Feeling Helpless...

[Rebellionaire]

Hi everyone,
I'm 30 years old and I've been living on the streets for almost 4 years now. Last August I was diagnosed with brain cancer at the local hospital and since then I've been jumping through massive hoops to try to get any kind of assistance to deal with it, to no avail. It seems like the State has given up on me, that I don't matter to anyone anymore.

My friends all don't really like me anymore, because all I do now is complain about the pain. I can't wake up easily in my tent anymore and part of the day is spent standing dead still until my vision comes back (it flickers in and out and I can't see for between 30 seconds - an hour/complete darkness). I'm even getting tired of still being alive, and I've prayed to God for YEARS to help me get off the streets and nearly a year to make the symptoms of the brain cancer go away.

On top of all that, my back spasms all the time making it hard to walk, painful to sit, and the only relief I get is when I crawl back into my tent and lay down. There is no source for me to obtain pain meds like aspirin or tylenol anywhere near, because I obviously can't work because of this.

Simple truth is, I just can't handle all this anymore. I know it's an abomination for me to kill myself, but more often than not, I find myself begging the Lord to take me home. I just simply can't do it. Tell me what to do please, because I've exhausted all the resources I can think of, and I'm really ready to quit.

 

[seaking2]

I also want to die tonight, suicide is not a sin

Though I don't have cancer this last month I got expelled from college for mental breakdown then hospitalized for 2 weeks and jailed for 2 weeks then homeless for 1 week

Have no money hope or will to go on

Parents gave up and so did everyone

Been suffering for 6 years and only getting worse

Cops trying to push charge and give me 2 years in jail

 

[rossignol]

Being in pain and feeling like no one cares is awe full. I understand the situation your in and wanting to quit but you reaching out and talking about it shows me that you know there is hope and answers you haven't found yet.

I can't help you with resources because I don't know your state and live in another country. What I can tell you is go to a church, speak to the pastor and ask for spiritual help. Another place you can go is a YMCA and I know the states have them everywhere. The YMCA is about taking care of the community and has many programs to help people.

Hope this helps.

 

[AWorkInProgress]

I can't begin to imagine how you feel right now, between homelessness and serious health problems.

In my own life situation I been feeling very trapped and little hope in breaking free. Last week I was so angry about it all, yet God got a hold of me. Told me he was bigger than my problems. I don't know he is doing, but he reminds me that he is still very much in control. I want him to do things the way I want them, but he has something better in mind, on his own time.

Don't let go, hold on and let God be God. Let him be bigger than all the world is telling you. The world has written you off, but something in my spirit tells me that God hasn't written you off.

In Jesus name I pray, Lord I lift up my sister in Christ. I can only imagine how scary it is to so open and vulnerable to the elements and to the cancer. Lord have been with me in all the scary moments since I been saved, and you never forsaken me. Lord be with my sister now, fill her with your Spirit. Lord give her peace, the peace only you can give, not like the world gives. I rebuke the cancer in her brain in the name of Jesus, let it now longer have a hold on her body. I pray for favor, to open the windows of heaven. To give her a place for shelter, and the help she needs to recover. Lastly Lord, fill her with your love for her, to touch her heart to feel the depth of your love.

I pray this all in Jesus' name. Amen

EDIT
This scripture just came to mind.

Ecclesiastes 3:11
"11 He has made everything beautiful in its time. He has also set eternity in the human heart; yet no one can fathom what God has done from beginning to end."

And

Romans 8:28
"28 And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose."

 

[Starithmetic]

Hi everyone,
I'm 30 years old and I've been living on the streets for almost 4 years now. Last August I was diagnosed with brain cancer at the local hospital and since then I've been jumping through massive hoops to try to get any kind of assistance to deal with it, to no avail. It seems like the State has given up on me, that I don't matter to anyone anymore.

My friends all don't really like me anymore, because all I do now is complain about the pain. I can't wake up easily in my tent anymore and part of the day is spent standing dead still until my vision comes back (it flickers in and out and I can't see for between 30 seconds - an hour/complete darkness). I'm even getting tired of still being alive, and I've prayed to God for YEARS to help me get off the streets and nearly a year to make the symptoms of the brain cancer go away.

On top of all that, my back spasms all the time making it hard to walk, painful to sit, and the only relief I get is when I crawl back into my tent and lay down. There is no source for me to obtain pain meds like aspirin or tylenol anywhere near, because I obviously can't work because of this.

Simple truth is, I just can't handle all this anymore. I know it's an abomination for me to kill myself, but more often than not, I find myself begging the Lord to take me home. I just simply can't do it. Tell me what to do please, because I've exhausted all the resources I can think of, and I'm really ready to quit.

Well if you're still goin obviously God isn't done with you yet, and you havn't completed your assignment. God puts us in certain situations because what ever we need to learn can only be learned by being in that certain situation. I would go out and be as much of a blessing to as many people as i possibly could, forget about your problems as best you can so that you can help others feel good, and I believe by making others happy it will in turn aid in your healing. It may also open an opportunity for you to meet someone who can offer you some help. Never let your faith fail, keep praying, not only for your self, but for others as well. God bless.

 

[SplendidTree]

Praying now, sister.

 

[TutorWife]

Much love to you, dear one. You are precious in His sight regardless of what the world has thrown at you. He may let us go through the fire, but we come out refined in the end. Do go into a church. They can't turn you away, and if they do, how can they say they are of God? Some other options are a police station, the YMCA, maybe even a community college. Where do you go for food and money? When you apply for food stamps or general aid, they should have information on housing as well. If not, churches sometimes put their members up in special housing. Also, find out about applying for disability AND Social Security. Even if you haven't worked much, I think you might still be eligible for full disability and county health or medicare. Ask these things when you go for medical care. Or you can look up "disability insurance" and your state name. It should tell you how to apply. With something this serious, how could they ever deny you? Praying for you <3

 

[Phoenix92885]

I've been learning that the worn out phrase "What doesn't kill you makes you stronger," is true. God makes no mistakes. I also want to stress that he did not cause this cancer. However, its apparent that your purpose on this world is a big one because its obvious that Satan is doing what he can to stop you.

Keep your head up. You have to get your head in the right place. Pray and get your mind above the pain. I have no doubt that it is excruciating but your thought process is half the battle. You wouldn't be enduring this if you weren't strong enough too, so you have to keep fighting. Pray every day for the will and strength to fight. Pray for someone to help you in this journey and pray for others in your same situation.

I'm praying for you. You've got this. Keep fighting. Don't give up!

Phoenix