From lost to found

[Newsgurl]

just a little background of me I was baptized when I was 7 but when I turned 13 things took a turn for the worse. I was going down the wrong path trying any way possible to end my life. Then I started cutting myself because I was so depressed. I couldn't explain to anybody why I was feeling this way. This went on for 13 years every time I got sad or angry at myself I would revert to cutting ,self and think suicidal thoughts. I was put in 3 different hospitals over 10 times for this and I received numerous stitches in my arm each week. The doctors would ask what happened to my arm and why I needed stitches and I would just lie saying I fell on a piece of metal or something sharp sliced open my arm. I wasn't happy at all no matter what my parents would do for me. I started listening to music that talked about suicide and drugs and it would get me the mindset that I was worthless. I refused to go to church I'd say I was sick or something. I didn't know what I was missing until a week ago. I was missing God in my life I ran away from Him and put up my walls around me so no one could come near me and help me. I looked at my music on my phone today and said, "you know I'm tired of listening to this kind of music talking about sex, drugs, and suicide. So I deleted most of my music that was making me feel like this and put positive music on my phone. If anybody is going through a hard time, trust me you'll get through this. God has a way to get you help like He helped me it took 13 years for me hopefully anybody going through a hard time will take less. I am blessed to be alive today!

 

[Galatea]

I am glad you are doing better. I think you make a good point about music. It is tremendously powerful. I know when I listen to hymns it makes me feel better and hopeful. I know that music that is negative can cause people to have very dark thoughts.
Thanks for your testimony.

 

[Take Heart]

Wow, praise God! So happy you're with us. I can definitely relate to the depression and music part. I was listening to some really dark and angry stuff. And basically I felt led by the Holy Spirit to replace those types of songs to ones that uplift, encourage, and build me up in my faith. I now listen to a Christian radio station called K-Love. It's great because you can listen to it online : ) God bless and thank you so much for sharing your testimony ♥