Feeling Hurt

[Bluerose31]

I am feeling hurt due to my torture. I was forced to overeat, beaten and told I was worthless and ugly. I do not feel like myself anymore due to my torture. I used to be at peace with myself but now I am not. The woman who tortured me was very cruel and I feel she was more evil than I can comprehend. She did not want me to heal, nor to be well. I don't feel I can ever forgive her. I feel God will understand. She treated me like an animal. She made me feel like killing myself and often told me I should kill myself. She was a very evil woman and did not care about me at all. I don't feel I can forgive her. She caused my heart and soul and body too much pain. She did not care about me at all. It makes me feel at times that God does not care about me.

 

[PropheticTimes]

I am feeling hurt due to my torture. I was forced to overeat, beaten and told I was worthless and ugly. I do not feel like myself anymore due to my torture. I used to be at peace with myself but now I am not. The woman who tortured me was very cruel and I feel she was more evil than I can comprehend. She did not want me to heal, nor to be well. I don't feel I can ever forgive her. I feel God will understand. She treated me like an animal. She made me feel like killing myself and often told me I should kill myself. She was a very evil woman and did not care about me at all. I don't feel I can forgive her. She caused my heart and soul and body too much pain. She did not care about me at all. It makes me feel at times that God does not care about me.

Dear one, never base the love of God on the love of people. I understand your pain in a personal way. It took me a long time to forgive. I forget who said it, but I once read, "Holding onto anger is like drinking poison and expecting the other person to die."

Fill your mind and heart with good things, with Jesus. He will help you to heal.

 

[Bluerose31]

Dear one, never base the love of God on the love of people. I understand your pain in a personal way. It took me a long time to forgive. I forget who said it, but I once read, "Holding onto anger is like drinking poison and expecting the other person to die."

Fill your mind and heart with good things, with Jesus. He will help you to heal.

Thank you so much for these kind words and encouragement

 

[faroukfarouk]

Thank you so much for these kind words and encouragement

For the believer, comforting chapters such as John 14 and Psalm 46 are really good to read and re-read.

 

[PropheticTimes]

Thank you so much for these kind words and encouragement

You are very welcome. You are in my prayers.

 

[faroukfarouk]

Dear one, never base the love of God on the love of people. I understand your pain in a personal way. It took me a long time to forgive. I forget who said it, but I once read, "Holding onto anger is like drinking poison and expecting the other person to die."

Fill your mind and heart with good things, with Jesus. He will help you to heal.

It can be hard to let go of grudges but it is important indeed to do so. Philippians 2 and the extent to which the Lord Jesus willingly stooped to redeem His people, is very relevant here.

 

[brinny]

I am feeling hurt due to my torture. I was forced to overeat, beaten and told I was worthless and ugly. I do not feel like myself anymore due to my torture. I used to be at peace with myself but now I am not. The woman who tortured me was very cruel and I feel she was more evil than I can comprehend. She did not want me to heal, nor to be well. I don't feel I can ever forgive her. I feel God will understand. She treated me like an animal. She made me feel like killing myself and often told me I should kill myself. She was a very evil woman and did not care about me at all. I don't feel I can forgive her. She caused my heart and soul and body too much pain. She did not care about me at all. It makes me feel at times that God does not care about me.

God has this, precious. Draw close to Him, and take shelter under His wing as HE sorts it all out. The most crucial priority is that you be safe and that you allow God to take it ALL. Just lift it ALL up to Him each and every time you are bombarded with any thoughts, memories and/or dreams or flashbacks of what traumatized you, dear heart. It's a "God-realm" thing. Lift it up to Him, and leave it there. Praying, precious (((hug)))

Reminds me of this:

"Tell God all that is in your heart, as one unloads one's heart, its pleasures and its pains, to a dear friend. Tell Him your troubles, that He may comfort you; tell Him your joys, that He may sober them; tell Him your longings, that He may purify them; tell Him your dislikes, that He may help you to conquer them; talk to Him of your temptations, that He may shield you from them; show Him the wounds of your heart, that He may heal them; lay bare your indifference to good, your depraved tastes for evil, your instability. Tell Him how self-love makes you unjust to others, how vanity tempts you to be insincere, how pride disguises you to yourself as to others. If you thus pour out all your weaknesses, needs, troubles, there will be no lack of what to say. You will never exhaust the subject. It is continually being renewed. People who have no secrets from each other never want for subjects of conversation. They do not weigh their words, for there is nothing to be held back; neither do they seek for something to say. They talk out of the abundance of the heart, without consideration, just what they think. Blessed are they who attain to such familiar, unreserved intimacy with God.” ~Francois Fene'lon

 

[Bluerose31]

God has this, precious. Draw close to Him, and take shelter under His wing as HE sorts it all out. The most crucial priority is that you be safe and that you allow God to take it ALL. Just lift it ALL up to Him each and every time you are bombarded with any thoughts, memories and/or dreams or flashbacks of what traumatized you, dear heart. It's a "God-realm" thing. Lift it up to Him, and leave it there. Praying, precious (((hug)))

Reminds me of this:

"Tell God all that is in your heart, as one unloads one's heart, its pleasures and its pains, to a dear friend. Tell Him your troubles, that He may comfort you; tell Him your joys, that He may sober them; tell Him your longings, that He may purify them; tell Him your dislikes, that He may help you to conquer them; talk to Him of your temptations, that He may shield you from them; show Him the wounds of your heart, that He may heal them; lay bare your indifference to good, your depraved tastes for evil, your instability. Tell Him how self-love makes you unjust to others, how vanity tempts you to be insincere, how pride disguises you to yourself as to others. If you thus pour out all your weaknesses, needs, troubles, there will be no lack of what to say. You will never exhaust the subject. It is continually being renewed. People who have no secrets from each other never want for subjects of conversation. They do not weigh their words, for there is nothing to be held back; neither do they seek for something to say. They talk out of the abundance of the heart, without consideration, just what they think. Blessed are they who attain to such familiar, unreserved intimacy with God.” ~Francois Fene'lon

Thank you for this Brinny I love the quote

 

[Bluerose31]

For the believer, comforting chapters such as John 14 and Psalm 46 are really good to read and re-read.

Thank you so much Farouk

 

[Joy]

Dear Bluerose31
You are in my prayers and I also needed to read what Brinny wrote, thank you so much Brinny for your helpful post.

I have experienced inner pain (but nothing compared to you) and am finding it so hard to forgive those who have hurt me. Keep telling Jesus how you feel and He will help you and give you the strength and power to forgive, it's a process and will take time.

 

[JesusLovesOurLady]

In the name of the Father, the Son, the Holy Spirit
Amen

Petition: That the Blessed Mother keeps reminding Bluerose31, that she and her Son and God are always there, and that Bluerose will survive this and be healed from it.

Virgin most holy, accept my praise; give me strength to fight your foes

Apostle's Creed...

Come Holy Spirit...

Let us pray: O God, Who by the light of the Holy Spirit dost instruct the hearts of the faithful, grant us by the same Spirit to relish what is right and ever rejoice in His consolation, through Jesus Christ, our Lord.
Amen

First Crown: The Crown of Excellence

Our Father...

Hail Mary...

Blessed art thou, O Virgin Mary, who didst bear the Lord, the Creator of the world; thou didst give birth to Him Who made thee, and remainest a Virgin forever.

Rejoice, O Virgin Mary; Rejoice a thousand times!

Hail Mary...

O holy and immaculate Virgin, I know not with what praise to extol thee, since thou didst bear in thy womb the very One Whom the Heavens cannot contain.

Rejoice, O Virgin Mary; Rejoice a thousand times!

Hail Mary...

Thou are all fair, O Virgin Mary, and there is no stain in thee.

Rejoice, O Virgin Mary; Rejoice a thousand times!

Hail Mary...

Thy virtues, O Virgin, surpass the stars in number.

Rejoice, O Virgin Mary; Rejoice a thousand times!

Glory Be...

Second Crown: The Crown of Power

Our Father...

Hail Mary...

Glory be to thee O Empress of the world! Bring us with thee to the joys of Heaven.

Rejoice, O Virgin Mary; Rejoice a thousand times!

Hail Mary...

Glory be to thee, O treasure house of the Lord's graces! Grant us a share in thy riches.

Rejoice, O Virgin Mary; Rejoice a thousand times!

Hail Mary...

Glory be to thee, O Mediatrix between God and man! Through thee may the Almighty be favorable to us.

Rejoice, O Virgin Mary; Rejoice a thousand times!

Hail Mary...

Glory be to thee who destroyest heresies and crushest demons! Be thou our loving guide.

Rejoice, O Virgin Mary; Rejoice a thousand times!

Glory be...

Third Crown: The Crown of Goodness

Our Father...

Hail Mary...

Glory be to thee, O refuge of sinners! Intercede for us with God.

Rejoice, O Virgin Mary; Rejoice a thousand times!

Hail Mary...

Glory be to thee, O Mother of orphans! Render the Almighty favorable to us.

Rejoice, O Virgin Mary; Rejoice a thousand times!

Hail Mary...

Glory be to thee, O joy of the just! Lead us with thee to the joys of Heaven.

Rejoice, O Virgin Mary; Rejoice a thousand times!

Hail Mary...

Glory be to thee who are ever ready to assist us in life and death! Lead us with thee to the kingdom of Heaven!

Rejoice, O Virgin Mary; Rejoice a thousand times!

Glory be...

Let us pray.

Hail, Mary, Daughter of God the Father; Hail, Mary, Mother of God the Son; Hail, Mary, Spouse of the Holy Ghost; Hail, Mary, Temple of the most Holy Trinity; Hail, Mary, my Mistress, my treasure, my joy, Queen of my heart; my Mother, my life, my sweetness, my dearest hope - yea, my heart and my soul!

I am all thine and all that I have is Thine, O Virgin blessed above all things! Let thy soul be in me to magnify the Lord; let thy spirit be in me to rejoice in God. Set thyself, O faithful Virgin, as a seal upon my heart, that in thee and through thee I may be found faithful to God. Receive me, O gracious Virgin, among those whom thou lovest and teachest, whom thou leadest, nourishest and protectest as thy children. Grant that for love of thee I may despise all earthly consolations and ever cling to those of Heaven, until through the Holy Spirit - your faithful Spouse - and through you - His faithful spouse - Jesus Christ your Son be formed in me for the glory of the Father. Amen.

We fly to your patronage,
O Holy Mother of God, despise not our petitions in our necessities, but deliver us from all danger, O ever glorious and blessed Virgin. Amen

O Mary conceived without sin, pray for us who have recourse to thee!
O Mary conceived without sin, pray for us who have recourse to thee!
O Mary conceived without sin, pray for us who have recourse to thee!

Our Lady of Sorrows, pray for us!

In the name of the Father, the Son, the Holy Spirit
Amen

 

[brinny]

Thank you for this Brinny I love the quote

Me too.....God LOVES it when we just unreservedly tell Him ALL that is our hearts. He's LISTENING. He DELIGHTS in you. He IS our Comforter, our Healer, and the Lifter of our head.

Praying, dear heart (((hug)))

 

[brinny]

Dear Bluerose31
You are in my prayers and I also needed to read what Brinny wrote, thank you so much Brinny for your helpful post.

I have experienced inner pain (but nothing compared to you) and am finding it so hard to forgive those who have hurt me. Keep telling Jesus how you feel and He will help you and give you the strength and power to forgive, it's a process and will take time.

Awwww, bless yer heart, you are most welcome. I have had to work through the healing and forgiveness process too. I was akin to a spooked horse. And He, in His grace and patience, and love, coaxed me out of my hiding place and my spooked-horse-like state. Yes, it is a process, and it takes time. God grants us the strength and the grace to do, in His timing.

This comes to mind:

"Love makes your soul crawl out from its hiding place. " ~Zora Neale Hurston

 

[Beautyinsteadofashes]

I am feeling hurt due to my torture. I was forced to overeat, beaten and told I was worthless and ugly. I do not feel like myself anymore due to my torture. I used to be at peace with myself but now I am not. The woman who tortured me was very cruel and I feel she was more evil than I can comprehend. She did not want me to heal, nor to be well. I don't feel I can ever forgive her. I feel God will understand. She treated me like an animal. She made me feel like killing myself and often told me I should kill myself. She was a very evil woman and did not care about me at all. I don't feel I can forgive her. She caused my heart and soul and body too much pain. She did not care about me at all. It makes me feel at times that God does not care about me.

I am so so so sorry that this happened to you sweetheart.
Dear god I pray for the heart, mind, body and soul of this precious child of yours to be healed and restored.
Amen

 

[Bluerose31]

I am so so so sorry that this happened to you sweetheart.
Dear god I pray for the heart, mind, body and soul of this precious child of yours to be healed and restored.
Amen

Thank you so much Beautyinsteadofashes

 

[Bluerose31]

Dear Bluerose31
You are in my prayers and I also needed to read what Brinny wrote, thank you so much Brinny for your helpful post.

I have experienced inner pain (but nothing compared to you) and am finding it so hard to forgive those who have hurt me. Keep telling Jesus how you feel and He will help you and give you the strength and power to forgive, it's a process and will take time.

Thank you so much Caron1

 

[faroukfarouk]

Thank you so much Farouk

YW. It's good to keep such passages in mind so that when depressive thoughts arrive we can turn to the Word very soon.

 

[Pilgrim]

Psalms 46:10