Feeling abandoned by God

[jussanuddername]

Hi
I was saved (at least I thought I was) a few months ago and things seemed to be going okay. Lately, I don't think God even hears my prayers. Nothing seems to be working out for me. I thought that if I have Him, I would never be alone.
Maybe I never had Him. Maybe I am wasting my time.

 

[Daughter of His]

Hi,

God hear your prayers. I think all christians go through times as you describe, it's called a desert experience. For me once it went on for months and months. Keep praying, He is listening and doing a work in you. He is with you. God is faithful to His word and he promises to NEVER leave or forsake us. We know what we know by faith, not always an experincial feeling as such. You can pray and ask Him to help you know that He is near, that He is with you. May God bless all of your efforts.

Congratulations on your salvation and welcome to the family of God !!!

 

[PrayerHealsWhatReasonCant]

God will never abandon you, he just has his perfect time and place. Ive often thought like that and sometimes it takes ages but when it happens sometimes suddenly and other times bit by bit u understand that it really the best way that it couldve happened whether its because you have learnt lessons through your experiences, or for some other reason. hang in there. The Holy Spirit will always be in you to help when times get tough.

Tink x

 

[jussanuddername]

I guess maybe I expect too much. I don't think my requests are unreasonable. I just want to be happy. It seems that other Christians are content and accepting of where they are at with things. In the beginning of my relationship with Him, I always saw what was going on, I got answers for almost everything, then I had a major disapppointment and felt as if He let me down unjustly. Ever since then, my prayers have not been full hearted. I feel me down when I needed Him most and I can't see His will in this at all. Now nothing is going right. Every time things seems to be better, a whole boatload of bad circumstances surfaces. I don't want anything that anyone else doesn't want, why do I not get the same blessings as everyone else?

 

[bvwsmaker]

We really only discover how strong our faith is when we are tested by trials. Like the illustration you had in your blog with the carrot, the egg and the coffee! And there are circumstances where we might do what the carrot did and other circumstances where we might do what the egg did. [And even a few circumstances where we may be like the coffee!!! Those are encouraging!!!] But this is a process to be learned, usually through trials! (Paul wrote that he had learned to be content whatever the circumstances. (Philippians 4:11)) And we may fail more than we succeed because of that constant war that you spoke about in Romans 7 in your blog.

So it seems to me that you are proceeding normally in your christian walk. It might be nice if you could find some brothers to walk with. Are you still trying to find a church?

P.S. Your blog was really good!!! I enjoyed the depth of your honesty and the wonderful prayers that you had on there!!!

 

[Latreia]

Dear Heart,

Can you go to school to learn for your child?

Can you run homeruns and give your child the credit?

Can you eat healthy foods so that your child will be healty?

Does this mean you do not love and care about your child?

God plants the seed and the plants grows of its own. Your strength has increased only because God allowed you to learn to keep trying and in that, you have saved yourself, through His love for you. It took me 61 years to learn that He never gave me what I thought I wanted so much. I suffered the empty, loneliness, longing for love that never would appear for the first entire 50 years of my life. Until God found the miracle meant only for me.

I do not ask Him, "But why not sooner, Lord, all that time wasted?" He has opened my eyes to His loving plans and reasons for my life. I would suffer those years again to arrive in the place I am right now. No regrets, no wishing it had been easier or sooner or any different.

You will not be sad on your happy days ahead. You have come so far, through so much difficulty and over mountains that you have climbed.

"Courage is the price that life exacts for granting peace.
The soul that knows it not, knows no release from little things;
Knows not the livid loneliness of fear;
Nor mountain heights where bitter joy can hear
The sound of wings."
~~Amelia Earhart


There is an antidote for what you struggle with now. Guaranteed to work every time. Instead of the time you use being confused and aching, you can use the same time to reach out and seek others who struggle, find a cause to become a champion for those who cannot defend themselves. Choose from on this forum by searching the Recovery forum. There you will find how many share your suffering and in ways that you do not. There you will find their battles to overcome their weakness and ills. And there you will observe the loving, sincere hearts who reach out to share sympathy, comfort and encouragement.

It is not the suffering or pain or tragedy that can defeat us. It is our no longer trying, giving in, or failing miserably, not rising to fight again. You have heard that the straightest road to peace is through hell? You will know so many, besides yourself, who had to do just that. You have never been alone, but always with your family of mankind.

"Where we had thought to travel outward, / we shall come to the center of our own existance..../ Where we had thought to find an abomination, / we shall find a God..... / Where we had thought to conquer another, / we shall conquer ourselves..... / Where we had thought to be alone, / we shall be with all the world. "
~ Joseph Campbell

 

[jussanuddername]

Thanks Bv and Lateria for your encouraging words. I know that others have had far worse fates than me and that maybe things will improve for me soon. I just am at a bad time in my life and don't see much hope in the near future. Thanks for reading my blog. This was a tool for me that I have not used in a few months.

 

[shakingthedustoffmyfeet]

Every time things seems to be better, a whole boatload of bad circumstances surfaces. I don't want anything that anyone else doesn't want, why do I not get the same blessings as everyone else?

No matter what, God wants our whole hearts. It was a very difficult lesson for me to learn to surrender to His will. I thought I could make some of my own decisioins, and that God should be there to help me when I did not know what to do or when I got in a difficult situation.

When I became ill, I learned how to give God my whole heart. I learned how to surrender. I had no choice: my life had completely lost its meaning. I just could not function. I was nothing but pain, and it swallowed me. Depression began to accompany the pain.

That is when I learned I had to look beyond the circumstances. Circumstances are the enemy's tool. They take our eyes off the Cross, off Jesus. Jesus gave Himself as a sacrifice for us. I began to praise God and to seek Him because I wanted to know Him better. My pain was so bad that sometimes I would scream involuntarily throughout the day and night. Yet I felt the presence of God. I knew He was with me, and I learned that I would rather have 100 days like that than one pain-free day without Him.

Faith looks beyond circumstances, and you have faith. I will pray that you will get to know Jesus better. He is the best friend anyone can have. God bless you.

 

[Tumbleweed64]

Though times may seem rough right now my friend, He is beside you always, guiding the way.! As the saying goes, If He brings you to it, He will bring you thru it" I know it's hard, I've been there myself... Just always believe in Him, for He does work in wonderful and mysterious ways God Bless You!

 

[jussanuddername]

Thanks everyone for your support. I guess I need to get hold of the concept of unconditional surrender. Maybe I put expectations on God to help me with things that He has not been willing to help me with. I know He wants me to love Him no matter what, praise Him in light of whatever's going on with me and hope that maybe some day He will find me worthy of finding happiness in this life.

 

[Tumbleweed64]

Thanks everyone for your support. I guess I need to get hold of the concept of unconditional surrender. Maybe I put expectations on God to help me with things that He has not been willing to help me with. I know He wants me to love Him no matter what, praise Him in light of whatever's going on with me and hope that maybe some day He will find me worthy of finding happiness in this life.

 

[Daughter of His]

You are already worthy !!! We just all have to go through "stuff". He loves you, you are His personal creation.

 

[bvwsmaker]

Thanks everyone for your support. I guess I need to get hold of the concept of unconditional surrender. Maybe I put expectations on God to help me with things that He has not been willing to help me with. I know He wants me to love Him no matter what, praise Him in light of whatever's going on with me and hope that maybe some day He will find me worthy of finding happiness in this life.

It's not easy. I still struggle with it. But even my partial surrenders have given God something to work with and I find that He invites me to surrender more (rather than demand it). I'm grateful that He understands exactly where I'm at with my trust issues and I find His consistancy an amazing experience!!!

 

[joanne2]

know God loves you know he cares for you and
at your lowest moment in life he is there holding you
crying with you he know what your going through
he understands remember he was also human and suffered
sadness and pain dont give up hang in there I will pray for you
God bless love
Joanne2

 

[Catherineanne]

Hi
I was saved (at least I thought I was) a few months ago and things seemed to be going okay. Lately, I don't think God even hears my prayers. Nothing seems to be working out for me. I thought that if I have Him, I would never be alone.
Maybe I never had Him. Maybe I am wasting my time.

The very hardest prayer for any Christian to pray, in true sincerity, is the one Our Lord taught us. And specifically, this bit of it:

Thy will be done, on earth as it is in heaven

In my experience, my whole Christian life is learning what those words mean, and how important it is never to lose sight of them. If this is what you are praying for, then you may be absolutely certain that you are following in the footsteps of Our Lord. And look where this prayer led him; not to things 'working out' in any earthly sense at all, but to the cross. If your prayers do the same, then you are blessed, as He was. Who could ask for more?

(And yes, it is a shame that God's will for me does not include riches beyond the dreams of avarice, a posh car and six holidays a year. Or even a church where I can worship every week. Yes, I want all of that. But if they are not part of the deal, then clearly God has other ideas. And I have to learn to say amen, whatever he offers. Very hard. Very.)

Final point. You might like to search under 'Dark Night of the Soul'. This is a perfectly normal part of the journey. Hurts like blazes, but you are following the footsteps of many pilgrims before you.

 

[joanne2]

Hi
I was saved (at least I thought I was) a few months ago and things seemed to be going okay. Lately, I don't think God even hears my prayers. Nothing seems to be working out for me. I thought that if I have Him, I would never be alone.
Maybe I never had Him. Maybe I am wasting my time.

God does hear your prayers at your lowest point that is when he is carrying you dont give up he love you very much if you want to chat talk your welcome to email me
joanne2