finally going to do something....

[BrokenForHim]

So I have been struggling with 2 eating disorders for about 5 years now. I have always used food as a way of control, its something I can choose to do...eat or not eat...or eat and get sick...at first it was for control(and because of many other things that had been going on...a way of dealing with things)..but now its controlling me...I'm scared to get better though, I guess its because I have lived like this for so long... and the fear of getting fat..I live for the compliments I get...I feel like I can never my small enough...I don't want to live like this anymore...its gone on for to long...I need all the adivce and prayer I can get right now...thanx for your time.
-Lindsey

 

[Bamboo_Chicken]

Lindsey! *gives Lindsey a giant hug*
Welcome to this part of the forum Hun - I think it's awesome that you posted!

I also think it's fantastic that you want to get help . I know I've already said it to you Hun, but I really believe talking to your school counsellor is a great idea. From what you've said before, she sounds like the right person to tell .

Lindsey, we're going to be here the whole time hugging and praying for you my friend. You can do it!

Shalom,
Steffi

 

[Celtic Camel]

Hey Lindsey,
I'll be praying for you...
Getting help is such a big step! So proud of you for the courage you are showing.
Ask anything you want & I'm sure we'll all help in any way we can.
All my love & prayers,
Celtic.

 

[Soulwings]

Hey Lindsey, and welcome to the ED board! I'm April.

Getting help is a big step ... and a scary one ... but it is SO worth it. Life isn't meant to be spent ordered around food and what to eat and not eat and when to eat and not eat and all. An ED is such a huge burden, and in recovery, some of that burden is lifted, and life becomes enjoyable once again.

Praying for you, sweetie. You can overcome this.

 

[gbalaundrygnome]

So I have been struggling with 2 eating disorders for about 5 years now. I have always used food as a way of control, its something I can choose to do...eat or not eat...or eat and get sick...at first it was for control(and because of many other things that had been going on...a way of dealing with things)..but now its controlling me...I'm scared to get better though, I guess its because I have lived like this for so long... and the fear of getting fat..I live for the compliments I get...I feel like I can never my small enough...I don't want to live like this anymore...its gone on for to long...I need all the adivce and prayer I can get right now...thanx for your time.
-Lindsey

your in my thoughts and prayers. Deciding that you don't have to be this way, that is a huge step.and I'm proud of you. That's a tough decision. It will be tough at moments, but if you lean on God to get you through it, he'll deliver you. It won't happen overnight. Trust me, I still struggle with my eds but its easier than it was. I've found when I'm striving to get closer to him and not on just being thinner or what others think of me I end up being happeir and healthier. You'll still probobly mess up some. But God is there to pick us up. Yesterday I messed up and fell into the trap of not eating much in order to feel like I wasn't huge. However, one day at atime with God is the way. Lots of love from me. Stay strong in Christ, and may you have the strenght to overcome.

 

[Bamboo_Chicken]

How are you going Hun?

 

[BrokenForHim]

rotten

 

[Bamboo_Chicken]

What's going on Hun?

 

[BrokenForHim]

its doesn't matter...nothing worth talking about.

 

[Bamboo_Chicken]

Lindsey, you do matter Hun . If you don't want to talk about it though, know that I'm praying for you my friend.

 

[gbalaundrygnome]

its doesn't matter...nothing worth talking about.

Your in my thoughts and prayers, stay strong in CHrist. Lots of love and hugs okay.