Feeling the downs lately and don't know why?

[Scottie97]

Hey guys,

On may 1st I gave up pornography because of my 6 year addiction. But here and there I would jerk a little to girls in lingerie and I now realized i am an addict to masturbation. Even though experts say its normal because I am just '15' and stupid, I know its wrong. but thats only part of my issue.
after may 1st I soon gave into going back to alternative rock music. I dont listen to rap and songs that swear anymore.
Now as of today, I have been swearing a little more and been really angry for no reason.
Lately, I have been hating to listen to people talk about God and stuff but I dont know why. Things were going great for like 3 weeks and then BOOM, it just went down the toilet.
I don't know why i am acting like this but I need help.

 

[Robin Shawn]

You've realized your wrongdoings, and that's half the battle. The only way to know the joy of the Lord is to obey Him. Keep fighting the good fight, and the Lord will deliver you. He is for you and not against you. As you seek to do what is good, the devil will come against you, but take faith, God will protect and help you if you honor Him.

 

[Johnnz]

At just 16 hormones are one big factor to live with. Possibly your anger comes from the frustration and negative feelings about having a sex drive that won't shut down in the way you want it too.

John
NZ

 

[TyreseSmiles]

Hey, if you want to talk about this stuff I'm available <staff edit>. I would say to just personal message me, but I haven't posted enough to be able to. I'm here for ya if you want to talk, and I'm happy to pray for you and share some of the things I've learned.

 

[Rhett]

Hello Scottie,

I commend you Scottie for taking a stand for Christ and because you have taken that stand the enemy now sees you as a threat, a threat because you now notice behaviors that are not part of God's design and that has the enemy scared. Why you might ask? Because God's purpose and plan for you is starting to take shape.

You see Scottie I to struggled with an addiction to pornography for nearly 20 years in God used my wife as the tool of redemption that would break me of that addiction and start to mend and heal the wrongs and hurts that I had caused her and myself. My struggle with pornography had roots in so many other dark places and in so many other dark behaviors. I listened to rock music and alternative rock music for many, many, many, years and messages within this type of music would keep me in an angry dark place filled with hatred and disdain for the world at large.

I will let you know that God's word his grace and mercy can redeem you to the light. Here's a short explanation of the darkness in my soul caused by a pornography which led to alcohol and drug use, listening to disgusting, degrading, vile music with repulsive lyrics. Here is how bad it was, I had a playlist<Staff Edit>which had more than 200 songs with that theme, and another playlist entitled "The Adult Playlist", which had 250+ songs with an adult nature or sexual theme. Each of these songs would set me into a mood that was dark and wretched.

But now God has me in the place he wants me and he ordained me to be in this place since before time. I know in my heart that his promise to finish the work he started in me is all starting to take shape and I thank him for his mercies are new every morning. Scottie hang in there, my prayers are with you my friend my brother in Christ. I know that God will complete the work that he started in you too and that he will use your struggle to help you help others to glorify his kingdom.

If you ever would like to talk about some of the really cool Christian rock music that the Lord has led me to I'd be more than happy to share some of these artists with you, I can also help you access some Christian resources that will help you in your struggles with pornography. Let me tell you your strength to strength that you yield by the grace of God at this point in time and at your age is inspiring to me.

Your Brother in Christ,
Rhett

 

[jjust19]

Pornography is hard to break. You need to get on your knees, repent, cry out to Jesus for forgiveness and obey him with love. For his sheep hear his voice.