Flushed em

[BabySteps]

I had a run with pain medicine, oxycodone and hydrocodone though my main one I had access too was Tramadol. The doctors say it's not addictive, though they recently made it a scedhuled drug.

It's pretty addictive, you take 2 and you feel happy 4 you feel kind sedated and over that you can catch nods...'

I just got a refill and did half of them, then I flushed them last night, I woke up this morning mad I flushed them. I feel so stupid.

They help me socialize, lift my mood ,help my depression and I flushed t hem BOY WAS I STUPID is how I feel.

 

[SoldierOfSoul]

Tramadol is a narcotic (even if not officially recognized as such) just like all the other ones you posted, I even had an uncle who overdosed on them, police found him in his own vomit after being there for three days...thank God he's still alive, he really shouldn't be.

You still haven't realized the truth that can save your life and soul babysteps and that is that Jesus is all you need, all you ever needed and your life and future depends on you believing this fact.

 

[Victorium]

They help me socialize, lift my mood ,help my depression and I flushed t hem BOY WAS I STUPID is how I feel.

Hi BabySteps,

If you need drugs to act normal then you have got a problem. Your using the drugs as an escape and not dealing with the core of your problems, learning and growing from that. The Holy Spirit will help you do that and he will enrich your life; you won't need drugs anymore. Turn to Christ and ask the Lord for his spirit to guide & teach you in life. He will show you ALL things. Pray about it. You can do this!

 

[BabySteps]

Hi BabySteps,

If you need drugs to act normal then you have got a problem. Your using the drugs as an escape and not dealing with the core of your problems, learning and growing from that. The Holy Spirit will help you do that and he will enrich your life; you won't need drugs anymore. Turn to Christ and ask the Lord for his spirit to guide & teach you in life. He will show you ALL things. Pray about it. You can do this!

yeah man, that's how I felt as soon as I opened the bottle. I had my bottle on me at all times, concentrated always "oh is my bottle with me" "oh please don't fall out" or "i hope no one finds this and i get in trouble or lose my pills and can't get high anymore" worrying about the police catching me with my prescription half empty getting paranoid about it. I hated it, I flushed the pills down the toilet and took 3 as I flushed them so i could get one final high. I felt less dirty as soon as the pills flushed, I disposed of the bottle and felt cleaner... I was still high til today and as I came down I felt the filth leave me. Everytime I take pills of any sort I start seeing that evil spirit. I get very depressed, even in the two days taking those I started contemplating suicide again.

I still smoke cigarettes and with each smoke I take I fill dirtied... holding them makes me feel dirty.

I still smoke pot when it comes around, and although my views are that it is not bad, I still feel guilty in my endeavors to get it(breaking the law worrying about getting caught)... everytime I get a bag, or a bottle of pills... I always just start getting high and not caring about life... it's not good.

I just want to enjoy life without addititives, as a child would undefiled with this stuff.

it's hard.. I had a relapse with pornography today... and as soon as I did that lust flights my mind. I open a door and the devil floods in... it's the nature.

 

[Victorium]

Keep up the battle BabySteps and don't give up! Pray always! There is better life beyond all of this and you can make and you can enjoy life like a child. Especially stay away from porn as that stuff is spiritual poison and will rot your soul. Depression can be a good thing sometimes as it can make you introspective and from there make the changes you need in your life. Anyway I don't want to sound like your mamma just hope you can be inspired to a better life.

 

[dewba]

do not put yourself down. you are not perfect and even blameless JOb stmbled. accept that it happened and you will let it go overtime.

Keep reading scripture and encouraging yourself and others with the truth