I have been blessed with a wonderful family that had instilled in me Christian values from a young age. I had attended Sunday School until I was about 10. Then, like a lot of young folk, decided it wasn't the way I wanted to spend my Sunday mornings. So I went out into the world.
I had always believed though. There aren't any stories of how I got involved with the wrong people, took drugs, etc. I was someone "having a form of godliness but denying its power"...there just wasn't anything 'inside'. I felt empty for twenty years. I just couldn't commit myself to Him. He was always there and I ignored Him. So my life was empty. I would wake up at three o'clock in the morning in the dark, sweating profusely, feeling a void inside, knowing the answer, yet not turning to Him. I valued my 'freedom' yet I was unwilling to abuse it. In hindsight I know I was afraid to trust Him with my life. Now I know I can't live without Him.
In March 2003 I left work, started drinking and distanced myself from friends. My life was a wreck. I was proud and an alcoholic. I had heard of the 'Alpha Course' on television. In September 2003 I started to attend an Alpha Course at the local church. I asked from prayer from the pastor. I was blessed with a revelation in a dream and I came to faith in November. I now feel drawn to a new start in the US, and although there are ups and downs, I know that He is working in my life. The answers to prayer are wonderful and I have much hope for the future. It would be wrong to say my life is completely transformed but I am trusting in Him. That is all I can do.
I had always believed though. There aren't any stories of how I got involved with the wrong people, took drugs, etc. I was someone "having a form of godliness but denying its power"...there just wasn't anything 'inside'. I felt empty for twenty years. I just couldn't commit myself to Him. He was always there and I ignored Him. So my life was empty. I would wake up at three o'clock in the morning in the dark, sweating profusely, feeling a void inside, knowing the answer, yet not turning to Him. I valued my 'freedom' yet I was unwilling to abuse it. In hindsight I know I was afraid to trust Him with my life. Now I know I can't live without Him.
In March 2003 I left work, started drinking and distanced myself from friends. My life was a wreck. I was proud and an alcoholic. I had heard of the 'Alpha Course' on television. In September 2003 I started to attend an Alpha Course at the local church. I asked from prayer from the pastor. I was blessed with a revelation in a dream and I came to faith in November. I now feel drawn to a new start in the US, and although there are ups and downs, I know that He is working in my life. The answers to prayer are wonderful and I have much hope for the future. It would be wrong to say my life is completely transformed but I am trusting in Him. That is all I can do.
I'm hoping to share my faith with my friends over the coming weeks so need to be strong in their presence.
