them!

 

[rushingwind62]

I know what you are going through right now. Dr's told me the samething, that I wasn't bp and didn't need medication. I too had a brief psychotic episode before they finally realized I was bp....If your Dr doesn't want to listen to your input then do what I did....find one who listens to your input and lets you take part in your maintaining stability....God Bless You...Rush