I'm 24, never had a real relationship with a girl, and I'm fighting some terrible temptations. I've struggled with masturbation since high school and throughout my current years in college. Prior to September of 2011, I had been increasing how often I look at porn and touch, and it seemed that I would never be able to stop. Think of an exponential curve, as in over time it was getting worse and worse and worse and worse...etc. And then, by an act that I can only attribute to God, I started hanging out with a girl that I had known for a while. If memory serves, it was that very Sunday at Church where we stayed after the service and just talked for an hour, when I found I had no urges to touch. Though she was just out of a bad relationship and we decided to be just friends (we ended up becoming "officially unofficial" for a couple months before she moved, and left the state) I went for about 9 months without looking for porn and falling into temptation as I had been doing previously. Then she moved back home. Though this could develop into an entirely different confession, I'd like to stay on track. You can probably guess what happened next. I'm back in that same place I was in before we started hanging out. I'm able to go a few days without masturbating but when I do fall again, it's more than once a day. I've read some of the other forums and I know that one of the best things to do aside from prayer, is to find someone to be accountable to. I find this idea to be terrifying. No one but God knows of my problem until now, and I can't imagine telling someone face-to-face. Please pray that I'm able to confront this fear of accountability and that I will trust in God to strengthen me again.
-Andy
-Andy
