feeling confused

[rjmclaugh]

This could very well be my last time post in the Bipolar Forum. After being told in college, that I had Bipolar Disorder and beleiving so for the past several years, my new doctor has doubts. He say I've never done anything spontanious enough to be bipolar. He beleives I just have Depression and Anxiety.
I told him I think there might be something else there as well. I suggested I might have ADHD, because I can't concentrate and I have a hard time keeping my legs still, and I've always been so different since I was a kid. I just feel there's more to it than Depression, but he wont listen, because of my job history. He says my formers jobs take a lot of detail. I struggled hard to stay on top of those jobs and I've always been a step behind my co-workers. When I worked in bakery as a donut girl, for example, I used to get distracted by the shapes in the fudge as I would dip my donuts. One of my co-workers would see this and she was always having talks with me about it.
Whatever the case, I guess I wont be posting with you guys any more. I'll miss you all. You were such a friendly bunch. I feel so confused and hurt. For now on I'll just have to hang out in the depression and anxiety forums. Lots of love to you.

 

[rjmclaugh]

I'm so scared and confused! I don't want to stop posting here. The depression forum doesn't even have a place to post my moods. I feel so stupid for thinking that I'm something when I'm not. I still feel like there's something the doctor didn't catch though. Something other than depression. Am I just misunderstood? Are all these years of wondering whats wrong with me just in vein. I've always been different from everyone else. I'm always daydreaming and saying/doing odd ball things. Kids made fun of me and called me retarded. I just know somethings wrong with me.

 

[goldenviolet]

bless your heart i proclaim this thread just for you. you don't need to move into the other forums all of the sudden. poke around there, and in the mean time, get lots of love and encouragment here too. xo dee

 

[Jeshu]

Yes doctors often don't really know either. For you it is to cope, if you feel comfortable with us, hang around, Depression, Bi-polar, Schizo-Affective and so on, are merely labels, describing a set of symptoms nothing more and lots less, you are a real person and so are we, so I say just ignore the labels and go where you feel you fit best!


Lots of blessings and ability to cope with depression.

 

[dark struggle]

I really hope you stay, you don't have to leave just because you were rediagnosed with something else. Im actually the same way as you. I have to be constantly moving, and the slightest things intregue me such as the way the creamer swirls around ont the top of the coffee I can watch the design for hours LOL or popping popcorn, is just mezmorizing to me and don't even get me started on siny glittery things if there are any around I can not concentrated on anything else. So I share some of the same things as you do and a little more things that you don't, we would love it if you stayed

 

[Alive again]

I am agreeing with all of the previous poster. You are welcome here!!! I deal with anxiety, more of the depression piece, constantly jiggle my leg and was a successful ICU/CCU nurse for many years and excellent enough to be encourage for management and a masters program. But I am sure easier to cdistract in thiese years than ever before! Label are something we use to try and make sense of things! Beyond that, there is a great deal of overlap of symptoms and genetics in mental health issues. I was diagnosed as depressed for many years (over a decade) non-responsive to meds, until we tried the bp label on for size and a mood stabilizer worked. Only then was may diagnosis changed. Docs are human and mental health issues are diagnosed by syptoms onlly-no blood test or xrays yet!!! So hang arroudn, we love having you!

 

[KleinerApfel]

Have to say your doctor sounds unsympathetic and also uninformed.
Doesn't he realise that many, many bipolar sufferers have high powered careers and manage to hide their difficulties and struggle on most of the time?
Just because we don't all fall over like jellies and stop doing anything ever again doesn't mean we're not going through hell!

I only just got diagnosed bipolar II at age 47, after 25 years or so of repeated depressive episodes along with that "something else" we all seem to live with.

Not all doctors seem to "get it" can you possibly find another?

 

[rjmclaugh]

Man, I'm so glad you guys still want me around. Something familliar would be nice. I suppose all these are just labels. This reminds me of a picture I saw in the newspaper the other day. It was a guy, in a mental health parade, holding a sign that said "I'm not a label, I'm a human."