Feeling disconnected from life

[Luminaire]

This is really weird for me to put into words, but I'm going to try. I've really been struggling with my faith lately. I've been reading my bible and praying a lot, but it seems more like I'm doing it out of habit rather than because I actually care to.

I've recently started college, and I lost all interest in any of my career goals. I used to want to pursue either an artsy career (music, etc.) or english (teaching) and now I'm disinterested in all of that. I want to go where God wants me to go, but I have no idea what that is, and since I don't have my own goals to follow I have no idea what to do. One of my original considerations, before even coming to college, was joining the military, but I am not sure if that is what God wants me to do and I don't want to commit to such a thing if it's not. I've been suffering some serious depression/anger because I feel nothing in life is worth aspiring towards. I've prayer for God's guidance but nothing has come up.

I've been losing my faith in life and the world in general, it seems to me like most human endeavors and relationships are completely meaningless. The concept of 'love' seems to be some sort of Holy Grail, but it is so convoluted with this and that, it seems to be just another polluted mess of chemicals and electricity. I don't really think it exists.

I don't really want to think this way, but I'm not sure how to go about changing something that seems so clear in my mind. Any advice would be helpful.

 

[Beautiful Fireball]

I went through a period like that so I know how difficult it is. I was suffering from depression and others helped me to realize that. I think that maybe you are suffering from depression and you should talk to a professional.

Thats all the advice that I have, but I will keep you in my prayers

 

[Anti Existance]

This is actually a good sign, and no the military is not what god wants for you,as its a sin to kill other people. The real meaning of life is to love and help other people.

When a person becomes uneasy and restless with their religion it means that they have learned everything that there is to learn in that religion. You see all the religions in this world have been put down on earth by God, each of them acting as a stepping stone that brings you closer back to God. Atheism destroys itself eventually, and thus is also a stepping stone towards God, this to sort out their feelings towards a greater truth, this because everyone is at a different spiritual level they need different spiritual needs.

On here http://www.wayti.com/en/portal.php you can find Christian friendly but very difficult spiritual books that will make expand your spiritual understanding about God. Also great for inspiration are near-death experiences of christians who where able to establish that YES God DOES exist. www.near-death.com , i absolutely love the stories and its great for those people who's inspiration have run dry after reading the bible 9 times back and forward and its great to see and understand that God is so infinite much more and wonderfull then a bible could possibly contain or describe in words. Because i also think its important that people understand that Jesus will return to Earth, and its not just a dusty old story from the past, God is alive and kicking today, and can bring us new things every day.

It might be time for you to go into deeper spiritual life after death truths.

 

[bfly]

You are still so young, I believe you should see your family doctor and express to him exactly what you have written here, copy and take it to him. I believe you are suffering from depression possible a chemical imbalance and until you have corrected that nothing will get better. Life is wonderful and at your age it should be the adventure we all desire. Don't waste a minute of it by not being in the best health you can be in. Mentally and physically. If nothing in your life has caused this change in you then you know something is not working in you to cause this uncaring and darkness and no feeling attitude. Please see your doctor and you will soon be able to take the world by the tail and think you are the invincible man. You will then be able to see things through God's eyes again. God bless you and may you soon be walking in His peace and celebrating your life in Him.

 

[Luminaire]

Thanks. I shall have to do that. I considered talking to a doctor about this, but I'm not very trusting of them to accomplish anything. But I shall have to try that, thanks again.


I think part of the way I feel like this is because I don't have a lot of social relationships, in the past few years while this began. I only had one girlfriend ever and it wasn't a very good relationship (if you could even call it that) and most of my friends moved away or betrayed me during this time, so I don't have a lot of emotional support from friends.

 

[Akathist]

Most colleges have a counseling center you might see if you could go there and talk through some of this stuff.

If you think you might be depressed, it seems to me that talking to your doctor is an excellent idea. Clinical depression is a medical condition.

In the meantime, if you are healthy and can do it, you might try to exercise aerobcally. (Walking, swimming, running, jogging). That helps a lot of people with their depression.

 

[Beautiful Fireball]

Exercise is an excellent idea!! That helped me immensely