I just wanted to ask someone to lift up my friend's family in prayer. James was like a brother to me. I won't go into detail about his personal life, but he committed suicide on March 29th.
I spoke to his father last night and he filled me in on the details. His father woke up to a suicide note and found my friend in a pool of blood with a single gunshot wound to the head. He was still breathing. He was on life-support but braindead, and his wife was the only one legally able to make the decision to pull him off. James is gone.
I talked to him the night before he said that he was thinking about ending his life. He was supposed to go to court, but he didn't want to face the two-year sentence that he was likely to serve. Yes, he had a criminal background, but he had so much potential. He was only twenty years old. He had already been in prison, he had a wife, and two children.
His life was only beginning and he felt that leaving this world would make him less of a burden on his loved ones. My heart just breaks when I think about how his father found him lying in the park.
Another friend of mine does not understand why I grieve, so I ask that you pray for him as well. He told me that when his father died in a car accident, the last thing that he wanted was compassion. He just wanted life to go on. Maybe he's just stronger than I am emotionally. I know my friend chose to commit suicide and that it was selfish, but my other friend, Jesse, didn't know him like I did. He says that it doesn't matter. I pray that God will soften his heart, because I know he's hurting. A person who has set up such a shield has been hurt like no one has ever known.
I thank you for reading this. I know God will use this for good, as He always does. I know it's making me fall upon Him for support. He is my lifeline.
I spoke to his father last night and he filled me in on the details. His father woke up to a suicide note and found my friend in a pool of blood with a single gunshot wound to the head. He was still breathing. He was on life-support but braindead, and his wife was the only one legally able to make the decision to pull him off. James is gone.
I talked to him the night before he said that he was thinking about ending his life. He was supposed to go to court, but he didn't want to face the two-year sentence that he was likely to serve. Yes, he had a criminal background, but he had so much potential. He was only twenty years old. He had already been in prison, he had a wife, and two children.
His life was only beginning and he felt that leaving this world would make him less of a burden on his loved ones. My heart just breaks when I think about how his father found him lying in the park.
Another friend of mine does not understand why I grieve, so I ask that you pray for him as well. He told me that when his father died in a car accident, the last thing that he wanted was compassion. He just wanted life to go on. Maybe he's just stronger than I am emotionally. I know my friend chose to commit suicide and that it was selfish, but my other friend, Jesse, didn't know him like I did. He says that it doesn't matter. I pray that God will soften his heart, because I know he's hurting. A person who has set up such a shield has been hurt like no one has ever known.
I thank you for reading this. I know God will use this for good, as He always does. I know it's making me fall upon Him for support. He is my lifeline.
I will be praying for you and your friend's family, humble...also, for the soul of your friend....you are not alone in this. I actually know of (tooo many) others who've lost someone this way and it's sparked something in me...to want to help put a stop to the depression in young ones..from early on...because i believe it CAN be..and when others think that all else is hopeless, it is not. I've been to the point of hopelessness before..and actually telling my own mother that I am more valuable dead than alive..I know of that kind of pain. But, thankfully, God has brought me to THIS place in my life now. I no longer feel that....emptiness nor hopelessness. One of my majors is behav. science w/ psych..it is my goal to somehow, someday help others so that they do not get to the feelings of helplessness..it is my goal now, even if it's just one person that I can help bring out of it, it'll all be worth it...because we are ALL precious in His sight. 
