Forgiven By God Rejected by Others

I have been in this forum for almost 2 years now and I have received wonderful advice from everyone in these forums and on this christian website. I want to thank everyone from the bottom of my heart on the advice you have given me. I am facing a major dilemma right now and I am unsure how to handle this and hopefully someone can help me or give me advice on where to go from here. Let me tell you I have prayed to God for answers and it just seems like it is not happening fast enough.

Here we go................

1) How do you deal with a minister who is openly rebuking you in a church for no apparent reason? What I mean is not willing to pray for me, avoiding me, etc...... This is happening at the current church I am attending.

2) I have been to a few churches but it seems the ones I have been to are not welcoming me. There are COGIC. It is almost like I am being treated as if I am unsaved. Yes I wear makeup, very modestly. Yes I wear pants. Yes I wear modest jewelry. These COGIC churches I have been to are all relatives of each other. I am friendly and outgoing and it just seems no matter how nice I be and loving I am I am openly rejected by the main leaders of these churches. It is almost like they are upset or mad at me for some reason.

3) How do you deal with a situation where you have wronged someone (let's say a pastor)with words and you went to them and humbly apologized to them (this happened almost a year ago btw) and they accepted my apology and even hugged me and still to this day continue to slander me and turn people that are trying to help me away from me by him gossiping to them about me? I no longer attend his church. I also went to God and asked for forgiveness. I even feel that this pastor has put church leaders against me because in regards to my first question about the minister openly rebuking me I found out they are related to each other. I do not want to church hop and go from church to church. My heart is really into this church but this is a TOUGH situation to be in.

I have given my life to God and walking by faith. I have changed. I have surrendered my life to him. But it just seems that people are throwing my past in my face. We all make mistakes and we repent biblically and move on. I am moving on but just needed to hear some feedback from anyone that has either experienced similar situations or know someone who has. I love God and I am living by his word but it is a struggle when everything around you seems like it is crumbling.

Love you all and God bless and my heart, mind and ears are open

The person you apologised to who even hugged you looks as if they haven't forgiven you in their heart.If it's a pastor,I wouldn't want to be in his shoes.
I hate gossiping.It really hurts people and I have experiened that kind of thing from an elder and others in the church.Not forgetting your past is like not forgiving you and casting your past up to you after God has forgiven you is what satan does to Christians.You are suffering persecution so remember

New International Version (©1984)
Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds. And;
Matthew 5:12 Rejoice and be glad, because great is your reward in heaven, for in the same way they persecuted the prophets who were before you.
If he's not willing to pray for you,pray for him.He avoids you because he knows in his heart he is wrong.What does he rebuke you for?(he should do so in private).
I probably don't have to tell you to ask The Lord for help so be patient.
Psalm 34:19 NIV
New International Version
A righteous man may have many troubles, but the LORD delivers him from them all;
Wait on the Lord and remember there are lots of Christian brothers and sisters who love you.I will pray for you and I am thinking of you.