Feeling Lost

[treeloez]

Hi..

My name's Christine and I'm kinda new here. Having a difficult time lately. Feeling lost, easily confused, small and quiet today. In a way I wish I had someone to hold me safe right now and then again I'm not sure if that is a good idea. I feel like crying, but know if I do.. I need a reason or so I've been told my whole life.

I'm a survivor of abuse. I had more than one abuser.

I'm sorry..
Christine

 

[Lisa0315]

Hi..
Hi Christine,

My first thought was to tell you to find comfort in the Lord. This is true, but we were created as social creatures, so you need some human comfort too. I am sure it is hard for you to trust people or even trust yourself right now. I wish that I could crawl through this computer and give you a big ole hug. Please take the thought of that hug, and know that I care about you, and I want to help you. I don't know if I can, but I want to try. Will you take a chance on me?

I do not agree about needing a reason to cry. That might be true for people who use their tears to manipulate others, but that is not the case for you. You have genuine reason to be sad, and our tears are precious to God. Do you know that He counts every one we shed? You are His precious child and He loves you.

Can you PM me your story or will it make you more sad to talk about it? I want to help you if I can. You have done nothing wrong. You have nothing to be ashamed of and nothing to be sorry for.

Love in Christ,

Lisa

 

[Theresasjourney]

Hi..

My name's Christine and I'm kinda new here. Having a difficult time lately. Feeling lost, easily confused, small and quiet today. In a way I wish I had someone to hold me safe right now and then again I'm not sure if that is a good idea. I feel like crying, but know if I do.. I need a reason or so I've been told my whole life.

I'm a survivor of abuse. I had more than one abuser.

I'm sorry..
Christine

I'm sorry you are feeling lost and confused..that is a hard place to be..
I'm sorry people lied to you about crying...even Jesus cried..its very ok to cry when we are sad...
and her is some safe hugs to put in your hug bank when you feel safe to cllect them...k
[[[[[[[ lil christine]]]]]]]]

 

[treeloez]

Hi Lisa..

Thank you for your warm reply. Thank you also for offering to help if possible. Sometimes just having some one to listen helps greatly.

I didn't realize he counted every tear we shed. I'm still learning a lot, I became a Christian on May 2 of this year. Thank you for the warm advice.

My story is quite long and I'm wondering if there is a limit to how many words you can use in a PM. If there isn't I don't mind sharing.

I keep telling myself I've done nothing wrong, but I have a hard time accepting that. Thank you for your time Lisa, very much appreciated.

God Bless..
Christine

 

[treeloez]

Hi Theresa..

Thank you for your warm reply. I'm sending you some safe hugs also if that is ok.

God Bless..
Christine

 

[JoyWillCome]

I hope you feel better. That kind of reminds me of a song, it goes "I, I Wanna hide in you, the way the life the truth, so i can dissapear, and all, all i really need is coming out of me and you become clear, as I dissapear."
I don't know if I got the words right or not but i hope it helps.

 

[shazabella]

Hi..

My name's Christine and I'm kinda new here. Having a difficult time lately. Feeling lost, easily confused, small and quiet today. In a way I wish I had someone to hold me safe right now and then again I'm not sure if that is a good idea. I feel like crying, but know if I do.. I need a reason or so I've been told my whole life.

I'm a survivor of abuse. I had more than one abuser.

I'm sorry..
Christine

Hi Christine,

welcome to SoA ... take your time to check things out ... there is no pressure

that you will find some comfort here

- Shaz

 

[rogsr]

Hello,

I'm sorry too, but I have very good news for you. Today is a new day, and yesterday and tommorow do not exist, except in our imagination. You can love yourself again Christine because you know that your soul is pure and lovely, and that your body is a sacred temple. Jesus has been whispering these things to you since you were born, they are always true. All you have to do is surrender your fear and your self hate. Put them before the Cross and you will be completely healed. Despair is like a highway for the Devil, and if you let him he'll ruin you by it; all we can do is surrender to Jesus. We are inborn with love in our hearts Christine, not despair. Love never dies, because God is Love, but despair is death and decay. When you pray say, "Lord, I am yours, save me."

 

[treeloez]

Hi GoAndSinNoMore..

Thank you for your warm reply. Could I ask the title of that song and who sings it? I would love to listen to it sometime. I'm just tired of hurting.

God Bless..
Christine

 

[treeloez]

Hi Shaz..

Thank you for your warm reply. I'm planning on taking my time to look through SoA. I'm just tired of hurting. I want to be able to cry w/out needing a reason or having to explain myself but I always seem to have to because I still live w/ one of my abusers. I'm sorry for going on.

God Bless..
Christine

 

[treeloez]

Hi rogsr..

I would like to thank you for the warm and encouraging words. It has helped me greatly.

God Bless..
Christine

 

[rogsr]

You have friends here. Even though we can't all see each other we are all one in Christ Jesus. So your hurt is our hurt; we are all each other brothers, sisters, sons, and daughters. We are all One Family, One Tribe, One Church, One Body. Praise be to God our beautiful Father! Can you imagine a world without God's love? He lets us hurt so we can learn to forgive, "Father forgive them for they know not what they do." He has made us One Family built upon the Rock, "...and the gates of Hell shall not prevail against it." He lets us choose Him and never leaves us without encouragement, "be not afraid, for it is your Father's good pleasure to give to you a Kingdom."

Peace!

 

[luv4godremains]

hey Christine, welcome to CFSoA, hope you feel better soon, and that you can be encouraged by the thnigs people say and the love they show on here! God bless, if ya ever need to chat, you can PM me! God bless

 

[GiLphish7284]

I keep telling myself I've done nothing wrong, but I have a hard time accepting that.

Did you know that your testimony speaks to others...No one in the whole world has a story like yours...just know also know:2corinthians5:17 Therefore if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; the old has gon, the new has come! we are reconciled by Him
Have you ever been told that God chooses to forget...? He chooses to forget our sins...he didn't call us to be near to him so that we could keep regretting the things of our past. He is a God of the NOW...He offers Grace, something that we can't as humans explain...you may have done things that you wish that you could take back...but what the enemy meant for evil, God uses for good...there may have been something in your life that God will be using so that you can help and encourage others in the walk...just keep pressing on, persavering...He offers strength, along w/ everything else GOOD.
YouAREloVEdByTHeMoSThigH

 

[breezynosacek]

Ps 56:8 You number {and} record my wanderings; put my tears into Your bottle--are they not in Your book?