fighting a losing battle

[dabro]

I don't know how to take this anymore. Valium doesn't work. Klonopin doesn't work and just letting the anxiety sit there makes seconds feel like minutes. I wish I could overcome this by sheer reasoning but I know how OCD feed off the answer's you give it. IDK what to do anymore except just allow myself to suffer.

 

[tripletiger1200]

I know how you feel. Just give it to God. Maybe He is trying to teach you something through all this.

 

[dabro]

I actually wasn't fighting at all. I accepted the anxiety and inturn the thoughts got smaller and smaller. It's no easy task to do ERP but in the long run you will reap the benifits of doing this skill. See I acknoledge. That yes my OCD myabe true but I don't go off asking for reassurnece and seeking answers by gooling it. I have goole. The accepting the anxiety part and OCD Online.com gives a weel description of how you supposed to treat these thoughts

 

[tripletiger1200]

Maybe it's a spiritual warfare thing? You mentioned you wanted to become a minister. I'm sure that's got the enemy pretty chapped at you. I'll be praying that you start to feel better!

 

[kaykay9.0]

Praying for you, Dabro.

 

[gracealone]

Dabro,
You really need to see if you can find a good Dr. who can act like a coach in teaching you to do ERP. Yes, sitting with the thoughts and not attending to them will increase your anxiety and feels like torture but the longer you can tolerate it the better. It's probably a good idea for you to approach ERP in baby steps. This means doing it for short periods and increasing those periods gradually. Don't push yourself so hard, just work at it gradually and accept the fact that it took a long time to get this bad and it will take a long time to get better also. Another thing is that the disorder tends to wax and wane so hold on to the idea that you can and will feel better after going through a very rough patch. Keep on looking for a good therapist. I'll pray for you to that end. Stay in touch...OK?
Mitzi

I don't know how to take this anymore. Valium doesn't work. Klonopin doesn't work and just letting the anxiety sit there makes seconds feel like minutes. I wish I could overcome this by sheer reasoning but I know how OCD feed off the answer's you give it. IDK what to do anymore except just allow myself to suffer.