yes, they certainly are normal.
i for one really fell away from God for a while, and just recently gave my life completey back to him, this embarrasses me but its true, and it may help me relate to you.
im glad i remember alot of things i learned back when i was on fire for God the first time.
its good that you want more of God, and we need pastors and people and books, and we need to use them as much as possible, i dont believe your pastors will ever be grieved by your great desire to grow closer to God.
i remember my good friend Pastor Mark, there were times when i was naive and didnt know he was busy, but he always had time for me, and i am greatful.
and your pastors want to be able to be there for you, they want you to want them to help you.
they want to be there for you.
but above all, look more to Jesus than you ever have before, hes the scource and the glory of your salvation and hes the one who will meet your everyneed and fill you with all power, virtue and wisdom, hes the one who will build you into who you need to be.
set your eyes on him, and not so much people.
your secret time in the word of God, prayer and worship, will build you more than anything else.
i remember john the baptist crying BEHOLD THE LAMB OF GOD!
and thats who we need to be constantly beholding, in prayer, worship and the word of God.
and know, the scriptures and truths that God shows you in your secret time alone with him, the changes that take place there, they go deepest.
your entire life at church, around other people, in public, it will reflect the quality and the amount of time you spend alone with God.
in psalms 18 the bible says God dwelled in a dark place, a secret place.
hes the one you need, and the secret place is MOST important.
you can be abandoned by all and be all alone, but if you have your secret place alone with God, youll be alright, and youll still fullfill your destiny.
your destiny isnt completely tied up in any man.
we just have to be careful, we can look to be people too much we want something so badly... but we have to be careful and make sure we arent looking for quick easy routes.
i remember a man i use to want to be around alot because hes such a great man of God, but there were times he wouldnt really pay me alot of attention like i wanted... becuase he knew i was looking to get something from him that i could only get from going through the same process alone with God that he had went through, he knew he wasnt my source. so he left me alone with God, and he knew God would meet my needs if my desire was truely sincere, and not just a shallow lust for a quick high.
so he didnt feel guilty for not talking with me as much as i wanted him too.
but pastors, they are diffrent, they are there, to be there for you.
but the greatest things you see in them... men didnt teach them those things, they got them in the secret place alone with God. it will be the same with you. becuase men can take what men gave, but what God gives, no man can take away.
