Hi! I am now praying_hoping because since I joined last week, I have tried to sign in numerous times and everytime it says "invalid password." Then it says "click here" to have your password sent to you. Well, I've tried that for a week, but nothing was ever sent to me. I also e-mailed Christian Forums twice to help me but nothing happened. So now I'm using my daughter's e-mail address and had to register again. I wanted to thank everyone that responded to my message of "so many years of fighting this." I went to the dr. today and he got blood work back on me and I have to see a blood specialist for macrocytic anemia. On top of that, I found out I'm losing my job of three years as of June 1st. The dr. also raised my dosage of antidepressants I'm taking. And I ended a three year friendship recently and am mourning that also. I feel like giving up. My finances are in ruins and now I'm losing my job. I have had so many series of bad events happen to me since last September that I find I just don't care about anything anymore. I feel numb. No feelings left. I have not given up on God but I've given up on me. It seems everytime I start to feel better, something else comes along to knock me right back down. So all that's left of me now is numbness. I don't want to "feel" anymore-it's too painful! Does anyone feel the same way?