Feels like a mid-life crisis..not sure what to do

[J. Putman]

In less than a year I will be turning 30. The number kinda scares me mainly because I feel like I haven't done anything productive in my life but to clean up past mistakes. Lately, I have been having this gut feeling like I shouldn't be doing the job/career that I am currently studying and in. I have been thinking about what God wants me to do for my life. Everything I do I want to glorify Him. I need to make a decision on:

1-Work as a forensic accountant with the FBI or another agency; or
2-Be a mom and adopt. I don't see myself getting married again so I may be a single mom when the time finally happens.

I feel like I can't be both. Both would be too much for me. Either would be rewarding and amazing if they should occur. But if I was a mom I could I guide my children through life and help love and raise them to be productive and successful members of society and to find their true potential calling to whatever God sees fit. I feel like my heart is telling me this is the choice but of course if I chose to work for the FBI or other agencies, I could help put the bad guys away and help others.

I've prayed to God, and just as any other human being I am impatient. What do you think I should do?

 

[Kol]

No matter what you do, it's human nature to regret you didn't do the other. So understand that first.

A solid career could be fulfilling, especially one working for a big organization like the govt. But what you'll probably find are that your co-workers end up having families, etc. In my experience, a good job won't solve your loneliness for you.

I would suggest to pray, and let God know how you feel, then take what is offered.

 

[JAM2b]

Pick the most reasonable option for now. You have to have a job and income right?

It is very possible to be a single parent and have a career. It takes some juggling and good childcare, whatever form of that you like best.