feeling suicidal and alone

[myGodnvrfailsme]

Life feels so hopeless. I just don't know what to do.
My mom just had a historectamy, and now no one in my family is helping her. She is acting mean to me and I can't stand it. I am the only one trying to help, so she naturally unloads on the only one willing to be close.
My dad doesnt love me and he has been neglectful my whole childhood. Lots of things are just falling apart in my life. I cry everyday. I've had thoughts of suicide before, but not like tonight. I really want to to kill myself.
I really want to kill myself. There is nothing worth staying alive for. But I don't want to go to hell. I don't know what I'm going to do.

 

[newyorknewyork]

PM me .. ill chat with you

 

[newyorknewyork]

these websites are great for when i feel overwhelmed/suicidal/depressed...
http://www.metanoia.org/suicide/
http://www.suicideprevention.com.au/
http://www.depressionhurts.com/selfassess/selfassess.jsp
http://www.healthyplace.com/communities/depression/related/self_help.asp
http://moodgym.anu.edu.au/default.asp
http://suicide.com/suicidecrisiscenter/whylive.html
http://suicidal.com/
http://suicide.com/suicidecrisiscenter/callchart.html
http://www.webmd.com/content/article/115/111736
http://suicidal.com/suicidalteens/
http://depressionlife.com/
http://suicidehotlines.com/
http://suicidal.com/depressionandsuicide/index.html
http://suicide.com/suicidecrisiscenter/index.html
http://www.livingisforeveryone.com.au/
http://www.befrienders.org/info/index.php
http://www.nmu.edu/counselingcenter/suicide.html

 

[Mrs. Luther073082]

This is how life works. Things will be alright for a while and then a whole bunch of bad stuff will happen all at once. When that happens, people get overwhelmed, and sometimes being that overwhelmed causes them to feel suicidal. Life will improve if you give it some time and a chance. Suicide is a permanent solution to temporary problems.

 

[bfly]

Life feels so hopeless. I just don't know what to do.
My mom just had a historectamy, and now no one in my family is helping her. She is acting mean to me and I can't stand it. I am the only one trying to help, so she naturally unloads on the only one willing to be close.
My dad doesnt love me and he has been neglectful my whole childhood. Lots of things are just falling apart in my life. I cry everyday. I've had thoughts of suicide before, but not like tonight. I really want to to kill myself.
I really want to kill myself. There is nothing worth staying alive for. But I don't want to go to hell. I don't know what I'm going to do.

You have not told us how old you are.

Your first responsibility is to hang in there and help get your back on her feet. She sure can't help you right now.

I no being hurt by the one you are trying to help is hard to take even with the best of us. But the only choice you have is to stay and help with her recovery or pick up and leave and who knows what will happen to your mother.

Suicide is a natural thought when one is suffering depression. Tears is a way of releasing the body of suffering that we don't understand and tears can help us to not do things that have the wrong lasting effects.

Being afraid of going to hell, makes me think you are aware of a Savior or have some background in church.

You sound to me like you are going through some pretty bad stuff now. So, just let me warn you, what you are suffering now can not be compared to Hell.

I feel like there is more to your story besides your mother not appreciating you.

Either way, reach down deep inside of you and determine that you will overcome this with your mother and then you can began the work on yourself.

Tell your mom, whether she approves of the way you are helping her or not, you are her only choice. Tell her you are going to help her get back on her feet and it would be easier on you and her if you could come to some kind of peace between you.

If she is still determined to pull you down with her words, you can choose to not hear them. When she realizes she is not making any grounds critizing you maybe she will wise up.

Remember you can't kill yourself because no one would be there to help your mom.

I believe once you have weathered this storm, you will be stronger. Then you can start to get help for yourself.

You will be able to get medication for the depression and should be able to find out what is causing it. If you are healthy in every other way then the pressure of life is more than your mind and body can handle. There is such good medicing out there now for depression. It can turn your life around and you will be a completely different person.

Please, determined in your heart you will only hear good thought and only think good thoughts.

I would need to know more about you before I can advise you any futher.

You may send me a private message and I will be glad to talk with you some more.

Just please know We have a great big God, He love us dearly. He can be your earthly father to. Talk to Him, He can be your refuge at this time. Cling to Him and He will not leave you alone. You don't have to have fancy words, just talk from your heart. He understands you much more than you understand yourself.

Every test you go through you will grow stronger. I know this for a fact. The ones that are not tested to their limits have not been in contact with God.

May God Bless and keep you and His will be done in your life. One day you will look back on this as probably just another stepping stone to the Kingdome of God.

I am planing on seeing you there. O.K.

 

[goldenviolet]

you must really have some big hurts. i wish the computer was not between us. i'd wrap you up in my arms. feeling suicidal is scary and lonely. please call a crisis line or doctor or minister to let a real voice comfort you. i call crisis lines when i have troubles and need a person to talk to. it's nice to have someone i can share with, who won't judge me... and a professional in dealling with bipolar-schitz issues is also quite comforting. do what you have to to reach out to safety. my favorite scriptures are God's promises to me. one day at a time sweetheart. you found a safe place here to talk too.

1 Peter 1:3-9
3 Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, who according to His abundant mercy has begotten us again to a living hope through the resurrection of Jesus Christ from the dead, 4 to an inheritance incorruptible and undefiled and that does not fade away, reserved in heaven for you, 5 who are kept by the power of God through faith for salvation ready to be revealed in the last time.
6 In this you greatly rejoice, though now for a little while, if need be, you have been grieved by various trials, 7 that the genuineness of your faith, being much more precious than gold that perishes, though it is tested by fire, may be found to praise, honor, and glory at the revelation of Jesus Christ, 8 whom having not seen you love. Though now you do not see Him, yet believing, you rejoice with joy inexpressible and full of glory, 9 receiving the end of your faith—the salvation of your souls.

 

[Bunn]

oh hun, you gotta pull through. and you will! i have been through the depths of suicidal thoughts many many times. and when i was 15 i actually attempted it and landed myself in the hospital for a couple weeks. it gave me a reality check. it was a dumb, selfish thing for me to do.

there are people who love you and care about you. everyone has rough spots in your life but they do fade after time. do you have any friends who you can talk to about these feelings? sometimes its best to just have a friend take you out and away from things for a day. and it always feels good to just completely vent to a good trustworthy listener. you'll feel such a weight lifted off you.
please feel welcome to pm me if you want. i will talk to you more about it. i can totally relate to what you are feeling.

you need a BIG HUG.

keep in mind that you are never alone. God is always with you. talk to Him. do some heavy praying. i can understand that you may not feel like it really but sometimes those times are when we need prayer the most.
do you have christian friends that you could ask to pray for you and your family???

don't let these feelings take you over. you're stronger than that!!! and then you would just be making satan happy... and who wants to do that?!

please find someone to talk to. and remember i am more than willing to let you vent to me and try to offer some advice.

 

[myGodnvrfailsme]

Hey guys, I just want to thank you for coming a reading this. Today has been much better and I have spoken with a few people.
I kind of just jumped to it with my post. i am 16, I have a history of anorexia. i am an avid attender of church, the church of God. the last few years have been a battle. my mom recently got her ministers licence, and our whole family has been through such trial and tribulation for it. but it will be worth it in the end.
i started taking anti-depressants last night. im not sure how that affects someone spiritually, but unless i hear a no from the Lord, i will keep taking them.

thanks guys for being caring and compassionate, even toward others that you dont know. i know that if you guys are ever in trouble, you will reap the hope that you have sewn into me. thanks so much.

 

[ArmouredSaint]

Hugs for you too.

 

[ArmouredSaint]

these websites are great for when i feel overwhelmed/suicidal/depressed...
http://www.metanoia.org/suicide/
http://www.suicideprevention.com.au/
http://www.depressionhurts.com/selfassess/selfassess.jsp
http://www.healthyplace.com/communities/depression/related/self_help.asp
http://moodgym.anu.edu.au/default.asp
http://suicide.com/suicidecrisiscenter/whylive.html
http://suicidal.com/
http://suicide.com/suicidecrisiscenter/callchart.html
http://www.webmd.com/content/article/115/111736
http://suicidal.com/suicidalteens/
http://depressionlife.com/
http://suicidehotlines.com/
http://suicidal.com/depressionandsuicide/index.html
http://suicide.com/suicidecrisiscenter/index.html
http://www.livingisforeveryone.com.au/
http://www.befrienders.org/info/index.php
http://www.nmu.edu/counselingcenter/suicide.html

 

[Bay]

I am so sorry. I hope you get to feeling better soon.

 

[Savedsis]

Hey guys, I just want to thank you for coming a reading this. Today has been much better and I have spoken with a few people.
I kind of just jumped to it with my post. i am 16, I have a history of anorexia. i am an avid attender of church, the church of God. the last few years have been a battle. my mom recently got her ministers licence, and our whole family has been through such trial and tribulation for it. but it will be worth it in the end.
i started taking anti-depressants last night. im not sure how that affects someone spiritually, but unless i hear a no from the Lord, i will keep taking them.

thanks guys for being caring and compassionate, even toward others that you dont know. i know that if you guys are ever in trouble, you will reap the hope that you have sewn into me. thanks so much.

God bless you sweetie...Remember that God is there for you...You are the apple of His eye...Praise God and lift Him up.....When times are hard for you lift Him up and praise Him....Make merry in your heart no regardless of how you feel...Keep your hope in the Lord.