might as well start with tellign you a bit about Thailand

It was absolutely great

I thought I was going for teaching English in the schools there - but God didn't....the first day we went to school I wasn't feeling well (I think it might have been the anti-malaria tablets

) so I had to stay home...the next day we went to a different school and again I couldn't go (at first that is) cause the Chinese food from the evening before didn't go down well and I was sick...managed to join the rest of the team at school after the second hour though - did not do a lot that day except for sitting there trying not to move and taking pictures

Teaching was what I thought I was there for!!! So why didn't God let me do it

I felt really useless after those two days...ad we still had Church Conference to go...and knowing me there wasn't anything there for me to do since our main job would be to pray for people - and an Austrian never prays out loud for others...we might say thanks to God in Shakespearian language

at least that's what I would call it - but that's about it...it's an absolute NO-GO to pray for people who can't even tell you what to pray for because they don't speak English and to lay hands on them
So after not being able to do what I had come for I was really asking myself why I had gone at all

just for the holiday??? I already started thinking like that the first day I had to stay home....though I then decided to do the only usefull thing I could do in that situation and prayed for the others at school...
that was Tuesday and Wednesday morning...on WE evening there was the prayer meeting at church....and it was great - they didn't make me pray out loud so I was happy

we sang a few songs, did a drama based on the prodigal son (just transfered the story to Thailand

) and the others prayed for people - or at least some of them did...we left at 10 pm being told that if we didn't sneak out during the break we would be there till 1 or 2 in the morning

ever been to a prayer meeting that lasted that long?
Thursday in the evening we were teaching English to the grown-ups at church...lots of fun there...the lady I was teaching didn't speak a wrd of English so after my two sentences of thai we had to get someone to translate...in the end there was 3 of us teaching her
Friday we went to visit the daughter church and pray for it....which was alright for me cause again they didn't make me do it out loud....only thing was this stupid nudging (from God) to get up (oh no I can't) go out and pick up a stone right beside the door (I'm sure there's no stone there Lord!!!)....you can imagine me - the typical Austrian who never does as much as move during prayertime with that coming

I was horrified - and I have to admit I didn't get up

but as we left I had a look and that stone was there....so much for me knowing it better than God...I didn't tell anyone else about that (till right now

)....
Friday evening was the start of the (dreaded) church conference....as expected there were lots and lots of people coming forward for prayer after the sermon....and just in time I managed to get my camera out and take pictures sitting at the side (the others didn't know I'd never done anything like that at that point) halfway through it one of them came up and asked me wether I was alright - I told her about me never having done that and it being completly out of culture for me and she prayed with me....but I still couldn't get myself up

Then one of the guys started having words for people to get healed and they started praying for those people right next to me...in Thai culture males are not allowed to touch females - and one of them was a girl with hip problems...they didn't quite know what to do - and there was that small voice in my head again telling me to get up (oh no Lord...I can't do that!!!) and I remained where I was - watching and taking pictures

God still healed that Lady but He wanted to use me just that I was toooo scared to move a bit
this is getting really long

LOL
Saturday morning we were teaching the Compassion kids at church - Compassion helps save kids from being send to Bangkok either as prostitutes (the girls) or as beggars (the boys - usually they cut arms or legs off so that they get more money)...there is about 200!!! kids in the programm in that area alone

We spend the first 1 1/2 days in Bangkok and went to visit the night market (where those girls would have ended up) and it was horrible...it was alright if you were female but the males got asked every few meters wether they wanted sex - the guys asking having price lists in their hands

and at one point it was even a little boy (no older than 7) asking

I just wanted to get out of there as quick as possible that evening...and now there were all this kids laughing and having fun...and you knew excatly what their life might have looked like...
Saturday evening it was church conference again....you can imagine me now everyone knew I didn't like praying the way we were supposed to do it at church - and they all were like "We'll get her to do it - even if it means dragging her along after us"

I wanted to run but didn't get the chance LOL...
The sermon that evening was all about "Facing your Giants" - or to put it in other words "look to God cause He's bigger than your biggest fear"...and there I was dreading the moment that sermon would be over cause that would mean someone would grab my hand and drag me out to pray for people who weren't even able to tell me what to pray for

Anyway...once the sermon was over I was grabbed by the hand and dragged along (yep...I know God you want me to do that so I might as well let it happen)...and made to pray for people...I was lucky cause the one dragging me along had been living there for 10 years as a missionary so she knew the people and what they might want prayer for a bit

somehow I managed praying for the first lady...and then the second...and then was send to help someone else pray for the first lady again (they don't move till God did something - no matter how many people have to pray for them)...I had been praying in German all the time cause that was easier for me - but after praying for 2 or 3 people and running out of words to say I thought "This is stupid - I'm praying in GERMAN and they don't understand a word so really it only matters that you're saying something so I might as well give praying out loud in tounges a go!" (I have to say that this is something that before that evening I was convinced I would never ever do!!!)...so I did that - felt weird at first but at least I had something to say...
when we arrived back home that day I was really happy with me having actually done all those things - which in Austria I would never ever have done
This post is really long by now

sorry for keeping on and on

Anyway I think those have been the best points about the whole trip...
we went to Phuket for a few days afterwards for hliday - lying on the beach, swimming, elephant safari (ever been kissed by an elephant?

) and then going back home to 15°C and rain (in the UK that was - the weather was a bit better in Austria)...
might write more another day...really should be preparing for my talk on Thailand at youth on Saturday

blessings <><