I had no idea where to go about this, but somehow I got to this forum and signed up specifically to post this question! After two pregnancies that resulted in early (due to preclampsia) but beautifully healthy babies, we got scared. Mostly my husband got scared that we would have a sick baby or that he would loose me. So, he got a vasectomy. That was 2 years ago. I have felt lost ever since then. Actually, we were both over excited one month after the procedure when we thought we were pregnant, but it was a false positive. Now he is firmly happy with our little family, but I still feel lost! I want another baby so badly, I think about it every day, even on the hard days when my kids are not on their best behavior, I feel so lucky and blessed to even have them! He jokes about the fact that I have looked into a reversal, but we could never afford one. He thinks we could never afford another kid but I always say you make it work, right? We are middle class, struggle some months, but mostly are financially stable. Anyways, the worst part about all of this, and I really hope I'm not stepping on any toes by posting this because I truly need some guidance. So the worst part is that I literally have no sex drive now. I NEVER feel like being really intimate with my husband. The thought goes through my head "Nothing is going to come of it" and that totally ruins any mood I might have. I have prayed, I have cried, I have tried to talk to my husband but he just says we can't afford it so it isn't an option. I have this longing, this feeling like I should have had another baby. I feel like we took it into our own hands. I couldn't be on medical birth control before anyways, and our babies were very planned, so I feel even more horrible that we did this out of "convenience". It amazes me that the vasectomy cost only $50, but a reversal would cost in the thousands. But then, an adoption would be even more! Yikes! I am so all over the place here, sorry, but I am reallyjust looking for some advice and guidance. i love my two beautiful children, but want more!