Forgiving myself

[Dancinkim88]

Whenever I left for College I left at a very bad time in my spiritual life. Throughout high school I seemed to have abandoned my old ways and hardly ever went to church. I was an avid church goer and practicer of the word whenever I was younger but I didnt like my church's high school ministry so I quite going all together. This was not good for me whenver I moved out on my own and faced the real world while away at college I faced so many temptations, temptations I hadn't faced ever before. I wasn't a practicing Christian whenever I went away to school because I had fallen so far from the church and God's word. Whenever I was younger even in high school I had not only as a christian made a commitment to God but also to myself and my parents that I would not have sex until marriage. Whenever I went a way to college because of my weak faith I completely seemed to abandoned all of my morals as well as Gods commandments. I got invovled in a sexual relationship with a nonbeliever. Upon the end of the semester I decided that I needed to move back home. Since I've moved back home I have been going to church and spending time with friends who are also members of the church which has really helped me to restrengthen my faith. Although i am walking a better path right now and I know God has forgiven me I find it really hard to forgive myself for this, I find myself crying all the time whenever I think back on it and when I have to tell my future husband of this...

 

[ConcreteAngel]

Hi There

Don't beat yourself up. All that matters now is that you are back walking with the Lord. The fact that you have come back to the Lord is testament to how much He loves you. And as for telling your future husband...pray about that and cross that bridge when you come to it. As Christians, we are forgiven and we are called to forgive both ourselves and others. So, if you marry a Christian man, he will know this.

God Bless you and your decision to return to Christ.

Luv ConcreteAngel.

 

[rocklife]

I encourage you to continue in daily bible studies, that is even more important than church attendance. Jesus has many wonderful teachings in the New Testament that will help you.

remember to be thankful, even for such bad and hard times. God can even use the bad for good purpose. don't worry about future husband's thoughts, Jesus says there is enough for today, don't worry about tomorrow. God bless, and continue in Him and getting to know biblical Jesus

 

[HolyOne87]

like concrete angel said, what matters was that you stopped yourself from this lifestyle and now are walking with God. I was where you were as well at one point (in HS). I barely went to church. I only went when i had to Altar Serve mass (which i only served once a month). Other times I made up excuses and just didnt go.
Now, I pretty much go all the time.
God is proud that you turned to Him. Don't dwell on the future. You focus on the here and now and not so much on what will happen later and stuff. Continue to build your relationship with God.
I will pray that your relationship with God continues to grow!

 

[HolyOne87]

welcome to CF, by the way! :-D